Heat rays fall through a clear rainbows arch unto the earth
Clay brittled under light upon light
Crusted to dust as earth becomes the earth
Dryness all around as desert comes the norm
Is this the way we go
should we not head all our harm
We have a chance to change yet money
rules the waves
A figure on paper leads to all the blames
One day ther'll never be such madness
in our world
I hope we never go here
our dust to dust

Early is the wrong time
a long time to be on
early is to early to wakey up inside
early aint so easy.. aint no freedom to live
earlys just to early to get out me pit

so stay in bed and dream a little
live a little at night
wake to some songbirds some sunshine breaking in
wake stretchin armiiess and leggiees and lots of tea
wake up at the right time and not the early we live

can you feel the emptiness
can you feel the pain
its there right inside of you
its there for all to see

feel it in your dreams
wanting breaking free
can you feel the emptiness
can you feel the pain

lost and gone forever
never to be seen
family ,freinds and lovers
faces in the sand
can you feel the emptiness
can you feel the pain

pictures from another world
times from long ago
memories held for evermore

can you feel the emptiness
can you feel the pain
emptiness has its hold on you
tears wet.. to ease the pain

Can you feel the emptiness
Can you feel the pain
It's there be that inside of you
It's there for all to see

Feel it in your dreams
Wanting breaking free
Can you feel the emptiness
Can you feel the pain

Family,friends and lovers
Old faces lost to sand
Can you feel the emptiness
Can you feel the pain

Lost and gone forever
Never to be seen
Can you feel the emptiness
Can you feel the pain

Pictures from another world
Times from long ago
Memories held for evermore
Can you feel the emptiness
Can you feel the pain

Emptiness has its hold on you
Tears wet
To dry a bleeding heart
Yet nothing hides my hollow eyes
I feel so full of emptiness
I feel so full of pain

Their minds are dead
It's in my head
No subtle notes
Just thought's not read

They don't see what
How or when
Yet lead a life
Of grin to pen

Mere robots of our
Life these days
In 84 we prayed
In slaves

It's here and now
The blinded lead
The new world rises
Gotten greed

The day approaches
Yet no sight
In our blinded washed
All out

Mayans knew our time
Was near
Time to count our blessing
Fear

No more dates and blinded lives
Words done fighting
This our life
Our end of time

At the age of 3
me hammer
nails and all
my play stuff from me dad
I was a happy lad

Those were the good times me lad
those were the best
these are our fine times
enjoy the test!!
just be a pest!!!!!!!!!

At 6 I had a trike ..
life was a happy life
did wheelies all the time
was hot
the summer fine

Those were the good times me lad
those were the best
these are our fine times
enjoy the test
just be a pest!!!!!!!!!


At 10 my life caved in
as grandad fell within
my time to grow ......
an adult life

Those were the sad times me lad
those wer'nt the best
these are our fine times
enjoy the test
just be a pest!!!!!!!!!

At 14 i did alright
got gruff a voice a fright
kicked footy till it hurt
stood lamping in the dark

Those were the good times me lad
those were the best
these are our fine times
enjoy the test
just be a pest!!!!!!!!!

And now its all done over
my work I'm almost sober
I'm old yet way before my time
tis time to pass the baton to son
come on lets have em

Enjoy the good times me lad
these are the best
those were our fine times
enjoy the test
just be a pest!!!!!!!!!

I close my eyes to hide
Faces looking,watching, waiting
My return to open near
Why me I cry
Leave me alone
Leave me mad

Each time my eyes do open  
I see them waiting
Souls from beyond watching
Haunting
Some laughing at my
terror

I see them in the curtains
I see them on the walls
faces full of people
madness be my calm

My gift or be my punishment
They speak just with their eyes
Looking,wanting,waiting
In my despair

Darkness of night take my eyes away
Relief from the faces
No light I prey
No look to come my way
Moonlight shadows beckon
See faces stare my way

darkness all around me as I lay about to sleep
was thinkin of the future was future without me
would I wake up to see the light a new day born I hope
or woud my body fade away last breath gone up in smoke

I guess you know the answer as I sit here writing this
but are you here to read my thoughts to share my wakened bliss
I'll never know the answer unless you speak through god
or maybe we will meet again along well trodden path

my thoughts of black did hide... a deep and darkened fear
was I about to miss all this... a fate.. nor goodbye cheer
I know ..I know the answer ...will come to me one day
when I have passed upon this earth and words just fade away

darkness all around me as I lay about to sleep
was thinkin of the future was future without me
would I wake up to see the light a new day born I hope
or woud my body fade away last breath gone up in smoke

