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Aug 2010 · 795
When writing a poem...
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Dont hold on to anger
let it go, let it go

Dont lock your words inside you
let them flow let them flow

Dont smother your creativity
let it grow let it grow

And don't hide your personality
let it show let it show
Aug 2010 · 1.3k
The gift
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Sometimes we measure the value of a gift based solely on its value
"Wow those aren't cheap"
"That must have cost him a pretty penny"
"Thats quite the gift"

All of these things are said as if to impart something special about the gift, as if its increased value increases its value.

And yet the exact same thing can be a bad thing
"Oh its too much, really it is"
"But we hardly know each other"
"I wish you hadn't, it's too soon"

But the irony of all this...

Is that the greatest gift costs nothing

The greatest gift is free

And of all the gifts you ever give to someone, this is the one that you hope above all hope that they return. No receipt necessary.

You can't buy it because its not for sale

You can't create it because it has no parts.

No assembly required (or batteries)

You can't wrap it up in nice paper with a big bow on it because it has no substance.

It doesn't come in a small velvet box

It will always match your eyes, your shoes, your purse and whatever outfit you wear.

It will always fit you perfectly

And it will never make your **** look big

It doesn't wear out, break down, go out of style, look old and jaded or ever get faded.

It grows.

Without sun

Without water

Without effort

This is the gift that I have to give, and all you need to do is know it.
Aug 2010 · 604
One day
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
When I close my eyes at night
its not darkness that I see
but your smiling eyes and beauty
looking back at me

And when I breathe in deeply
it's not the air that I inhale
but the essence of what is you my love
always fresh and never stale

And when I'm seeking warmth
not for a blanket do I reach
instead I simply close my eyes
and go back with you to our beach

And when my heart is heavy
as it gets once in a while
I wrap myself in memories
of each time you've made me smile

You come to me in so many ways
when I'm happy, when I'm in pain
One you'll come and choose to stay
and never leave again.
Aug 2010 · 1.1k
Looking for Trouble
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
That look is my undoing
yeah you know the one I mean
its not angel, its not devil
but something in between.

It a look that say's "I'm trouble"
and most definitely you are
dangerous when up close
exhilarating from afar

I know there's more to you than that
perhaps Trouble is your shield
an alter ego of protection
you wear til safe to be revealed

But I'm addicted now to Trouble
thinking perhaps she is the one
Will she share herself with me one day
Unmasked, undressed, undone.
The next installment in the Trouble saga
Aug 2010 · 1.1k
Less than perfect
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
In this less than perfect world
I say less than perfect things
Instead of soaring like an eagle
I'm forced to walk with clipp-ed wings

It's not that I'm not truthful
just careful in what I say
In this less than perfect world
it has to be that way

In this less than perfect world
I'm a less than perfect guy
with a less than perfect record
when it comes to loves gone by

But if the world was perfect
I would still be me
so would this less than perfect guy
be someone you'd want to see?
Aug 2010 · 922
Waste
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Youth is wasted on the young
you hear the old folk say
truth is they now feel bitter
for not doing more in their day

And yet the young want to be older
such is their pride before their fall
Truth is all of us have got it wrong
as time is wasted by us all.
Aug 2010 · 650
The well
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I've shut my tears away
in a well so deep inside
ne'er to see the light of day
my sadness for to hide

But I know that one day soon
this well will overflow
perhaps alone in darkened room
my pain it will not show

But I fear that once they start to flow
they will fall til the well runs dry
and thats not a place I want to go
without a loved one by my side

For years I've shut my tears away
now its time to let them go
and free myself along the way
as I feel them start to flow
Aug 2010 · 737
Whats eating you?
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
It always hurts to see you cry
and not to know the reason why
The cause of which I try to find
but your answers always "never mind"

But mind I do, because I care
and hate to see you sitting there
with tears escaping bloodshot eyes
no explanations, revealing whys

It always hurts to hear you cry
and not to know the reason why
to listen to your sobs at night
that start when I turn out the light

Since your mother left things have been tough
some days are hard, some days are rough
But whatever's wrong can't be so bad
that you can't tell me, I'm still your dad.
This poem is really half a story looking for the other half. Please feel free to write that other half, telling the other sides story
Aug 2010 · 24.1k
The walk
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Is it wrong to want to see you
to know just where we stand
To take a walk along the beach
together hand in hand.

