Z: Poems

1.3k · Dec 2015

4:29 PM.

Z Dec 2015

4:29 PM.

"my parents warned me about drugs on the street, but never the ones with green eyes and a heartbeat."

you've broken me to the point of no fixing and as soon as someone gives me what you couldn't, I won't know how to ******* respond.

947 · Nov 2015

11/12/15 • 5:00 PM.

Z Nov 2015

11/12/15 • 5:00 PM.

but in reality, we're only steady buildings built upon shaky foundations.

sorry if I misuse words in my poems, I'm a ******* oops.

911 · Dec 2015

11:48 AM.

Z Dec 2015

11:48 AM.

Laying hints down like stairs for you,

but you'll always be taking your own elevator.

you just don't get it, do you? are you really scared?

910 · Oct 2015

7:42 PM.

Z Oct 2015

7:42 PM.

'but suddenly, you're 30 and blasting the songs that you wanted to die to when you were 15.'

Until then...

797 · Nov 2015

11/11/15 • 8:25 PM

Z Nov 2015

11/11/15 • 8:25 PM

I let my brain be our playlist and unfortunately, you were my most played song.

780 · Dec 2015

10:50 AM.

Z Dec 2015

10:50 AM.

My thoughts for you are simply video games.

Back and forth, repeating as you see; As much as I wish to stop, I only become more **a d d i c t e d .

771 · Dec 2015

12:16 PM.

Z Dec 2015

12:16 PM.

At the end of the day, you're the only one sleeping.

My eyes watery, your eyes closed;

My brain racing and yours doesn't know.

A fraction of forever.

761 · Dec 2015

10:29 AM.

Z Dec 2015

10:29 AM.

"I'm here for you" you said.

But you and I both know that what's running through your mind is merely blank.

And the cold reality of this age, is that

if "I'm here for you" is a collection of blank stares, broken words, shattered bonds and blank minds then I'll gladly return the favor.

C.

734 · Sep 2015

1:43 PM.

Z Sep 2015

1:43 PM.

just the thought of you drives me insane but my presence is merely nonexistent to you.

been thinking about this a lot lately I'm sorry lol

684 · Aug 2015

12:27 AM.

Z Aug 2015

12:27 AM.

I'm mad.

I'm mad I can't express myself without the fear of being judged to the point of a breakdown.

I'm mad I can't be with you and your whole existence I call perfection without being looked down upon and shamed.

I'm mad that 'us' will never exist.

I'm just mad...

677 · Apr 2016

2:33 PM.

Z Apr 2016

2:33 PM.

the world is bright and yours,

from the ******* treetops to the floors.

been feeling really good lately, i love spring time so mucchhhhh

652 · Nov 2015

4:56 PM.

Z Nov 2015

4:56 PM.

this "story" is only a chapter within the book of lies, babe.

652 · Dec 2015

11:23 AM.

Z Dec 2015

11:23 AM.

what a curse it is,

to have a conscience that constricts you from what goes on.

648 · Sep 2015

11:53 PM.

Z Sep 2015

11:53 PM.

Among all of the art in this universe, I could never fathom a masterpiece more phenomenal than you.

I always get in my feelings at night, it's pretty pathetic. Maybe I should write about something else for once..

647 · Sep 2015

10:41 PM.

Z Sep 2015

10:41 PM.

B r i a n

You returned the energy that was being drained from my existence.

I can never thank you enough.....

f a r e w e l l

You must live by these words that were once said to me: "You are whatever you wish to be."

647 · Sep 2015

9:06 PM.

Z Sep 2015

9:06 PM.

"we're all just people with the same problems and different last names."

~Papa

646 · Oct 2015

2:53 PM.

Z Oct 2015

2:53 PM.

I miss the old us. You know, the us that wasn't falling apart.

why the hell do you do this to me...?

604 · Sep 2015

1:29 AM.

Z Sep 2015

1:29 AM.

maybe one day our hands will be intertwined and your legs will interlap with mine, but for now it's all stares....

sorry these are weird, writing about people is kinda my thing ok bye

574 · Nov 2015

8:37 AM.

Z Nov 2015

8:37 AM.

every time I see your name appear within my notifications it makes me question whether it's really worth worrying about. the thought of you actually caring is foreign but...

*why not?

they made my day better last night and it was **** day until that idiot and their stupid texts brightened up my mood

563 · Aug 2015

5:41 PM.

Z Aug 2015

5:41 PM.

You are so much more than the number on the scale or the averages on your transcripts.

512 · Sep 2015

11:01 PM.

Z Sep 2015

11:01 PM.

crazy how we often are told to live for today when all we want to do is die tomorrow.

idk what this is

498 · Aug 2015

9:06 PM.