I guess you know the answer as I sit here writing this
but are you here to read my thoughts to share my wakened bliss
I'll never know the answer unless you speak through god
or maybe we will meet again along well trodden path

my thoughts of black did hide... a deep and darkened fear
was I about to miss all this... a fate.. nor goodbye cheer
I know ..I know the answer ...will come to me one day
when I have passed upon this earth and words just fade away

Darkness all around me
As I lay about to sleep
Was thinking of the future
Was future without me

Would I wake to see the light
A new day born I hope
Or would my body fade away
Last breath gone up in smoke

I guess you know the answer
As I sit here writing this
But are you here to read
my thoughts
To share my wakened bliss

I'll never know the answer
Unless you speak through god
Or maybe we will meet again
Along well trodden path

My thoughts of black did hide
A deep and darkened fear
Was I about to miss all this
A fate
Nor goodbye cheer

I know
I know the answer
Will come to me
One day

When I have passed
upon this earth
These words just
Fade away

Eyelids closed to the sightless view's
In my dreams of once ago

A lifeless loomed

This day of emptiness
A vision gone away

This day a realise
My dreams all faded grey

A call so early was the night
A sleep once had
Did send me over
Was this the way to be I'm told

This day of blindness
Chained to the road

This day in time held past
Picture's painted heaped to last

In sightless sky as my blindfold held
The heat demanded
Its nearly over
This faded grey
Lost forever

Into the new I walk
as my old self falls apart
Into the old I loose
as life turns and walks

Craze do the way
Disco to the future
Dance from the past  
Live as your last

Life for the live
as old departs to history  
Live for the life
Forget the past
Blown to the wind in dust now wild

Craze do the way
Disco to the future
Dance from the past  
Live as your last

My future do walk
in a moon full and bold
Awaiting the slither to unfold
Madness take on me  
Till the new win me over

Craze do the way
Disco to the future
Dance from the past  
Live as your last

Live to the new
Life to the full
Fade out the old
Faded to the new

I saw it in a flash
the corner of my eye
my life was nearly over
my time on life to die

I tried to hang on in there
my world just on a thread
but gravity just had me
the end was winning in

could feel i'm for the fall
no desperate words of sorrow
my only thing to say
was wife i love you
everrrrrrrrrr!!!

I fear the face that fears of doubt and lost thrown years all lights gone out
still regrets of things not done the facing fear a life begun
many times i wondered why the fear in me became my lie
time to turn the page in time time to move the opening line

Tear me apart as I melt in to conform
in life a beating takes me as I  bang upon the door
so what can I do when all around do fail
**** up to another shot ...as i hear the louder hail

Tingles to my blood as I reach to beat the breath
this dawn so comes a new day
one day ...a day is less
feel so that they cheated
baited on my voice
hated from the paper men  
chasing for their toys

I guess I draw the dutch and drink a little more
a hiding from the other side a simple fail or fall
yet here I sit to rain washed  tears
in fear of fear
in fear of fail

Her pain inside hidden from the view
Yet a telltale crack fell upon her clear pearlescent skin
The fear was winning
Another day fell away to the constant noise within
Fear was winning

The all knowing source which controlled her life
Wanting more!! needing more!! having all!!
Fear was eating
Fear was winning
Life was fading

Freedom needed to an unknown life
Time for chains no longer strife
Fear was falling
Strength from failure past the hurting
Fear was failing

Eyes now open to a life to live
Fear was ebbing
Sparkling joy from a smile this future
Fear was fading
Open wide to a new beginning
Happiness in living !!

Control they say its all yours sir
yet when you drive your in the law
your in the system that they say what
no self control
no life
you pay
they tax your soul to stay alive
come the nomad come this time
be your life  
do run away
let be free
lets go stray
pay no tax and join the greed

They have control and blind we see
to work to bone for pennies me
whats left to spend is given back
to feed the fuel
to work your soul
corrupt the system say the no
change this world bring in the show

No bankers bonus for gamblers sin
no jetting off whilst children thin
ban the arms that shoot the poor
feed the nation loose the war
pay the workers fair too all
not the rich an equal law
ban the lords for what they do
clean our streets
Our life.... its due

Its time for me
Its time for you

feel the wind blow through me as I wander up through time
wandering where my past is and all thats left behind
staring at the moon ,it side we only see
im left to feel the wind blow softly feel the breeze

thoughts on freinds and loved ones that fell away in pasts
wondering on their lifes now ..did they really last
are they in the sun and feeling good on earth or maybe six foot under
pushing up the dirt

wonder if they feel the wind like i feel ...so fresh
do they ever think of me ..has my thoughts been left
will someone remember me for being who i am
will they feel the wind like me ..i hope they really can

