Happy New Year, my love.
I hope you have no one to kiss.
And I hope when that clock
strikes 12,
that I become
something you miss.

I wish I had known you when you were alive,
when your heart was still beating and your skin was flush.
I wish I had known your will to survive when your thoughts weren't in such a rush.

I wish I had met you back when we were young,
before all these trials of life...
I wish we had cried all our tears to the ground and evicted the whole of our strife.

Never, no never, did I ever think
that I'd bury a friend like you.
But clever, so clever, those poisonous barbs that split both our hearts in two.

I loved you so deeply, though you were so cold
I was fooled by the warmth of a lie.
Naked and blinded I gave you the knife
and lifted my eyes to the sky.

Now I've stumbled through darkness and stretched for a hand, wishing sometimes I could die.
While loneliness dances across my heart, suppressing my urge to cry.

I wish I had known you when you were alive,
when your heart was still beating and your skin was flush.
I wish I had known that I'd lose such a friend in a sparring that I couldn't crush.

I wish I had met you back when we were young,
before all these trials of life...
I wish we had cried all our tears to the ground and evicted the whole of our strife.

Never. No never.
Did I ever think that I'd bury a friend like you.....

But clever, so clever, those poisonous barbs that split both our hearts in two.

she's more human at night.
the cold quiets her

racing heart and
wandering mind, it

forces her to search and
teaches her to be still, she's
less human at night.

Help me to remember
by helping me to forget

I invited my friend over
To keep from killing myself
I wish I didn't even ask
Because I now feel trapped

The urge to cut too strong
The will to die to great
I am trying to crawl out of the hole
But it feels like Depression gnaws at my feet

It bites at the nails on my toes
And wraps the tongue around the ankle
It's claws tug at my waist
The aroma of death clings to me

And I'm trying to keep my head
Above the abyss of sadness
But I'm so tempted just to
Let myself sink in

To allow my body to relax
And let depression drag me down
My muscles are sore from holding on
My body is scared beyond
recognition

It feels like a long way
Down to the bottom
But I bet if I let is slit my wrists
I would feel the relief I crave

So monster monster
Hiding in my head
Come out now, come out
It's time for me to be dead