andy fardell

andy fardell Mar 2014

I see my madness has failed to desert me
Still
I must enjoy the company
Reply to the sounds of my many silenced
Laughs
Oh the chill of the night
Warms my inner thoughts as the battle commences
In this hollowed out box

These are the nights I so worry
Where will my wakening take me my friends
See all that you thought you were
Means nothing to these words that lay before
My swollen crackling eyes
Hahaha I so love my wit

And the joy continues even as the dawn
Lays me down for a sleep so so desperately
Seeking my voice

Go
Sleep myself to sleep
Let the sounds fade to a lullaby haze
Watch the mad breath of life seek another
Give me peace
Let me sleep ...let me sleep

andy fardell Feb 2014

Rose

The tingling rose fed its way into the hall
Yet the place drew a silence ...
Up the stairs it grew
Ready for the lair
Ready for your lips
Breath easy
Breath the still
For you know its there
You can feel it round you as you gasp a quite scream
The tingling rose has entered
And because of this
It is you that is the chosen one
It is you that needs to bleed the earth
Shhh for now you are mine
And only I can take you from this haunting
Say you love me
Say you will join me
As I bequest this rose for freedom
Freedom from the evil that lays
So that you may live in my
Last breath....My Love

andy fardell Feb 2014

Worn

The blunted edge played a tune to my mindless stare
In and out my focus waned
Time was on track

My chair had become my prison as the week fell away
The dawn of the tomorrow wanted today
And a tear formed in my sadness

The smile all for show
Cracked
Faded
Worn
Worn like a frock for the masses
And the sheep do follow

So I seek the golden liquid
The one that feeds my thirst
My elixir of life
And
The white hare has won

Till I wake under a new light
Crawl back into the past
Lower my head from the view
Let the shame go on

andy fardell Feb 2014

Empty

My empty mind so full of the past
All lost to the future
Dead to the present
These eyes given blur

Nothing feels me anymore
No pain to gain
Nor thrill given pill
A soul wrapped in anger
Tossed for the waste

Oh the joys of another breath
Feeding these veins so cruel to myself
A sighed voice screams in the quiet
Wake this shout
Fill me

Can you not see the fight in me
It wants to live
It wants to run and shout
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive

Instead I turn my face to a cold pillow
Look away from a world I could love
Let me find the deep deep black
I call home
Leave me
Leave me ....alone

#pain #sadness

andy fardell Feb 2014

The Rise Of The Blue Swan

He hid in the shadows of his life
For the world hurt him and all that he wanted
A mind shattered into the shards of hurt that burned
His skin at the merest thought

The blue swan laid low
Like a sunset hidden in the midday sun
Or a full moon ready in the depths of the darkest hollow
His time would come
The blossom would break and his beating wings would soon rise
For he was the blue swan
His pen ready yet she was hidden in the clouds of his uncleared mind
A mate for his remainder
Their love
His way

Swan so blue please wake from your bitter
Shine like the kindred spirit you had before the storm
Swan of the day
Love of the night
Your future is waiting
So bright is your fire
The day has come for the blue swan to fly
So beat like the earth on the run
Rise to the mountains
Shout to the sky
Fly
Blue
Fly ..

andy fardell Feb 2014

This Sword

It is my ink inlaid with blood that I do write from my heart,I fear not what lays before me I fear not what walls my quill may break. I need no shame in what I write nor feel as my writing will and shall remain so from me and my heart My sword is sharp,sharper than any steel for I need no threat to obtain my feelings,no anger in my voice for only in your mind will I blossom and win the war within ....the peace shall be my Eden

andy fardell Feb 2014

The World Is Broken

We carry on our daily roles
We breath the air
Control our goals
And yet I wonder if we do care
Our world is broken
In despair

I watch the news
It's bitter taste
All this anger
All this rage
No food to feed the poor and needy
Bankers bonus
Hungry
Greedy

Fighting over dust of land
Politicians killing grand
All because a dollar bill
Yen or sterling
All gods will

Blankets hidden
Cold go shiver
Fine the starving
Feed the killer

I believe we've come to far
The world is broken
Self the harm
The world is broken
I'm in tears
Ive seen the future
This my fear

Note ....Having watched the news tonight I am completely broken,canceled children's operations in my own back yard ,fighting in Syria,bankers gambling our pensions away,bedroom tax,sanctions for those most in need of food ,profits for big business while the poor go unfed,police soldiers and yes big brother watching us.
Why do we allow such countries to fight,is it not the people that suffer,why do we allow the likes of North Korea,why do we allow the likes of America to treat their poor as so yet spend so much on warfare.Why do we treat our elderly so awful in the UK.
Why ???
Why ???
Why ???

Because The World is Broken .....