To talk about each other
and say just what we feel
about this and that and everything
just the thought seems so surreal

Is it possible to find someone
who's both a lover and a friend
As our boundaries of discussion
have no limits, have no end

And that for me, well its a first
to be so open, laid so bare
yet without slightest hesitation
we let ourselves be guided there

I cant help but think and wonder,
as I sit here on the sand
when we'll walk here together
you and I just hand in hand.
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Aug 2010 · 1.5k
Have no fear
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Just what is it that scares you
is it the fear of something new
is it the fear of something less
than what you're looking forward to

Is it the fear that just perhaps
things may not be all they seem
or the fear something better
or something in between

Or perhaps its expectations
that you put upon yourself
or that by choosing something different
you could end up on the shelf

I say blow away your fears
let chance lead you where it may
after all its chance that brought you
here to read all this today

And that didn't work out so bad did it?
Aug 2010 · 830
Stars
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
We gaze upon the same night sky
though a thousand miles apart
and ask ourselves some questions
about matters of the heart.

Like the sky, my questions black and white
so the answers yes or no
but yours are wrapped in shades of grey
and your answers must be so

For two to be so close in kind
yet see things in different ways
bids a promise of excitement
not one of uneventful days

Then perhaps the timing of the question,
is the most important place to start.
So 'til we gaze upon the same night sky
but just a few inches apart...
Aug 2010 · 1.2k
Close shave for Christina
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Christina Twistleton-Wickham-de-Fluff
couldn't decide what to do with her ****

Wherever she went the darned thing would shed
she even found hair from it inside her bed

So she took out the scissors and trimmed it a bit
but did a bad job and her **** looked like shhh....e had messed it up

So she took out the clippers to give it a trim
fired them up and got stuck right in

Be she lost her attention when a friend of hers called
and now theres a spot thats totally bald

But panic she didn't, nor get filled with dread
She simply decided to wear gloves instead.
Aug 2010 · 1.0k
Rhyming for the sake of it
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
So many years in darkness,
now blinded by the light.
Sickened by the taste of victory.
Losing all to win the fight.

The constant contradiction
of living with the lies
trading truth for misdirection
while hiding from the spies

Colliding with reality
fiction gone astray
I really can't remember
what this rhyme was meant to say.
Aug 2010 · 1.1k
I am...
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I am the rain
that does wash away your tears
I am the rain
that has been with you all these years
I am the rain
that washes away the blues
I am the rain
that brings blue skies to you
I am the wind
that light caress upon your cheek
I am the wind
that blows you toward that which you seek
I am the wind
that moves away the cloud
I am the wind
that lifts the dreary shroud
I am the sun
that lays kisses on your skin
I am the sun
that warms you from within
I am the sun
that shines on you from above
I am the sun
that wraps you in its love
All these things I am to you
though at times you may not see
every sunbeam, cloud and raindrop
are a gift to you from me.
Aug 2010 · 1.0k
Misplaced guilt
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Don't ever think you're all alone
or that everythings your fault
And please don't lock your heart away
inside some kind of vault

Because everything thats happened
happened not only to you
there are others who have played their part
you think the blame might be theirs too?

Can you look into the mirror
and say you did your best
with honesty and integrity
when others did much less

If so then maybe just perhaps
you shoulder too much blame
tell me do the other parties
seem to be doing just the same?

