I'd reach for stars and bring them to you,
If I wasn't already squinting.

In my dreams,
There you stand
In front of me
Face to face
If only you can see
My smile from a mile away
Looking in your eyes
I felt a certain way
It was hard to say
When you took my breath away
Take out your hand
I would rather show
Than tell you how
U really makes me feel
In my hand
Was this beautiful art
Which is fragile and easily broken
I like to call it my precious heart
Walking the path
To get to you
All of a sudden
I start to think of the past
That had my heart
Feeling so blue
I stop and look at you
And memories started
Rolling through me
Through me
I forgot what it was like
To hear your deep voice
Ringing in my ears
I forgot what it was like
To have my heart
Skip a beat
Every time you near
I forgot what it was like
When u touched me
And I just melted
I forgot what it was like
To be in your arms
And never wanted to let go
I forgot what it was like
To Fall deeply
In love with you
Tears drop down
As u start disappearing
And my heart start racing
Trying to get to you
Here I am pacing
When pain appearing
Crying out “please don ‘go”
But sadly u was already gone
All of a sudden
I woke up
Thinking it was only a dream
Then I look at my hand
And there it was
Pieces of a scattered heart
That I can no longer called
My beautiful art

i am not sure
where the end of the road
will take me today
i hope it takes me, at least, away
away from this small town in this sunny state
away from these suffocating walls
away from the ghosts of the faces of those i thought i once knew
away from the memories
of when you walked out the door
of when you left me for good
of when you tried to come back
when i thought you never would
and away
away from that time when you chose that new life over us
away from your constant grasping, craving my attention
as if we switched roles
as if i am now the parent instead and you are the child, instead
away from the childhood i once enjoyed
away from the
me-mor-ies
away from what i thought i could hold as mine and mine alone
away from what you took from me long ago

i said stop! stop that now!
but my blood won't listen
and my lungs won't listen
and my brain won't listen

and all the external features are blind to me
they turn away and frown
they stamp their feet all over me and let me down

and inside i feel like a hurricane
it's been let loose, destroying my sanity
my soul feeling much like the storming sea

my skin is a cage and my heart is trapped within
it calls out to the open air, says, "let it all blow over!"
but no one is near to lend a four-leafed clover

i'm **** out of luck,
got to get through
the panic
*again.