As misery strikes her heart.
She stumbles.
Gripping her chest.
Gasping for breath.
She silently screams out.
Falling to the floor.
She reaches out yet no one is there.
Body trembling, paralyzed in fear.
She says a prayer for no one to hear.

Thinking of you as my savior, my hero.
Making it true is dividing by zero.

Error.

gravity has pulled its attraction
from under me

I feel myself drifting slightly
torwards the blue

I try to grab the thread you left behind
but I'm afraid it’s too thin
it won't hold me
or any of the memories of you
and I'm left with just that one

that only one

The bread crumbled in your fists
'But, I made that for you.'
Your grimace made me wince
You threw it on the ground
And you spit on it
You spit on the bread I had baked
For you
2 years ago
And you called me pathetic
Because I had baked you bread
And I cried, because,
You made me feel pathetic
Later that night,
You gave me a ring on the phone,
And you apologized
But what you didn't realize,
Was that I had already
Burned my hands
From placing them on the oven
In a sense
I couldn't feel my fingers,
I couldn't feel anything
All I knew was that I would not bake again

With your eyes, you seem to look through mine and into my soul
With your words, you make me feel happier than I've ever been
With your kiss, you make my heart blush with a scarlet redder than fire
With your arms, you wrap me in an embrace that makes me feel entirely safe
With your hands, you remind me that you are always there for me and have been
With your touch, you soothe me and my anxiety fades like an old photo
With your love, you make me feel more loved than I ever dreamt

Understated never was your key.
At the very least, it was never given to me.
Fingers run through my rain tangled hair,
And even though we’re surrounded, I forget the people there.
Teeth pressed to break my skin. Make me bleed from your “love”.
Why can’t you take a breath and see I wasn’t what I was?
And yet, so the same when pushed to you. I can’t seem to run away.
If only you could give your word that you were here to stay.
But nothing’s changed, you’re quick on your feet. Always on the move.
You never pause before you speak. Your words escape too soon.
Never heading anything worth reading, I make up the ending in my head.
Forever leaving us untitled. Even through everything you said.
Or perhaps, it’s what you didn’t say. It’s hard to decipher the fiction I’ve filled in.
But you always did manage to find the right phrase. Even if you only write to win.
Your lips on my neck push me to the brink. I hold my breath and wait.
Hoping that you’ll soon depart. No longer are you my fate.

'I just want to love someone.'

I hate that you say this to me.
'love someone then'

'I don't want to.'

'Why?'

'I know that if I love them the way I want to
They won't love me back the same way'

Fury builds up in my breaking heart.
Anger stretches throughout my entire body.
You will never know
Will you?

Every time I kiss him
I see
you.  
Every time he holds me
I want it to be
you.
Every time.

Someday I will tell you.

Held in a vise
Cruelly forsaken
Life has been hard
No sense in taking
Anything offered
It can’t be real
Life is too hard
No one could feel
Anything for the captive
Bound in his heart
Hard lines and words
When can he start
Seeing another world
waiting to heal
maybe a lover
wanting to peel
Away at the crust
surrounding his heart
opened by light
make a new start