I forgive you for missed basketball games, not playing with model trains, not being there to keep me tame.
I was a wild child and loose on the run with only my mother trying to rein in a sun.
I shone bright but at night the clouds would hover in tight so dark they needed my warmth to survive.
And like that I strived. I lived holding it in and never to give a single complaint as a kid.
A man without men looking to women as friends because he could understand them better.
Worse off at relationships, needing to be held tight every night in place of a night light.
The darkness is a scary place after all and it can be such a long fall when you try to stand tall.
Short end of the stick doesn't quite apply because I was raised by a wonderful woman.
Never needed a man, only wanted a boy, to hold and love as her own everyday.
I never can show enough appreciation for a woman so wonderful who warmed me from my very soul.
So this is all to say that the lack of your spirit for a time made me fear it
this life as a failure of a man with no clear hints
That I'm doing ok and I wont go astray because the support of my mother is much more than I could pray
She raised me alone and don't get it wrong because she adopted me young both parents were gone.
So thank you Momma, you were put to the test, and I swear this heart will beat out my chest for the one and only the very best.
I love you.
Just a thought I had during fathers day. My mother was both roles for me and worked hard to raise me right.