Scrawling down my memories before I forget,
That will soon reminds me the things to regret;
Only now I feel worry, what of my existence?
My misfortune never ends and it appears consistent...

Crossing my mind, those other's problems;
While setting aside mine, to understand them...
And later I say, I must not falter! I must stay strong;
It wasn't that bad that, soon I will not suffer long...

What of the words, that I used to share?
A piece of advice to let them know I care;
For I myself needed some help, For I cannot bear!
The feeling that sometimes life itself isn't fair...

Yes I'm aware! That the world needs balance to weigh;
The equality where some of us tends to eventually fray...
Right at the edge of their sanity to understand their fate;
A living hell they say filled with misery and hate...

With a rope tied tight, I tried to contemplate...
What is on the other side? Should I stay here while I optate;
Where do I belong? As my fate is unclear, which path to take?
So I tell to myself, I maybe just losing my faith....

I stepped down from this stall where I stand;
Now it's all clear to me, I know now and understand...
That not everything in life is handed on a plate...
That sometimes one must play the cards their being dealt

One must not easily fold, lay down and cower
Stand firm and strong even if the whole world's on your shoulder!
Be positive! Ignite the thoughts of negativity
For from here on you only seek serenity...

Eid reven nac taht eno... Latrommi ma I
Thgil eht gniruoved... Ssenkrad eht ma I
Edisni lived eht, sraef ruoy... Eramthgin ruoy ma I
Thgin yreve peels ot og uoy nehw, luos ruoy gnilaetS

Mrah yna morf uoy stcetorp taht eno... Ruoivas eht ma I
Nus lanrete eht ekil gninrub... Tghil eht ma I
Dnal esimorp eht ot egdirb a... Ediug ruoy ma I
Dnah efas ni er'uoy erus gnikam, Peels ouy sa ouy gnidrauG

Erif lanrefni eht em ni eveileb... Lived eht ma I
Erised uoy lla gnitnarg ni em etivni, eman ym maercS
Thgif ew lived eht rof htaif yb deneprahs thgil fo drows a...Legna na ma I
Thgink gninihs a, rotcetorp ruoy em otnu llac ythgimla eht fo rewop eht htiW

One may contemplate, doubting their faith,
For some reason with a little suffering they started to hate;
Easily clouded their minds with deception and lies!
That's what devils do before plotting your demise...

One may keep holding on, no matter what is thrown;
For they believe in the almighty, and the coming salvation;
A walk through hell, a test of their own will and faith
For never a moment the devil tried blinding their sight

We are our own angels and devils
With free will we live a life with choices
A path through darkness where the devil lies
A stairway to heaven where the almighty shines

You need a mirror to talk to your self
Ask something that you will not regret
What kind of person soon you'll become
A soldier of God or an army of satan...

This clothes doesn't fit me anymore,
It's time to throw them along with the shoes that I wore
I'm sick and tired of all their complaints,
No more sharing please it's all the same.

How come I never felt sheltered?
Where I'm all open and ready to listen?
Those problems that other shared
Feels like the world is on their shoulder

But after all the whining stops
And it's my turn to whimper
All I get is a cold gaze,
A fake smile to get over

It's hard acting like a hero
When you're in need your probability is zero
Don't expect equal return to what you gave
For it doesn't work that way, just wait to be save

My compassion with others ends here and now
I didn't mean it to be this way, it's hard to explain how
It's just that the wind suddenly gone dry
Maybe it needs time to get another try

The symphony of the night... Can you hear it?
Come dear lets waltz with the rhythm as your heart beats...
Face to face we dance round and round,
Eye to eye we stare and silence became a sound...

I can feel it... The pounding on your chest;
As you breathe slowly enjoying this moment...
Perhaps it's your last, no one will ever know,
What's behind this mask, just a bit more I will show...

(Palpitate!Yes let your blood rush through your veins!)
I promise your warm blood will not be in vain!
I can't restrain myself! Shall I rip her throat now?!
Let the gashing begin breaking the vow!

The music is at its intense part,
The notes it rise and fall like the beat of your heart,
Matching the moment as it come to an end!
I apologize dear for in my hands you must suffer hell...

Sorry love for you must quench my thirst!
No point in screaming! And please wipe off your tears!
It turns out our love to be a ****** romance.
It all ends with a bite, halting our last dance...

Here I lie facing up the ceiling,
Time has passed me by and still ticking;
I remembered telling myself that it's all over,
That the pain is all gone back when I was sober.

Picking up the pieces of this broken glass.
That I punched that evening where our goodbye's seems the last;
You never had a good reason, but it's all different that night...
Wished you could have told me sooner, we could have avoided the fight.

Where did I go wrong? I kept asking all these years.
Of course there is always something that causing the steers
If I could just turn back time and listened to all your fears
Then there is no need for us to keep holding off our tears.

I never cried literally... But inside I'm flooded with regrets
It's something that a man can do while trying to forget.
Drinking the cheapest bottle of wine just to get his day over;
Breeze through the pain, just to realize tomorrow is another cower.

Hearts, glass, memories and all the things that shatters...
How can one patch up the pain? To completely feel better.
Just like a thousand little stars across the open desert,
All the pieces that are waiting to be whole to be revert.

Questions are asked and it takes two to answer,
Maybe it's time for me to say a little prayer;
Once again here I lie trying to make it all better
Handling with care, all the things that shatters...

Soaring high up in the sky with its fiery wings;
Traces of crimson ashes falls as it glades forming rings.
With a shrieking cry that calls upon the land;
The ground will tremble, illuminating the darkness beyond.

An immortal cycle this mighty bird journeys on,
A burning passion, a virtue that only among the brave belongs.
How can one maintain such pain? Burning endlessly through eternity,
Was it a gift or a curse? Or perhaps an order that only knows by the almighty.

Legend has it that this bird lives on forever that it can never die,
From the ashes it may for a moment belong, then soon rise, revived by fire.
Scorching, burning like the eternal sun as it soars once again.
Offering warmth with it's infernal embrace, while the blazing remains.

This is what I know of the mythical phoenix.
As precious and old like those ancient relics,
A myth that symbolizes now bravery and hope
That one must stand back up against any fall.

Initializing Project Insomnia...
Gathering subject's data...
Synchronization complete...
Memory gauge ready to deplete....

Tracing last memory relapse...
Engaging before the time elapse...
Extracting remaining portion of the brain activity...
Eliminating for complete inability...

Subject 001 successfully terminated...
Preparing clone... preparation completed...
System malfunction... Rebooting system...
Mainframe breached... Multiple data hacked...

Re-Animating subject 001...
Life support activated...
Re-installing memory...
Reanimation complete...

Subject 001 is back online...
Bio organic weapon functional...
Preparing extermination...
Codename: Alpha initiated...