Chances are most prob'ly not
after all they've you for that
you ever think that nows the time
you start to give some back

Don't to this yourself my love
the burden is too great
forgive yourself for what they've done
before it is too late
Aug 2010 · 863
heroes
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Not all heroes are perfect
suave and debonair
with bulging chests and six packs
square jaws and perfect hair

Sometimes they say the wrong thing
make the simplest of mistakes
thats just how it is in real life
cos real heroes are not fakes

They're not knights in shining armor
who ride a pure white steed
that come galloping to your rescue
in your hour of desperate need

Most of the time they're everyman
they may even be your friend
you'll know it when it hits the fan
and they stay until the end

They help you clean up after parties
they try to do whats best for you
and if they ever get things wrong
remember they're just human too.
Aug 2010 · 1.1k
Unconditional?
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
A love thats unconditional
does such a thing exist
or is it like a phantom
hiding in the mist?
Aug 2010 · 794
Clarification
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I did not say goodbye
to beat you to the line
and just in case you're wondering
no I'm not doing fine

I simply stepped away
to give you the space you need
to see if what you're looking for
is in him or is in me

I'd love to be impartial
give advice thats motive free
but I know now I cant do that
because I want you for me

So in a bid to give you clarity
give you time in which to choose
I simply stepped out of the spotlight
to wait for any news

I didn't say that I was leaving
just that first contact should be yours
that way you'll know just how I feel
you can press play or you can pause

And by choosing not to choose
you've already made your choice
You're happy with the status quo
no need to raise your voice.
Aug 2010 · 487
Standing in the shadows
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
To see you and not speak to you
is the hardest thing of all
Not to ask you about your day
causes low spirits to fall

Not to find out how you are
and if you are ok
Is harder than imagined
Yet on this course I must stay

Its not fair for me to counsel you
on what your actions they should be
because my every waking thought of you
screams for you to be with me

And while that is whats best for me
it may not be best for you
for I have everything to gain
only you have things to lose

To see you and not speak to you
is the hardest thing of all
I truly hope you understand
just why I cannot call
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Me an Jack we out drinking
got a taxi into town
for to have a pint of Guiness
our sorrows for to drown

Well one led to another
as from pub to pub we went
pretty soon we couldn't speak straight
and our money we'd all spent

So we couldn't get a taxi
and the buses were all done
nothing left to do but walk it
and hope we find our way back home

So we walked around in circles
then the depot we did find
sure we could borrow a bus to get us home,
we'd just leave a not behind

Now Jack has pinched a car or two
in times of desperate need
so it only seemed too fitting
he be the one to do the deed

So I stood there like a sentry
as Jack he climbed the gate
He said he'd be two minutes
so I wouldn't long to wait.

But after twenty minutes waiting
I shouted "whats the trouble Jack?"
He said "the bus for Ballyneety
is parked right at de back"

So I told him not to worry
and what to do for best
"Take the bus for Knockananty,
we'll just have to walk the rest."
Aug 2010 · 735
In need of a title
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Soul searching
a popular past time
amongst those people here
with a penchant for a rhyme

Mistake making
we do lots of that too
if we didn't have experience
what would we have to share with you

Heart ache
another common thread
Sometimes broken and abused
sometimes ignored and left for dead

Good humour
perhaps a shield, perhaps a sword
sometimes deflecting true emotions
with a deftly wielded word

Compassion
it seems we have it by the score
and we share it with our readers
that's what poetry is for.
Aug 2010 · 650
Sometimes nice sucks
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
What the hell is it I'm doing?
Why am I always so **** nice
I step aside and take a break
so others shan't sacrifice

But what about what I want
why does that never come first
I always end up losing out
so others don't feel worse

I guess I'm hoping one day
someone will do the same for me
but time is running out here folks
just whens that day supposed to be.
Aug 2010 · 2.8k
November 10th, 1917
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I try and dream of fields of green,
from my prairie childhood.
But it doesn't come so easy,
midst these fields of mud and blood.

Six months ago in a Calgary inn,
we sat drinking on the benches,
now here we are as winter comes,
slowly rotting in the trenches.

King George he called,
and we all stood up,
proud young Canadian men.
It seemed like a big adventure,
at least it did back then.

But here we sit in Flanders Field,
slowly drowning day by day,
a mind can't help but escape and think,
there must be a better way.

I write this now so in years to come,
you'll know about this day.
The world will know of Passchendaele,
and of the price we paid.

