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Alice Chew Jul 2017
This is going to turn ugly I can tell,
But you hurt me, what the hell?

This is a normal reaction this is mature,I have always been this way even before

I never moved the goalposts it was always you, always setting me up to fail just to prove you were true.
Alice Chew Jul 2017
Your face was like a breathe of air
Your way like nothing before
Sometimes change isn't good
To something that I was made aware
I knew I loved you from that moment
It was a Instant feeling
It's just a shame your afraid of relationship enrollment
The first time to the last
It cut deeper into my soul
But your games too much of a craft
I always begged for your hand
Never to leave me alone
But I guess you always had it planned.
Your words,your silence it's driving me mad ,feel like I'm drowning
I wish I was never bad
You said I laughed with him
I said I laughed with you, you don't believe me
And now we are through
I wish you were still here
I lost control, you weren't there to save me
Piercing my heart and soul
There's too many people involved
You won't let me come home
I can't just let everything dissolve
Mind games are all in the past
At times I'd let it slip
Even when I brought it and told you I was afraid you'd never ask
I know you always told me the truth
But they feel like lies
Now your happy to say goodbye
Loosing myself, detached from reality
Not believing what was going on
Inside I'm screaming like a banshee
I was wrapped round your finger
Would do anything you'd ask
Go anywhere you go
Now I'm wearing my death maskI swore to tell you everyday that I love you
Even now I know it's something that I can do
Letting down my gaurd
Letting everyone in to touch my heart
But your mind is just full of black art
I can't even begin to explain what hurt in me you caused
Now I'm putting my whole life on pause
One day you might see it through my eyes, maybe you won't
But I know you can't carry on like this, because no one else wont
Using my own reactions against me
To make me feel crazy
I just don't understand what you set out to achieve
Teasing, joking pushing my boundaries
But your heart and mind is just a foundry
Distant and cold, my memory of you is scarred
Now my mind is a complete junkyard
As clear as day I saw the love in your soul
All thats left is a dark empty hole
Through all the tears and the pain
I still love you
In denal, it was never your fault
I took all the blame
Confused as I was and as hurt as I was, I know I always wanted you because...
You loved me once
When I needed you most
You became a ghost

Power and control is all you know
I have a feeling your heart was always closed
Sorry was never good enough, you made me feel like I wasn't
No one ever will
To all of us gone
We are yesterday's bill
You loved me once
When I needed you most
You were gone like a ghost
Streets are empty, sun is cold
It hurts to know you will not be with me when I grow old
Promises we made, the times we shared
I beg you more that you care
I have to leave this now knowing I will always love you, knowing that there's nothing I can do to change your mind, hoping one day our paths will again intertwine.
Alice Chew Jul 2017
I saw you once walk down the street
You stopped me on my feet
It's like we'd never met before
I wish I'd get swallowed up by the floor
I'm proud to say you lost out
Because now someone else has something to shout about
Alice Chew Jul 2017
I can see your trying to be there but I need you closer so I can repair.
You don't believe me when I say you hurt me.
You want to help but then you want to flee
I'm nasty and bitter because of the pain
Have never felt so much distain
I'm confused as hell, should of listened to the warning bell
Knowing that I love you deep down
So why do we argue is it a communication breakdown
You frustrate me as I frustrate you
But somehow we stick together like glue

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