I simply ask you these four words
but you stutter and flush as I spit them out to you
your eyes nervously dart around the room, making contact with everything except me
your fingers begin to dance around each other in angst
I eventually become uneasy, seeming to know your answer even before you do
I repeat these four words again
in hopes you may hear them this time, in hopes you may form words with your lips and give me a reply
tears begin to well up in your now sad green eyes that now make contact with mine
your fingers unravel from one another and make there way to my shoulders
you shift your stance to a defeated posture
I feel every last finger of yours grip my skin, leaving invisible imprints where they lay
your mouth begins to tremble as you finally break my suspense with your words
"No," you say,
"I can't love you."

You were the season I came to know
I'd watch the sky alter it's shades
From love until dusk and lust until dawn
In my ear, along my neck
with the coldest softest blades
the wind howled your name
and through my bones back again
Then eventually watch you turn away
We began to fall into tune
with the subtle melody of autumn's heavy moon
But God did I hope one winter you'd stay

Shattered windows and broken doors,
cast shadows across a tear-stained floor.
Broken dishes speak to silent walls
while unheard words cry out
that should be understood by all.

Nothing's left to see in these eyes of mine,
because life has frozen
all I ever hoped to find.
I write and search for a stream of memories,
but find no words that won't scar me.

My hands reach out with a shaking pen
composing a message in the dark once again.
Tonight I scratch on my skin
words of love
that should have never been.