If I should fall and die today,
tell my mother I fought well.
Take me home to Canada,
don't leave me in this hell.
Aug 2010 · 1.0k
Nobility?
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Should I step aside
and leave you to your choices
is my presence just becoming
one too many voices

No matter what you do
someone will have to lose
someone will be hurt
and someone will be bruised

My concern in this is you
its you that you should put first
if you fail to follow your heart
your pain will be the worst

So however long it takes
and where e're the chips may fall
I will leave you to your choices
and wait for you to call.
Aug 2010 · 1.0k
Once upon a time...
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Once upon a time
my days were filled with you
but now its only rain that falls
and sky's are never blue

With misery for company
despair my closest friend
I'll never understand
why he chose your life to end

I struggle to find sense in it
each and every day
But I see no higher purpose served
in taking you away

You were my one and only child
the one good thing in my life
that somehow survived the car crash
that claimed my pregnant wife

You were so much like your mother
the way you looked the things you did
Even Frank and Betty said
she was like you as a kid

So now you are together
you finally get to meet
Tell her I miss her dancing
even with her two left feet

She'll read to you at bedtime
just like daddy used to do
especially your favourite
about the woman in the shoe

Daddy's got to go now
got a meeting to attend
If you do see mommy
tell her my love I send
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.
.
.
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Hello everyone my name is Bill,
and I'm an alcoholic
I never saw I had a problem
til it became so chronic

Three years ago my wife was killed
she was pregnant when she died.
But my little baby girl was born
right there at the roadside.

The paramedics saved her
but they couldn't save my wife
I was drunk at home oblivious
busy ******* away my life

Then a month ago my daughter died
in that crash on I-71

It was my fault,

I was driving drunk,

God forgive me for what I've done.
Aug 2010 · 1.0k
Getting to know you
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I see you there,
yet I can't speak.
Cos to look in your eyes,
just makes me weak.
My tongue gets so tied,
and the words disappear,
the ones that I want,
to whisper in your ear.
The ones that would tell you,
just how I feel,
not the ones I make up,
but the ones that are real.
And yet when I see you,
I turn walk away.
So you have no idea,
I'm too frightened to say,
that you're all I think of,
and how I fantasize,
that one day you'll sit there,
and look in my eyes.
And holding my hand,
you'll make me feel strong,
and give me the courage,
to know right from wrong.
All the doubts in myself,
that are holding me back,
the feelings of inad-
aquecy and lack.

On the bus on the way home,
and sat in the park.
I dream of a meeting,
with you and a spark,
that goes off between us,
and you feel it too.
It would certainly make this,
easier to do.

But the chances of that,
are incredibly low.
To meet you,
I dont even know where to go.
So I sit on the bench,
in the park and I write.
Dreaming that one day,
one day you just might,
happen to be ,
in a place we can meet.
Maybe here in the park,
or out there on the street.
That I'll have courage to speak,
and together we're drawn.
So we'll talk to each other,
and romance is born.

We'll find a small cafe,
drink coffee and tea.
I'll ask about you,
and you'll ask about me.
And we'll be there all day,
or as long as it takes,
surrounded by teacups,
coffee and cakes.
And time will fly by,
like you wouldn't even know.
and the man at the counter,
will ask us to go.
He's already stayed open,
that little bit late,
but now it's nine thirty,
and he closes at eight.
With a wink of his eye,
says he knows where we are,
at the start of a journey,
he hopes will go far.
So as we walk out together,
into the night,
I look in your eyes,
and ask we might,
continue tomorrow,
this thing that we do.
Where you ask about me,
and I ask about you.
Aug 2010 · 11.5k
Roadtrip
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
One day we'll take a roadtrip
together you and me
and drive across the country
just to see what we can see

We'll start off on the east coast
and slowly head out west
we'll get there when we get there
cos taking time is best

we'll stop when the mood takes us
and find a place to stay
get a room recharge our batteries
and if we like it spend the day

We'll eat sandwiches and picnics
eat in and take out too
The world will be our oyster
with no rules for me and you
Aug 2010 · 819
Letters in a heart
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I trace my fingers cross the carving on the tree
Letters in a heart mean you for me
I still remember clearly that day
and the love we have that never went away.

