When you are not around, I'll look for you
And when you are found I'll snuggle close to you
I'll peck your pouting lips
I'll hold you tight like this
I'll carry you around my back
When your feet's hurting bad
When you are feeling sick, I will tend to you
And when you're feeling cold, I'll be the blanket just for you
I'll bring you water to obey your thirst
I'll be the best among the rest
I'll be the fill when you're feeling lack
Turn your frown around when you're feeling sad

We are young and so wrong
But we are done and moving along
The order, we suffer
They took as in for ******
We are lost and broken
But it made us strong, awoken
Our father, we suffer
You left us sleeping in the gutter
We are old and the lonely
But we are holding so much memory
The gallows, we suffer
Choking hanging ropes getting tighter
Now we are just dust and ashes
Scattered through the wind in masses
The freedom, no more to suffer
Forever we'll journey on as a drifter

With so much letters written
And not a word is made
With so much hate I'm aching
Best plan she ever laid
The lies as she cheat is growing
My heart is better off dead
But I kept on keeping me going
Till the end, waited for the time she said
'Sorry we can't be together anymore...I love
someone else and you started to become a bore'
That night is the night where I lost control
I went out on a rampage shutting down all doors
I thought about losing her so many times before
But it really weren't that easy, specially her acted like a *****
The day came where she came back begging
With open arms and a tight hug, I'm grinning
What's in my mind is as sick attempt of ******
Only the sufffering is one can bear forever
3 years of silence a masquerade and a dance
Whispering past echoes saying'this is your chance'
Of what to do with my caged wrath?If she is so warm lying on my arms
I am waiting and hating her loving and keeping her off harm
Only to ripen the revenge sweet tasty and profound
And so I'm still waiting..Kissing her forehead and let her sleep without a sound..

You sinked your teeth deep within my skin
You left me here dying, lying down bleeding
Our memories reminds me of my sins
Buried with regrets locked up in a coffin
You woke me up with a cold touch from your lips
The warmness is long gone, love grown cold and stiff
What have we become? a monster of our own?
Chasing ghosts devouring bliss as lies goes on
Between us is a broken mirror with so many reflections
Where none of it are real, a keleidoscope of lies and deceptions
Proving our feelings as plastic fake, a masquerade
With betrayal as our companion marching our parade
Our last waltz as we dance in this treacherous symphony
The melody goes on till' then end, and for eternity

I lost my heart in a prison
devoured by doubts and fears
I lost my way of reason
As the dust it never clears
I lost the right to recover
when I drown myself with tears
I lost the will to remember
Clouding my mind for years
Where have you gone? Struggling to remember
What Am I missing?Why am I forgetting
What have I done? Looking for forgiveness
Who am I missing? Why am I aching
Where is the sun? I need to see us clearer
It's you I am missing! When my heart's stops beating
You are the one we need to get closer
closer together and be us forever

I'm on a bed with needles tucked on my skin
With a respirator that makes me breathe from within
In a coma not aware if I'm asleep or awake
This must be a joke! or a nightmare I cannot shake
Ringing and beeping, the chorus of silence
A melody of my heart's beating without the essence
Life is not a waiting room and here I am dying
So this is how it sounds.. when the life-clock's ticking

There's hole beneath me I can't quite fathom
Until I fell and buried me, then it became a tomb
Holding my very existence of what of my means?
Till' the end, so much questions bursting at the seams
Then I woke up in a dream where I'm still dying
Holding my breath with your air in my lungs, so suffocating
I realized the difference that there are none
Living or dying it doesn't matter just wanna leave and be gone
Off and out of this world far far away from your memory
Somewhere where there's a new me and you in reverse so happy
Together in a book filled with colorful words not in grey
Sometimes I question Love! Cause' it doesn't really know how to pay
Better days drowned along with me drinking gallons of rums
Efforts wasted sacrifices voided into an empty bottle of jams
Where it supposed to flavor the flame with sweetness burning
Not with bitterness of sorrow hate misery and so much aching
Now I'm done writing my complaints for today gotta drift away
I'll bury myself alive with questions of what tomorrow would say