Z: Poems

10:01 AM.

Z Sep 2015

And although all of the struggles continuously possess my entire existence, I shall always keep one and only mindset: I am whatever I wish to be.

I guess you could say it's a moral code

10:05 AM.

Z Aug 2015

10:05 AM.

but apparently the black eyes and bruised arms don't even begin to relate to "how much we do for you."

10:12 AM.

Z Mar 2016

10:12 AM.

submissive smiles bring teary eyes.

10:20 AM.

Z Dec 2015

10:20 AM.

the torture of small talk with the one you still love.

10:29 AM.

Z Dec 2015

10:29 AM.

"I'm here for you" you said.

But you and I both know that what's running through your mind is merely blank.

And the cold reality of this age, is that

if "I'm here for you" is a collection of blank stares, broken words, shattered bonds and blank minds then I'll gladly return the favor.

C.

10:30 PM.

Z Sep 2015

10:30 PM.

good looks do not solve problems

10:40 PM.

Z Oct 2015

10:40 PM.

we all believe that love is universal, but will you be the one who shall spread it..?

youre always on my mind, just make it stop please..

10:41 PM.

Z Sep 2015

10:41 PM.

B r i a n

You returned the energy that was being drained from my existence.

I can never thank you enough.....

f a r e w e l l

You must live by these words that were once said to me: "You are whatever you wish to be."

10:49 AM.

Z Oct 2015

10:49 AM.

you made me feel ALIVE and now that you are gone, so am I.

10:50 AM.

Z Dec 2015

10:50 AM.

My thoughts for you are simply video games.

Back and forth, repeating as you see; As much as I wish to stop, I only become more **a d d i c t e d .

11:01 PM.

Z Aug 2015

11:01 PM.

And when you're laying alone in the night, there's no postponing of the thoughts that consume your entire mental.

11:01 PM.

Z Sep 2015

11:01 PM.

crazy how we often are told to live for today when all we want to do is die tomorrow.

idk what this is

11:02 PM.

Z Sep 2015

11:02 PM.

YOU MAKE ME WANT TO ******* DIE, BUT THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR, RIGHT?

11:04 PM.

Z Nov 2015

11:04 PM.

You hit me like a train *and left me on the ******* tracks.

11:05 PM.

Z Sep 2015

11:05 PM.

"for the moment when you stop existing is when you begin to live."

11/11/15 • 8:25 PM

Z Nov 2015

11/11/15 • 8:25 PM

I let my brain be our playlist and unfortunately, you were my most played song.

11/12/15 • 5:00 PM.

Z Nov 2015

11/12/15 • 5:00 PM.

but in reality, we're only steady buildings built upon shaky foundations.

sorry if I misuse words in my poems, I'm a ******* oops.

11/13/15 ~ 9:49 AM.

Z Nov 2015

11/13/15 ~ 9:49 AM.

The Big Apple took a bite out of me.

Oh, how much I desire for it to take another.

11:21 PM.

Z Oct 2015

11:21 PM.

I could stare into those pools of green for *h o u r s.

I'm hopelessly in love with you wow.

11:21 PM.

Z Nov 2015

11:21 PM.

he finally said it back, but for what...

so ******* overwhelmed and high off of you.

11:23 AM.

Z Dec 2015

11:23 AM.

what a curse it is,

to have a conscience that constricts you from what goes on.

11:26 AM.

Z Dec 2015

11:26 AM.

I always say it won't matter in the end,

But the end isn't ******* now.

And if you're not in my now,

then I don't know if I'll be able to make it to the end. . .

I don't want to call you out and you drop me because I love you so **** much and if I do I'm afraid you'll get ****** and then leave and I won't be able to make it and I know you won't read this but I just don't know what to do with you anymore.

11:32 PM.

Z Mar 2016

11:32 PM.

they get mad that you treat them the way they treat you.

11:33 AM.

Z Nov 2015

11:33 AM.

I know you know but what you don't know is that I ******* know, TOO.

I'm sorry I can't help.

11:34 AM.

Z Aug 2015

11:34 AM.

the unexpressed ideas are always lingering.

11:43 AM.

Z Dec 2015

11:43 AM.

You are more than just a number on the scale,
or the amount of times you continue to fail.

You are more than a collection of unsaid words,
or the intensity of your mind that burns.

You are more than regretted rants,
even if you've lost your chance.

But most of all, you are ******* more than only him,

after all, undying love only remains **g r i m .

trust seems no longer relative when ******* used against you.

11:48 AM.

Z Aug 2015

11:48 AM.

The sparks are present but surely they're not flying.

11:48 AM.

Z Dec 2015

11:48 AM.

Laying hints down like stairs for you,

but you'll always be taking your own elevator.

you just don't get it, do you? are you really scared?

11:48 PM.

Z Sep 2015

11:48 PM.

pick your poisons or your poisons shall pick you

**apart

someone asked me if I get my poems from the Internet and I was really amused but I don't lol

11:53 PM.

Z Sep 2015

11:53 PM.

Among all of the art in this universe, I could never fathom a masterpiece more phenomenal than you.

I always get in my feelings at night, it's pretty pathetic. Maybe I should write about something else for once..

12:16 PM.

Z Dec 2015

12:16 PM.

At the end of the day, you're the only one sleeping.

My eyes watery, your eyes closed;

My brain racing and yours doesn't know.

A fraction of forever.

12:23 AM.

Z Aug 2015

12:23 AM.

"In my feelings" is the correct description, and surely I would do anything to get out of them.

12:27 AM.

Z Aug 2015

12:27 AM.

I'm mad.

I'm mad I can't express myself without the fear of being judged to the point of a breakdown.

I'm mad I can't be with you and your whole existence I call perfection without being looked down upon and shamed.

I'm mad that 'us' will never exist.

I'm just mad...

12:27 PM.

Z Dec 2015

12:27 PM.

you are more than the absence of his name on your screen.

you are more than the absence of his name on your screen.

you are more than the absence of his name on your screen.

**YOU ARE MORE THAN THE ABSENCE OF HIS NAME ON YOUR SCREEN.

C.

12:44 PM.

Z Dec 2015

12:44 PM.

Don't be deceived by the longing stability you seek,

**because we all crash eventually.

1:29 AM.

Z Sep 2015

1:29 AM.

maybe one day our hands will be intertwined and your legs will interlap with mine, but for now it's all stares....

sorry these are weird, writing about people is kinda my thing ok bye