Was the perfect summer day fifty years back
You and me and a picnic in a pack
Sandwiches and cake and lemonade
Two grown up little kids in 7th grade

I remember we went swimming in the creek
Something we looked forward to all week
Then we took a walk together holding hands
and told stories bout the folk in far off lands

We talked about our families and our folk
told more stories, now and then a little joke.
And then we talked about the ones we miss
and I wiped away your tears with a kiss

Right there and then we knew we were in love
and swore we be together fore him above
I told you I would marry you one day
you said if they wouldn't let us we'd run away

It was then I carved our names into this tree
those letters in a heart mean you for me.
Aug 2010 · 3.3k
I Wish
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I wish...

I wish that I was better with words.

I wish that I was more confident.

The kind of confident that would let me walk up to your door and tell you everything. Tell you everything that goes on inside my head as far as you're concerned.

But I'm not.

So I can't.

But I want to.

I want so badly to tell you that maybe, just maybe, you, are the one.

Not in a Matrix gonna save the world from the machines kind of a way but in the way that real people think of the one. The one that I've been looking for, the one I gave up looking for, the one that I didn't think even existed.

At least not for me.

I want to tell you that I think you may be the one and I want you tell me that you've been wanting to say the same thing.

But you couldn't.

Because you weren't good enough with words.

Because you didn't have the confidence.

Wouldn't that be ironic.

But I'm also scared.

I'm scared that I'll see you and tell you that I think you might be the one and hear you say thats all very nice and you might be my one, but I'm not yours.

And you'd be sorry.

You'd be sorry and you'd mean it because you are kind and you are beautiful. But it wouldn't help.

So what do I do?

Do I risk it? Do I tell you and cross everything and hope and pray that maybe, just maybe, I might be your one too?

Or do I say nothing.

Do I say nothing and just continue to lie here every night the way I have been since I worked out what it was about you that caused you to be in every thought that I have and every dream?

There is safety in saying nothing.

If I don't say anything then you can't say anything bad. You can't say no. You can't say that maybe you don't believe in the one. You can't say that you had your one once and it didn't work out so how can you possibly have another.

I know its crazy, but thats the way you drive me.

And its crazy that you drive me crazy. It's crazy that you've gotten under my skin the way you have. Its crazy that you've gotten under my skin so completely, you're like a tattoo. Like a tattoo in a private place, a hidden place. Like a living breathing tattoo that I carry round with me all the time and I'm the only one that knows that you're there. And I'm glad you're there. I like you there.

So I keep wishing.

Only now I wish that maybe you read poetry and you happen accross this somehow and read it and pick up the phone and say "Hey... stop wishing so much, just kiss me."

I wish.
Another attempt at trying not to rhyme and yet create something that could pass for poetry.

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Aug 2010 · 1.2k
My Freedom
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Keep your TV's and your stereos,
PC's and DVD's.
I'm reclaiming my freedom,
and none of thats for me.

I've quit being a consumer,
gonna boycott the recession.
Because I'd rather have my freedom,
than be prisoner to my possessions.

Who cares if I don't have TV,
Satellite or cable?
I have time to sit and read and write,
for as long as I am able.

When I climb into bed at night,
I'm tired from all I've done.
No longer am I lying there,
working out where time has gone.

No microwave or dishwasher,
to speed up all my chores.
Cooking is my therapy,
tell me what is yours?

Is it watching new stuff gather dust,
just like the old stuff did?
Did you have to have the biggest toys,
when you were a little kid?

Well for me I choose the simple life,
filled with only what I need.
No more status driven plastic debt,
no more unsatisfying greed.
Aug 2010 · 25.2k
Wishes & Dreams
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
When I close my eyes to sleep at night,
I see you lying there,
alone in bed so far away,
it just doesn't seem quite fair.

If wishes worked like magic,
that's not what I would see.
For you would be much closer,
lying next to me.

Your head would be upon my chest,
your leg draped over mine.
Softly, you'd be sleeping,
and life would be just fine.

And as I drifted off to sleep,
your arms would hold me tight.
Together we would dream the truth,
of this and every night.

