that night they dragged me
across the parking lot
they just couldn't see
how far i had got
i had made my world go black
yet they still yelled "liar"
they had me under attack
only my friends had screamed "why her?"

i was so close
my mind was less then static
it felt like everything froze
but to them i was still being dramatic

All this time
You were embracing a new lover
While I embraced a bottle and a light
You were filling your heart with love
While I was morning the death of yours
Why would you hurt me like that

Maybe he’s not my home
Maybe I was just a guest
But oh my god I want to stay
I’m so lost out here alone

I know it’s not healthy
The crying
The drinking
The drugs
The oversleeping
Everyday
Since he left
But I need a replacement for him
He was sun
He was my high
He was my drink
He was my love.
And now he’s gone.

I am still drowning in my feelings
I wish for the violent waves
To embrace my broken soul
Once again