it is the beautiful subtleties of persons to which i turn when my heart is most troubled and dripping down my organs like wax:
1. the young man with the leather jacket
and big headphones
when he did me a tiny half-smile
and promptly looked at the sidewalk cracks
(eye contact makes me nervous too)
2. "Larry, you **** close to running into a lady, scoot"
(because a little girl in a backpack
matters to a big farmer in overalls)
3. when the lady with the cats and crooked teeth gave me her first strawberry
4. courtesy laughs for Professor John
5. the old lady at the park (every morning at 9:00) who lets her dog
really
stop and smell the flowers
6. the hug from the smelly, long haired boy
whose car i backed up into
"it's no big deal," he said
(and a girl who didn't like being embraced, loved being embraced)
when the world sinks its teeth into my neck
beautiful unnamed faces flash into my mind
and my atmosphere is clean
and i am brimming with gratitude