That this is how we're meant to be,
together, intertwined.
Just look at all the paths we took,
each other just to find.
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Aug 2010 · 659
Sharing
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Sometimes I cannot find the words
and don't know how to say
the things my heart is feeling
about life that comes my way

I miss you more than I know I should
and that scares me a lot
But I don't know if I should tell you
of if its better I do not

And other times I want to tell
my friend who's in such pain
That they can call me night or day
to get shelter from the rain

But why is it, with an empty page
the words just tumble out
And yet when faced with people
I hide behind self doubt

But once you get know me
thats if you stick around
I will bare my very soul to you
like a plow rips up the ground
Aug 2010 · 1.4k
A Whimsical Tale of Wishes
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I walked along the beach one day
and found a rusty lamp
I picked it up and rubbed it off
to wipe away the damp

And suddenly this little man
fell out upon the floor
looked up and started cursing me
"what the hell d'you do that for?!"

So I apologised and picked him up
'fore he got eaten by a fish
and in return said to me
for that you've earned a wish

I wished something that's not for me
but for a freind who's lucks been poor
and so impressed was the little man
he said for that you can have one more

So I wished again for someone else
who's lot is worse than mine
and again the little fellow
repeated his last line

But this time round my wish was such
that it would also do me good
A little more self serving
and a bit less Robin Hood

But again he told me I'd get one more
and I felt a bit confused
Is there going to come a time
when my turns have all be used

He said to me he didn't know
but things could be much worse
One fella left him on the ground
for that he got a curse.

His curse was to live in a lantern
and float from shore to shore
until he finally found someone
Who was rich but also poor

Then he asked me for twenty bucks
I told him ten was all I had
but he was welcome to it anyway
if it helped I would be glad

So he took my ten and hailed a cab
that just happened to be driving past
with a squeal of tires and a puff of smoke
they both took off really fast

I tried to dismiss it from my mind
as a weird daydream at best
But then when I got home
at my door, was a little wooden chest

The note on the box said well done you
you truly are mankinds friend
This token of our appreciation
means you'll never be poor again

I've still got the chest here somewhere
and the level seems never to drop
but I have pretty much all I need
so there's gold right up to the top.
Aug 2010 · 4.3k
"This"
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
My life is a spiral of debt and despair
The pressure upon me is too much to bear
So I sit in my bedsit surrounded by bills
In one hand a bottle, the other, some pills
And I think to myself, has it really come to "this"?

I cant live with the shame of the things that occured
It was not meant to happen, I give you my word
Now I stand on the cliff and look down at the sea
And it feels like the only way out for me
And I think to myself, how did it ever come to "this"?

I once had a job and life was so sweet
Then it all went wrong and now I live on the street
I've fallen so far that I beg with a cup
My life is worth nothing, nothing to give up
And I think to myself, how can I carry on like "this"?

Think not of the why or the hows or the pain
There are people to help you start over again
There are friends out there that you've yet to meet
Who's purpose in life to give you new feet
To stand on your own and start over again
just so that you know "this" is not how it ends
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Aug 2010 · 1.1k
Blossoms
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Our love blossoms without water
Our love blossoms without rain
Our love blossoms when we say goodbye
Until we meet again

Our love blossoms from the words we say
The feelings we let show
May our life become a garden
Where such blossoms always grow.
Aug 2010 · 928
Confusion
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I struggle to see the reason
our paths were meant to cross
Initial hopes that gave me joy
now leave me filled me with loss

Surely disappointments lesson
is one I've truly learned
Just take a look inside my heart
to see the scars I've earned

To show me I can love again?
I don't see how it can be that
If so you'd think my path would cross
with one who loved me back

So if you have some insight
or know what its all about
Please speak up and don't be shy
tell me what its all about.
Aug 2010 · 1.1k
Poppies for profit
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I wish we wore no poppies
to remind us of our loss
No annual parade
at which we count the cost

I wish we'd gotten smart enough
to see nobody wins a war
Instead we let our minds be washed
over what they're fighting for

