I keep it closed because i can not hide

all that is left that pain inside

you told me once you would not hide

but there you go and you left me behind

it makes me weak to think of you

because i know i dont have you

its happened once its happened twice

for some reason fate has rolled its dice

if i let you deep inside i know you will just run and hide

and there ill be all alone

just like they left me from before.

I’ll rip it out and dress it up make it something thats its not, broken shattered on the floor with no hope but only morn a broken promise nevermore whats lost is gone and nothing more.

People buzzing like busy bees

No worries No caution

Just swaying in and out like the trees

They sway and they dance

But never move on

Stuck in one place

with no hope but yet tons

Your stuck in this life

weather you like it or not

So wake up and stop sleeping

through this life

Ive heard it before

not only once

theres nothing to live for

No strive no push

Just find that thing that

Fits with just you

I promise its AMAZING

and i know you WILL make it through.

I feel every scratch

every pricing look

and every drop of blood

daggers fly across from your eyes

could words really stab me like yours do

so many feeling rushing around me like dust

you probe me like i have a thick hust

confusion runs over me

i dont know how to react

but i know you see the scars

scars are pretty to me they all have a story

weather or not you put them there

so show me your skin

let me feel each bump in each hair

lets be romantic

only for it all to fall apart

i wanna see you smile

but i get ignored

i am not that important

you could do with out

god i crave you

in that i have no doubt

Run away from this horrible land  

there is nothing here but this pile of sand

you can sit on it and blow it away

you can make perfect pattern in perfect ways

but no matter how beautiful it all blows away

into another pile for just another day

Your strong they say as i wither away

numb from realty i cant stand to live this way

Confidence is key but in the end it never won

because you are evil

your trouble and i feel it

this battle is never done

Your lips touch mine and we hover

just for a moment things seem fonder

then reality sets in and i wonder

why do i do this as he cuddles me closer

trapped in a fantasy that will never come true

you silly girl

why would it for you?

I toss and i turn for my cold thoughts can hurt

frost bit and hot water its never my turn

you have made her yours

but nothings so sweet

and am only and idea

or maybe a play thing

softly i hold you your skin against mine

its great in the moment lets just stay frozen in time

i want to let go

but you give me no options

i have to stay strong

for my walls are made of copper