I walked away.
It wasn't because I'm selfish.
Its because I could no longer suffer the abuse.
Constant attacks that were physical and mental.
I couldn't function properly.
My kids suffered because I wasn't happy.
It became a game of hiding behind a smile.
You still blamed it on me.
Afraid to let everyone know who you really are.
So I became the outcast.
The one all looked down on.
Not because of something I did but because of something I should have done a long time ago.
Open up to the world

You claimed that it was my fault.
Told me that it was the neglecting of affection.
You said that I was at fault.
You accused me of being unfaithful.
Hearing you say I was with a mistress.
That all my love was given somewhere else.
Truth be told, I did neglect your needs.
I knew what you wanted.
What was I supposed to do?
I worked twelve hours shifts.
Never got to rest.
It was work, errands or something else.
My mind was gone.
My body was weak.
My heart got broken.
All because you couldn't see that the reality was, I was the one who truly needed help.

Free your mind
Forget what your preconditioned about life.
Everyone has a view but dont let it become your anchor.
Set sail and journey the vast sea of your heart.
See the world through your eyes.
Find who you truly are.
Discover the you that has been stricken away by the world.
Not everything is gloomy and dark.
Look to the sun, the moon, and the stars.
See the horizon for what it truly is.
Always remember that no matter how dark it gets, there will always be a sunrise that follows.
All I ask is that you don't write off the world as a bad place.
See it for the beautiful wonders it is.
Free your mind.

My mind is infested.
Plagued by the echos of the past.
I want to be cleaned.
Wipe away all my thoughts.
...
I don't know why I have this feeling inside.
Why can't I forget what has been done?
Must I truly crave that feeling again?
The affection of someone who loves unconditionally?
...
I guess I just needed to vent.
Maybe that's just it.
Hopefully.
...

I forgive you.
I let go of all you did to me.
I forgot how you criticized me.
I looked past how you put me down.
I let go of all the negative things you said to me.
Why?
You wonder why do I do it?
It's because in the end, you were my wife.
It's because your kids where my blood even when we weren't.
It's because no matter what you did or said I still loved you all.
Why would a man go so far for you?
The reason is because I don't look at what I will lose when it's over, but because I see what I gained in the end.
Good bye my love.
Good bye my kids.
It's time I gave up on what you saw pointless.