And fifty, sixty years from now
they'll ask what it was about
And we'll struggle to remember
of that I have no doubt

But it seems for now the past
holds a lesson we won't learn
Because frankly there's more profit
in watching the world burn
Aug 2010 · 783
Chaos
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I always feel so lost
no directions know my name
I have no clue whats going on
each path looks just the same

My life is lived in free fall
always out of control
I spend my time avoiding things
that come too fast for me to hold

I yearn for some stability
in my life and in my work
and yet I'm doomed to sabotage
any hope, Im such a ****

I don't know how it came to this
I'm just a normal guy
But I truly have nothing to show
for the forty years gone by.
Aug 2010 · 991
Innocent man
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I lie withing my darkened cell
reflecting on my acts
and how wildly they differ
from those things you call the facts

I did not, would not hurt my love
nor cover her face in blood
if you'd shared with us a moment
you'd know I never could

All I know is I came home
and found her lying there
the woman I loved lay dying
and I fell to my knees in despair
Yes we'd fought early that night
but the only thing raised was my voice
Yes I went to a bar and had a few beers
and I walked there and back by choice

I don't know what happened while I was out
or why nobody saw me go
or why folks at the bar don't remember me
maybe they were all watching the show

But when I cam home and saw her there
I fell to my knees right away
picked her up and held her tight
and sorry was all I could say

I was sorry that the last we spoke
were the words of a fight and not love
Not sorry that I'd done her some harm
or like OJ at losing his glove

But it seems that you made up your mind what I meant
because it was easy and simple and neat
just another frustrated husband you said
with a wife he thought he could beat

And thats all it took to sell them you side
don't bother looking too hard for the truth
But what happens when, he does it again
and someone else ends up next to my Ruth

And yet my time is to be served
my sentance handed down
and in this place I am to rot
in despair I am to drown
Aug 2010 · 5.5k
A Cornish tale
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Like sentinels of days gone by
They're silhouettes against the sky
A headstone for those still below
A monument we proudly show

Of times when our tin was the very best
when quality counted not paying less
When the work was hard and the day was long
And the mines were filled by the miners song

Their hymns tell tales of life in the deeps
where darkness surrounds and dampness creeps
where disaster can be just a minute away
and you thanked the lord for every day

For generations all our menfolk
proudly joined the line
never once imagining
that we'd outlast the mine
Aug 2010 · 690
Thank you for you
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Did you know that you inspire me
in so many things I write
from the perfect way to start the day
to how to spend each night

The tales of hope and triumph
are all based on you my friend
For the way you handle things in life
that would have me at wits end

I know sometimes it gets too much
and you think that you are failing
just remember calmness comes and goes
to the sea on which you're sailing

And even in the biggest storm
you're never on your own
any time of night or day
just please pick up the phone

So I wanted to say thank you
for all you've given me
the hope, the dreams, the poetry
that you have made me see.
Aug 2010 · 719
Longing
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Close your eyes and feel my arms,
around you as you sleep.
Feel my breath upon your neck,
as I breathe you in so deep.

Don't let my kisses wake you,
as I place them on your cheek.
As my hands pull you close to me,
you find the honesty you seek.

Sleep in the warmth of passion,
and dream only of the truth.
Of the man who's soul you captured,
with the intensity of youth.

And as you wake and look around,
you will not see me nor will I hide.
For at present moments such as this,
only in dreams reside.
Aug 2010 · 586
Look no further
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
What is this thing called life of which we speak?
Is it experiences we have or those we seek
Is it something to be earned
or lessons to be learned
as we travel through it blindly week to week

And what about this other thing called "me"
Am "I" not there for all the world to see
Or is that just my skin
just a vessel "I" am in
Is that the place where the "me" I seek should be

And finally there's that little thing called love
The quest to find who fits you like a glove
It starts with a first date
interview for a soul mate
And  ends with the release of a single dove.

Now seeking all these treasures is a ride
and once discovered there's no place for them to hide
So believe me when I say
they're close to home not far away
Look closely at yourself, for they're inside
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
What is this thing that comes to me
and tells me what to write
sometimes in the early morning
or in the middle of the night

It feeds me an idea
for an angle or a line
and then it flows right through me
as if its power were really mine

Sometimes it give's me noble thoughts
full of romance, love and trust.
Other times more physical
desire, *** and lust.

