I've always been a sucker for love
I always fall fast
And i always fall deep
Maybe its because of my abandonment issues
Maybe its because the people i call family
Just don't know how to show me love
Maybe its because I'm a true romantic
But whatever the reason
Its not a bad thing
Because love is a beautiful thing
In my opinion the most beautiful thing
Going through the countless times
My breath was taken
To all the times
Butterflies bounced off my stomach walls
To the times where
It felt as if my heart fell from my chest
The first time my lover told me
She loves me
To the time when
You realize you're heart
Is their home
When you find
That there is no place to be
But in her arms
From that first awkward kiss
To finding perfection in her lips
From the first
Passionate time you made love
To the next
From the first time
You held her hand
To never wanting her to leave your arms
Love is like oxygen
That's the truth
Love gives you freedom
Love gives you hope
Love gives you determination
Hell, love gives you life
And I Love, Love
Do you?

To listen to this thunder with me.
No make-up on, wear one of my
Shirts; leave what's left of
Yesterday's mascara.
I love you more, when you don't.

I need a woman.
I want to smell yesterday on you,
Perhaps your legs should have been
Shaved, but I have an itchy back
I can run across them;

Costs you nothing but a pose.
I need a woman who says "You
Really should not go in there,
Use the sink, I'll do the dishes with
Antibac tomorrow."

I need a human. Not a Victoria's Secrets
Model; someone all blood and bones
And body who puts my hand
Under my shirt,
And says: "I know you're a poet,

So if I only give you this, you'll still
Find enough in there to keep you
Occupied with a poem about it until
******* is over, and I can give you
The rest..."

I have a friend who can clear his whole
Restaurant for us.
The fact that you'd rather be here with
Me, on this sofa, makes me wish you were
Real. I need a *woman.

I remember how you
pushed me against the wall
and in a way I would never fall
pressed your body onto mine
Your arms gripped tight like a vine
You closed your eyes
To mask your want in disguise
Then hasted to kiss me
My lips parted as to agree
Your pin so firm,so strong
There was no way I could've escaped even if it felt wrong
But honestly I just wanted that too
My heart beat as if wild animals were at the zoo
It was weird yet right
Unknown and light
Perfect and flawed
Bound to make us awed
Now I hate how it ended
Its not like I wanted
Now I have to bear this feeling
Of something missing
To avoid the temptation
Of your lips filled with flirtation
So cold yet soft
Bow shaped and liked most

I hate how I close my eyes and think of you and what happened
My heart saddened
Knowing I shouldn't and I couldn't do it anymore
Hanging by those word to which you swore.

Scars on my wrist
And scars on my leg.
Scars on my heart,
Please no more i beg.

But i put down the blade
And picked up the gun
Ending this life
I imagine would be fun

I'm losing my mind
And that is true
I'm just a tortured soul
And i don't know what to do

No one will help
All they do is put me down
I wonder what they'll say
When I'm not around

But that's ok
I won't tell a soul
About my emotions running wild
And out of control

And when I'm gone
I mean dead
Don't come to my funeral
Cause i don't want one tear shed

I still think about you frequently
And by that i mean every second
Of everyday.
I can't escape this broken heart
As if you were my first love,
Although I wanted you to be my last.
I've tried healing myself,
By dating other women
And yes, even men to.
Its actually became quite excessive,
But not one had been able to heal
The damage caused by you.
I want to move on,
I really do
But i also still want you.
In my dreams
You embrace me
And i glisten
But my dreams are always veiled,
And i wake in a state of disarray.
The while situation is opaque
And i feel oblivious
As i clutch onto something
That's no longer there.
But i visualize you
Still in love with me
Because i know
I still love you.