Z Aug 2015

9:06 PM.

I refuse to be a statistic.

483 · Nov 2015

6:37 PM.

Z Nov 2015

6:37 PM.

he took my words like notes on a whiteboard, and now i'm simply erased.

482 · Oct 2015

8:58 PM.

Z Oct 2015

8:58 PM.

helplessly in love with your blonde hair and green eyes, but those same green eyes never seen to meet with mine.

477 · Aug 2015

11:34 AM.

Z Aug 2015

11:34 AM.

the unexpressed ideas are always lingering.

474 · Aug 2015

10:05 AM.

Z Aug 2015

10:05 AM.

but apparently the black eyes and bruised arms don't even begin to relate to "how much we do for you."

443 · Dec 2015

12:27 PM.

Z Dec 2015

12:27 PM.

you are more than the absence of his name on your screen.

you are more than the absence of his name on your screen.

you are more than the absence of his name on your screen.

**YOU ARE MORE THAN THE ABSENCE OF HIS NAME ON YOUR SCREEN.

C.

442 · Mar 2016

9:29 PM.

Z Mar 2016

9:29 PM.

why call it love when it's friendship set on fire?

440 · Nov 2015

4:35 PM.

Z Nov 2015

4:35 PM.

but all is well until it ******* happens back to you. delusional.

440 · Aug 2015

5:02 PM.

Z Aug 2015

5:02 PM.

And at that moment, I realized that there was never anything there. Nothing between us, at all. The thought of that makes me break.

434 · Mar 2016

10:12 AM.

Z Mar 2016

10:12 AM.

submissive smiles bring teary eyes.

432 · Mar 2016

11:32 PM.

Z Mar 2016

11:32 PM.

they get mad that you treat them the way they treat you.

426 · Jul 2016

2:51 A.M.

Z Jul 2016

2:51 A.M.

These 3 A.M. snacks no longer resemble 3 A.M. snacks, but rather the idea of giving up.

35 pounds

423 · Nov 2015

8:10 PM.

Z Nov 2015

8:10 PM.

Okay* shouldn't be silently suffering and testing your stability until the moment that you break, but rather acceptance and calming moments that allow you to sit and not explode with angst.

400 · Nov 2015

8:05 PM.

Z Nov 2015

8:05 PM.

we are all our own allegories until the day we reach the glory we deserve.

i don't know what to be or feel, everything has been getting worse and i'm falling back into the hole and every day gets harder ****.

393 · Dec 2015

11:26 AM.

Z Dec 2015

11:26 AM.

I always say it won't matter in the end,

But the end isn't ******* now.

And if you're not in my now,

then I don't know if I'll be able to make it to the end. . .

I don't want to call you out and you drop me because I love you so **** much and if I do I'm afraid you'll get ****** and then leave and I won't be able to make it and I know you won't read this but I just don't know what to do with you anymore.

389 · Dec 2015

12:44 PM.

Z Dec 2015

12:44 PM.

Don't be deceived by the longing stability you seek,

**because we all crash eventually.

366 · Apr 2016

4:05 PM.

Z Apr 2016

4:05 PM.

How do I rebuild this castle?

After all, the king cut off my hands. .

-Clay

365 · Oct 2015

10:49 AM.

Z Oct 2015

10:49 AM.

you made me feel ALIVE and now that you are gone, so am I.

345 · Aug 2015

8:42 PM.

Z Aug 2015

8:42 PM.

We're all tiny specks in this endless universe for an unknown reason and yet, we continue to worry about who marries who.

344 · Nov 2015

9:41 AM.

Z Nov 2015

9:41 AM.

those green eyes were the light to my ocean of despair, and now it's simply aphotic.

Utterly and Hopelessly in love with you, and you don't know a thing.
C.

332 · Oct 2015

9:08 AM.

Z Oct 2015

9:08 AM.

Lost in the sea that you and I are both drowning in.

I'm really sorry I don't know what to do.

332 · Dec 2015

11:43 AM.

Z Dec 2015

11:43 AM.

You are more than just a number on the scale,
or the amount of times you continue to fail.

You are more than a collection of unsaid words,
or the intensity of your mind that burns.

You are more than regretted rants,
even if you've lost your chance.

But most of all, you are ******* more than only him,

after all, undying love only remains **g r i m .

trust seems no longer relative when ******* used against you.

323 · Aug 2015

5:05 PM.

Z Aug 2015

5:05 PM.

NEVER SWIM THE OCEAN FOR PEOPLE WHO WON'T JUMP A PUDDLE FOR YOU.

313 · Dec 2015

9:19 AM.

Z Dec 2015

9:19 AM.