Yet again there are the angry ones
vile, bitterness and hatred.
Not always things I feel myself
so no hunger has been sated.

And other times its quiet
like the inspiration's left
and maybe for a day or two
of ideas I am bereft.

So what is this muse or genius
that creates and shapes these words you see
You would think that if it wrote this
it would at least tell me?
Aug 2010 · 1.0k
Tennessee
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Tennessee

A quiet cabin in the woods,
selling books and cups of joe.
It sounds to me quite perfect.
Just the place I'd like to go.

Wooden windows, shingled roof,
and floors you have to brush.
A place where time moves slower,
where there's never any rush.

A swing out on the back porch.
A rocking chair, or two.
Your little piece of heaven.
Do you think I could come too?

I'd sweep the floors and chop the wood.
Split logs and farm the land.
If that was what it took for me,
to be with you hand in hand.

At night we'd watch the fireflies,
and count stars up in the sky.
Sharing cocoa 'neath a blanket,
and perhaps some homemade pie.

Our life would be a simple one,
of laughter, love and joy.
A perfect new age fairytale,
how you the girl, met me the boy.
Aug 2010 · 627
Release thyself
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I used to be consumed,
full of bitterness and rage,
because they seemed such fitting parts,
to play upon this stage.

I blamed you for so many things,
in life that had gone wrong.
As if I was not responsible,
for my actions all along.

And though I have to take the blame,
for the mistakes that I made.
My refusal to just let things go,
cast a very ugly shade.

The pain and disappointment,
followed me where ere I roamed.
But these demons were not exorcised,
and misery became my home.

I was trapped within the anger,
that I let the whole world see,
until the day that I forgave you,
only then was I set free.
Aug 2010 · 916
A dish best served cold
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
I can't believe you looked me in the eyes,
while you ****** me in with promises and lies.
Told me stories, never true,
about the things that made you you.
And all the while you crafted your disguise.

Just what was it made me **** an easy mark?
Was it personal for you or just a lark?
You played it very cool,
while making me the perfect fool.
You're a ***** who's bite is way worse than her bark.

But you know what, now its over I ain't sad
You'll see revenge it tastes so sweet I'm almost glad
See I've been driven by a cause
and thats to see that you get yours
And if you don't like the taste, too ******' bad!
Aug 2010 · 1.0k
Into the wild
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Take me to where the eagles nest,
where the salmon come to spawn.
That I may see the wilderness,
and sleep from dusk til dawn.

Where the moon and stars and fireflies,
become my guiding lights.
And natures sounds, not traffic,
are the soundtrack of the night.

Where crickets, frogs and critters,
are the chorus to my day.
And honking horns and sirens,
seem like a lifetime away.

Let me bask in natures majesty,
drink from her rivers and her lakes.
Become a man thats giving back,
and not one that only takes.
Aug 2010 · 29.1k
Fate vs free will
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Is our path laid out before us,
or is it something that we choose?
Are we guaranteed a victory,
is success just ours to lose?

How much free will do we have,
if any after all,
it seems when things are on the up,
that is when we fall.

Is that the way its meant to be?
A life of ups and downs,
ever shifting waters,
in which we're doomed to drown?

Or do the choices that we make,
determine how life goes?
I'd like to think this is the case,
but who amongst us knows?
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Aug 2010 · 923
Paper & Ink
A Thomas Hawkins Aug 2010
Are we books upon the same shelf
at this stage of our lives
slightly worn and dogeared
by our ex husbands and wives

Or could we be a little closer
different pages, same book
after all we've lots in common
and not just our outlook

But perhaps we're even closer
maybe words on the same page
Although written many years apart
by a wise and noble sage

And as time it marches onward
and we get to know each other better
it turns out that we're both a part
of exactly the same letter

Which I guess is something we both knew
way back there at the start
when we saw the world in each others eyes
and loved each others hearts
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