Z: Poems

4:56 PM.

Z Nov 2015

4:56 PM.

this "story" is only a chapter within the book of lies, babe.

5:02 PM.

Z Aug 2015

5:02 PM.

And at that moment, I realized that there was never anything there. Nothing between us, at all. The thought of that makes me break.

5:05 PM.

Z Aug 2015

5:05 PM.

NEVER SWIM THE OCEAN FOR PEOPLE WHO WON'T JUMP A PUDDLE FOR YOU.

5:31 PM.

Z Aug 2015

5:31 PM.

Find the humor in everything, for you will always win.

5:41 PM.

Z Aug 2015

5:41 PM.

You are so much more than the number on the scale or the averages on your transcripts.

6:03 PM.

Z Sep 2015

6:03 PM.

you kept me afloat in the water I desired to drown in.

What happened?

6:31 AM.

Z Nov 2015

6:31 AM.

you turned my daydreams into the perfect reality...

...but reality is fatal when you're

*A L O N E

this past month has been so ****** and I just don't know what to do with you anymore, I can't even look at you in the eye without wanting to perish. *******.

6:37 PM.

Z Nov 2015

6:37 PM.

he took my words like notes on a whiteboard, and now i'm simply erased.

6:38 PM

Z Aug 2015

6:38 PM

Never enough.

6:47 PM.

Z Aug 2015

6:47 PM.

Dull and blank, the only things I feel and the only things that I am.

7:02 PM.

Z Sep 2015

7:02 PM.

"Family's all you've got, whether it's the one you're born with, or the one you create.."

~K

7:33 PM.

Z Aug 2015

7:33 PM.

"You don't sound pathetic love, only human."

~J

7:40 PM.

Z Aug 2015

7:40 PM.

I'm ******* done trying and even though I am, there's always going to be the thought of us in the back of my mind.

7:42 PM.

Z Oct 2015

7:42 PM.

'but suddenly, you're 30 and blasting the songs that you wanted to die to when you were 15.'

Until then...

7:43 AM.

Z Sep 2015

7:43 AM.

I tend to wonder if these pills are taking effect. I also tend to wonder if I'm just delusional.

7:44 AM.

Z Sep 2015

7:44 AM.

debating on some changes.

7:50 AM.

Z Sep 2015

7:50 AM.

your smile anchored me down, but now I'm merely breaking the surface.

8:05 PM.

Z Nov 2015

8:05 PM.

we are all our own allegories until the day we reach the glory we deserve.

i don't know what to be or feel, everything has been getting worse and i'm falling back into the hole and every day gets harder ****.

8:10 PM.

Z Nov 2015

8:10 PM.

Okay* shouldn't be silently suffering and testing your stability until the moment that you break, but rather acceptance and calming moments that allow you to sit and not explode with angst.

8:12 AM.

Z Oct 2015

8:12 AM.

And just as we finish a cycle once more, you only pull me in further with no turning back.

8:14 PM.

Z Sep 2015

8:14 PM.

AA LL OO NN EE

8:28 PM.

Z Sep 2015

8:28 PM.

you're like the moon, shining so bright and going through your phases..though your dark side is never revealed.

8:33 PM.

Z Sep 2015

8:33 PM.

never really happy, only occupied.

December 10th.

8:33 PM.

Z Aug 2015

8:33 PM.

"2 rules.

Don't give a **** what people think, and speak your mind."

-the certain person I used to call my friend.

8:37 AM.

Z Nov 2015

8:37 AM.

every time I see your name appear within my notifications it makes me question whether it's really worth worrying about. the thought of you actually caring is foreign but...

*why not?

they made my day better last night and it was **** day until that idiot and their stupid texts brightened up my mood

8:40 PM.

Z Sep 2015

8:40 PM.

You are the canvas.

*Paint me as your villain.

8:42 PM.

Z Aug 2015

8:42 PM.

We're all tiny specks in this endless universe for an unknown reason and yet, we continue to worry about who marries who.

8:47 AM.

Z Sep 2015

8:47 AM.

falling and crashing down

**What are we anymore..?

8:51 AM.

Z Aug 2015

8:51 AM.

Sitting in a classroom surrounded by the future of America, yet continuously taught irrelevant material that will never benefit us in the end.

8:51 PM.

Z Nov 2015

8:51 PM.

classrooms of lost thoughts, where dreams turn into dust.

i'm glad this is over and i'm happy you actually give a ****.

8:58 PM.

Z Oct 2015

8:58 PM.

helplessly in love with your blonde hair and green eyes, but those same green eyes never seen to meet with mine.

9:01 AM.

Z Sep 2015

9:01 AM.

Your face is only an allegory for the terrors you constrict inside.

I'm actually in a really good mood, whoever reads this, everything is temporary.

9:03 AM.

Z Sep 2015

9:03 AM.

your impulses shall land you in your own inapt reality:

**ALONE

everything's turning to **** honestly, and I don't know what to do

9:06 PM.

Z Sep 2015

9:06 PM.

"we're all just people with the same problems and different last names."

~Papa

9:06 PM.

Z Aug 2015

9:06 PM.

I refuse to be a statistic.

9:08 AM.

Z Oct 2015

9:08 AM.

Lost in the sea that you and I are both drowning in.

I'm really sorry I don't know what to do.

9:12 AM.

Z Oct 2015

9:12 AM.

just take me back to the cold seats of that bus, complemented with your warm neck.

*P L E A S E

C.

9:19 AM.

Z Dec 2015

9:19 AM.

friends should be family without genetics instead of socially constructed relations benefitting the mind of your occupation.

I really love my friends right now, honestly. you know who you are.

9:29 PM.

Z Sep 2015

9:29 PM.

the life you crave shall arrive.

*soon enough

I just want to leave this place and take the select few I love with me is that too much?

9:29 PM.

Z Mar 2016

9:29 PM.

why call it love when it's friendship set on fire?

9:31 AM.

Z Sep 2015

9:31 AM.

your being is toxic and I'm dying from your poison.

but im ******* invisible.

9:32 AM.

Z Nov 2015

9:32 AM.

this life waits for no one.

*STOP waiting for the live you deserve.

been tough, and I won't ever stop loving you.

*******.

9:33 PM.

Z Sep 2015

9:33 PM.

"reveal what's behind the door, for you shall become ill."

from a story I read in english a couple days ago I actually really like this

9:35 AM.

Z Oct 2015

9:35 AM.

Me and you, living at different speeds..

*Darling, we've only just started.

9:38 PM.

Z Aug 2015

9:38 PM.

the single moment you listen to those songs and don't want to die is the moment you begin to live.

9:40 PM.

Z Oct 2015

9:40 PM.

Anything and everything is breaking apart.

You're crying.

I'm dying.

**ALL BECAUSE THEY BOTH ******* LEFT.

i've had enough, and i'm about to breakdown.

9:41 AM.

Z Oct 2015

9:41 AM.

Adventure is available, for if it is not, create.

Great mood, I hope everyone has a lovely day.

9:41 AM.

Z Nov 2015

9:41 AM.

those green eyes were the light to my ocean of despair, and now it's simply aphotic.

Utterly and Hopelessly in love with you, and you don't know a thing.
C.

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