He said to me,

"The reason you find yourself alone so much is because you are truth, where people want to turn a blind eye.
You're a constant reminder of the things that they're terrified to say and so instead of loving you,
They run away and say nothing at all."

It's not that I want to be alone
I just don't know how to not be this way

If we never talk about it
Then I won't have to realize my greatest fear that

*You don't love me anymore

Screaming in my head
Are words that repeat over and over again
"You are so worthless"
"You are meant to be alone"
"You are fool for thinking anyone could love you"
"You are so stupid for thinking it would have worked out"
"You are not meant for fairytales"
"Maybe if you were simple and less broken people would stick around"

And I grab onto my heart
Piercing through the skin on my chest
To hear the faintest whisper of exhausted hope
"You are what heroes are made of, you are strong enough to conquer this"

And through eyes blurred with tears
I lift my head up and remind all the voices pounding in my ears
*I am a warrior, I was born to fight

The hardest thing I ever did was leave you

I knew I had to
But to this day,
It's still the only time I've ever doubted my own strength

As they sat silently next to one another
She delicately slipped her hand into her old lover's

She smiled faintly and let out a small laugh the sounded more like a sigh
*"Funny isn't it? After all this time, you're still the most familiar thing I'll ever know."

And it made sad
You didn't want to see the words
That I so delicately crafted
To express the beauty that occurs
When I am entwined with you

And that's what set you apart from all the other lovers
The fact that for the first time in my life I got to collapse into someone's arms
And I wasn't required to be the
strong, independent, fearless person the world saw

I simply got to unravel, unload
*And breathe