i limited myself
on purpose
set up a procedure
for my future self
to pause at
a certain place
and be considerate
but when my warning arrived
from the past me
that turned future me
now to now me
and now me
and n o w me
i could still decide
whether to accept my
own rule or
completely discard it
and glimpsed i am
all the me’s
in all of the times
and in all of the projections
and in all of the reflections

what will happen
when the sun comes back?
what will happen then?
what will happen then?

will   things   love   time   thing   life   eyes   feel   light   people   mind   beautiful   thought   find   heart   man   place   face   moment   good   hard   night   day   imagine   earth   hope   sun   going   better   music   truth   hear   air   space   woman   men   break   white   suddenly   ****   understand   body   black   women   wrong   best   real   brain   art   word   cry   girls   *******   keep   remember   wall   fire   lies   path   pretty   sure   red   hold   blue   sleep   thoughts   thinking   speak   sound   human   terror   stand   tears   feeling   move   fool   dark   ****   matter   pain   voice   listen   sad   years   state   strange   learn   *******   water   sky   left   times   golden   crazy   record   forward   coming   person   wanted   fear   desire   bad   care   kind   felt   queen   sense   glass   making   winter   hair   days   deep   song   mine   true   power   long   dream   green   matters   breathe   entire   create   paper   single   woods   fall   lost   hey   realize   live   looked   stupid   knew   watch   beauty   moving   walk   quiet   strength   guess   decide   choose   close   help   silence   cold   reality   write   trees   fine   bright   pieces   feet   loved   eye   birds   smile   sister   cast   money   listening   bird   lines   question   honest   figure   hell   simply   gold   work   build   metal   fast   follow   lips   gonna   piece   blood   trust   ***   head   forget   describe   silver   silly   happened   color   bass   hate   wild   inside   hand   call   great   dead   walking   god   chest   big   ready   ideas   order   hands   grey   nice   year   afraid   car   game   pull   takes   paint   today   sadness   sounds   breath   burn   wine   high   lights   fact   job   clear   closer   point   grasp   cool   smoke   thinks   aware   minutes   heavy   stars   sake   full   ground   bring   straight   stay   throw   family   taught   waves   songs   second   children   literally   running   dreams   free   sit   alive   save   heard   open   easily   ways   education   nature   sweet   house   lose   happiness   death   wait   slowly   ago   tree   mouse   despair   bones   memory   fly   seek   storm   note   brilliant   circle   country   reach   side   wood   girl   hiding   baby   told   mitsubishi   boy   crying   yellow   retreat   corner   *****   story   moves   pretend   standing   boom   bed   meaning   guys   telling   cousin   whisper   watched   opponent   gaze   jesus   humanity   hot   cheese   slow   universe   warm   rush   soft   ****   escape   colors   gin   constantly   fair   imagined   leave   die   pay   young   gotta   utter   revealed   brought   school   leaves   data   clearly   apart   absence   guts   blankets   start   flow   idea   eat   liberated   happy   problem   nights   tiny   yeah   grow   dragon   arms   attention   orange   finally   recognize   force   seriously   play   sitting   wife   sick   opposite   expect   void   action   knowing   rare   purpose   deserve   strong   completely   teach   hide   shape   answer   father   simple   alert   sir   ice   turn   names   rage   decided   lives   perfect   circles   hours   wind   caught   tight   room   calm   worth   energy   future   liar   government   pink   falling   exactly   secret   challenge   vast   center   direct   lay   letting   stones   weight   surely   miserable   reading   assault   cuz   watching   happening   admit   met   serious   legs   president   stories   struggle   shine   shadow   unable   ahead   purple   smell   turns   worst   crushing   moon   shining   turned   roll   hurt   teeth   wanting   talk   child   land   angry   pounding   low   utterly   consider   failed   change   funny   mouth   held   distracted   feels   fail   news   empty   dance   ugly   mile   joy   raw   view   squirrel   teacher   dust   reasonable   fun   walls   fingers   road   complete   allow   touch   fed   confusion   reflected   growing   add   someday   paying   grass   born   strike   bend   pulling   brings   searching   dancing   burning   reaching   pretending   mirror   fight   violence   weapons

and apparently,
some days
your body hurts
and you peel
a cucumber in bed
when you realize you
should probably eat
and then you throw the peels
right on
the ******* floor
(just for now)
(just because you can)

so sue me!
i like to drive fast
let me
have this one
mf joy
and just move that honda, boy!
crank that shaft, dawg
and just get out
the way, dude!
all you have to do
is get out
the way!

if i were to
hear your voice
i would be
crushed to ashes
to dust
to gold
and thrown into
the sky
only to fall
as a star
to the earth
to dust
to ash
to particle
to light