Yes I know its gonna happen
I know i have to fall
but at least warn me when deaths about to call
......................................
does it hurt ,what will i feel ,
I guess it wont matter as darkness takes it hold
the hurt is for other left upon this world
......................................
Can i fight it back another day ,will it grab me and take me far away
well peace i hope is all i want and breath to fight another may

Sitting here with my head lowered I feel the depths of sleep tire me at the very core
My hand reaches through my hair,fingertips stretching searching seen trying to wake this sorry soul
grasping at the short strands that used to be a dark mass yet now resemble some lost scared ghost of Christmas past
I sit here trying to write my future
trying to forget some past
The screen looks blurry as my glasses no longer do their job, yet another sign this body and soul is in decline.Glasses off and all comes clear again .Dam these eyes as i rub and rub the sore red stinging that comes with age and sleep deprivation.
My mind is full of fireworks whilst my body is made of wax thats been sat to near the glowing embers of a log fire set there for the night.Oh to have a normal mind ,a mind that forgets ambition ,forgets his dream, forgets reality ,maybe its time to join big brother and become a prole
Would life be so different,would I learn to sleep any better ,would my life become more wholesome
do I need another life ...
na my fireworks are my life
my madness is my way and my writing keeps me sane...the alcohol consume me, hides me, deserts me yet my family love me ...god knows why I think they must be drugged ,maybe its hypnosis maybe just maybe its me ...as for my friends bless em they really must be desperate ...well a proles live for me or back to my quazi quazi life, back to the fireworks in my mind, back into the openness of the sea

The wind did blow around my soul
it parted life and breath to be
its coldness somewhat eatin out
its bitter biting deep and proud

still I walked into the breath of mothers life
a fog of death or maybe life
it crawl around and tried to tickle but I was ready

I RAN ...

I ran so fast ...I couldn breath
the fog ...the cold was chasing back
I turned and twisted but fight it did
So close so far ...yet breath give in !!


I crashed the door and stepped inside
my home ..its smell so sweet...so light
kettle on and tea to brew
i beat the cold and fog that blew
Until the next time for which I knew
the fog and cold would come to stew

The shiver hurt me
A tingle that grew stronger
Cutting me apart
See my world fall down

So I stare at the sign
The words read
Forcing eyes to bleed
From this hurt
From the wrong

All that pain
For nothing
No rules to bend
All so
My end

It grew
A crescendo like no other
A dying scream
Becomes my silent dream
All gone
Forever

I hunger for your wit as my eyes do desire thee
See the answer to the question lays heavy on my soul
This number in my head lays the key to all around me
Praise my heart will it open
Praise my solemn head will win

The world is awaiting for the kiss of my freedom
Baited to the breath of the spiders claw
Ask me the question and I''ll hide all my lies
Give me the way to your door, let me taste your heart
For Urim and Thummim protect all that wait

Let me in to your circle for I have the question
Hear my whisper to those ears, I have the answer
Look into my eyes see the centre of the world
See the centre of the universe
Play your music to my ears
Read the the Ultimate Question of Life, The Universe, and Everything

For "What do you get if you multiply six by nine?"
Listen very carefully read my lips

I cant explain it but a calm is over me
ive lost all of my anger and freedoms set me free
Eltons playing as I drink me tea and I think its gonna be all fine
all fine and free

rocket man is flying and i feel just as fine
fine as a flower about to come to bloom
sunnier that the pond that glistens back at me
happier than a bird in flight and free

feel so free and love this life
its one chance in destiny a chance thats all mine
free is waking when sun comes up
free is singing me songs of love
free to finally be me

The year did pass and felt so quick
another year without his whit
he played his golf upon the new
it was his last until his due!!!
.......................................
I died a year or Two.. a wake I guess
but now I think of him no less
He loved and liked and made me cry
........................................
why oh why did he so die
........................
I know look back and want to say
so so much got in our way
Dad ..you *** you got me good
Boy I loved so so much

The clouds seem grey today
Is it me I hear you play
Was no mood for laughing loud
Feel the deepest darkest howl

Started like the fun I have
Then the clouds of grey bit back
So I is here to feel the mood
Black and grey all coloured blue

Let's hope the wind does do its job
Blow my mind ...blow the lot
Bring that sunny sunshine smile
Make me happy Gangman style

Breath ..breath my heart did say
gaspin air dreading day
breath ..breath my lungs did burst
******* fightin through the dirt

Finally oh the breath did come ..
heart did beat a mighty drum
veins a pumping ..life reliving
breath of air so life so giving