There are two places where I feel safe,
here, this very site,
and that room.
It's weird to say I feel safe in a room
such as that,
it's a classroom.
But it's the one of my hero,
so I guess it makes sense.
Right?
I don't know.
All I know is that when I'm in there,
like when I'm on here,
I want to spill everything.
I want to tell her of the
**** that wasn't ****,
but I know I shouldn't
because who wants to hear that?
And will I even have the guts
to use my vocal chords to say it?
Can I say it aloud?
I never even told her the real reason Kung Fu came to an end,
that ****** assault has been a common occurrence the past few years.
I can even see the awkwardness now.
She'd ask how it was but was not,
and I'd have to tell her how I let my innocence go, to an extent.
I said no ***,
but it went in,
his underwear being my savior.
I'll tell her how I'm leaving to the next tower,
because my roommate kicked me out,
even though she was the one who caused the problems.
I'll tell her that, no problem.
I'll tell her how my neighbors
are strangers who think they know me.
I'll tell her my excitement to leave all this.
I'll tell her that, no problem.
But how do I tell her of my assaulter?
I need to outwardly tell somebody,
and I need one of her hugs.
Maybe it'll slip out.
I want to tell her, though.
I want to tell a lot of people.
But do they want to hear it?
That's my question.
There are two places where I feel safe:
here,
and that classroom.