There's a way back home to bring myself to you
There's a way I know to finally be with you
There's a place I'll be when I failed to come to see
There's a face I'll see cause you're always here with me

There's a note I wrote of how I am missing you;

And I know, it is hard to find a way back in your arms
When you know that you're already with someone
And I am not the one x2

Hello, Goodbye To you x4

Living each day like you're already dead;
Is like always waking up on the wrong side of the bed
Perhaps it is how it feels to others, to some;
But unlike me I've been waking up empty, next to none.

Breathe in, Breathe out is what I always tell myself;
Trying to conquer death is like living without a shell
Any moment your vulnerability will be invaded by emptiness;
Too busy to find something to do with too much nothingness.

How empty a soul can be without the will to move forward?
Always holding unto memories you can't go back..Things you can't have
Come to think of it..Is it really not possible to just die and relive existent?
Like we can just opt out and respawn if we feel that the pain is consistent.

So shallow I know to think like that when out of your mind;
Hey! You can't blame a person to ponder when life left them behind
One can think of many things when in sorrow, all that is farfetch;
Yet..It still true that trying is better rather than succumb yourself to death.

I saw the tears fell down from Danah's eyes
And it hurts so bad that I am about to die;
To see you fall and break as you were left behind
All the memories you shared turns to black and white.

And I never wanted to leave
I'm the only one that makes you breathe;
When you're suffocated by the lies he brought you
But you shut your eyes not to see the truth;
Cheated by the games he played with you
When he says "I love you"
But here I am never had the chance to say that so I do..That so I do

I tried to catch the tears as they fall down
But it came down fast that it crush the ground;
I can feel the pain inside, deep inside your heart
And it reminds you of the scars of the past.

And I never wanted to leave
I am the only one that makes you sleep tonight..
Don't get tired of loving, don't lose your hope never back down
There's always a way to make the same the way you felt before...

When I am on my knees I don't see myself so tall any more
I am looking up from this ground while I lay down my knees on the floor;
With my hands grasp together for a prayer, will my sins be gone?
Never before I called upon our father almighty and be a worthy son.

And so like an hourglass, this moment's counting down all of my lies
I can see my faint reflection from the tears on the ground straight from the eyes;
I became so ignorant that I found only self-righteous beliefs and deceits
Not one that is lifting my soul but one that is all about dragging someone else's feet.

So I am here in this cathedral alone under his crucified body
I saw myself cry as I beg for my sins to be cleanse with mercy;
If only I can bear the cross that our father held to atone for my sins I would
If only I can say sorry to those people I've done wrong and for them to do something good.

Then this must be the sign to start the act of redemption
For I know in this moment I am having a divine intervention;
Have I mentioned along with me is a caliber .37 loaded with a full chamber
I am so glad I found him and made me realized that my life isn't yet over.

In this hands is a broken home of shattered glass
Tattered memories, a recollection of the past
No hope of recreating what is already destroyed
But I kept holding on, my palms bleed out what are stored
Remember the beauty in what now is ugly
A horrible mess from once that is pretty
Put a little faith on those profound beliefs
That there is a way to patch, a heart to keep
Stop hanging by a thread, stitch them back up with your daily bread
Let it shine out from the darkest night
Be your own star, a sun with the brightest light
A warm embrace may be as simple as it look
If you love each other you know you read her/him like a book
So here I hold, so here I keep the broken glass
A reflection of mistakes this shattered past

Scream till' you can't
Black out, fall down and faint
Sink in, let out and let go
Is the only thing that I ever know

I have faced all my fears
I have poured out the tears
Bleed out dry and let die
crumble down while you try

You have lost all your faith
Your heart is filled up with hate
All hope is gone and you know it's too late
To climb back up, to fall down so accept your fate

We've gave everything till' there's nothing left
We sold our soul to hell to measure its depth
Heaven is so far away locked down in its basement
Here we rest in damnation sempiternal lament

If I had the chance to hide
All the feelings that just died
Then will you ever seek the truth
Deep within, my love's has been misused

It triggers the chance to survive
Where I am now feeling more alive
Alone but not lonely, scarred and broken
Locked in silence with words unspoken

Three lines to describe this tragedy
I wrote this words and turns it to a poetry
That you are all just like me
Always questioning love and reality

Sorry for whining I am not complaining
I wrote this poem today cause' I am just wondering
Why things happen?Although it comes with a reason
Even from the start we know love can be your poison..