only space
a blank place
withheld from grace
simply replaced

It makes me sick to my stomach
How I play your laugh on loop in my head

My artist has kicked the bucket
All grey dances with the devil..
the colors are dead

Serums and cocktails to ease my stomach
I'm sober but I'd rather be blank instead

You know I hate it-
Try as I might,
It seems useless-
A losing fight...

..to erase you from my thoughts
I need guidance - an emotional GPS
I'm hopelessly, tragically lost..

Pale - you numb me like snow
You're colder than the ice that used to sit in my soul
Frail - this must be sick with a cold
I think I see the devil, dear;
I thought you should know

And, as much as I hate it,
Try as  I might;
I can see it's useless-
A losing fight..

..letting go while holding on to Jack Frost
Lasts a lifetime and I need rest
This has all come at too high a cost..

Blame - neglect may be all that I know
Flaunt your fears; they make for a show
Creep - such a dreadful process must be slow
To find trophies in the scar tissue;
From the wounds, marvels may grow..

Still, I hate it-
Try as I might;
It's always been useless-
A losing fight..

..because you keep a place in my mind
And keep my chest filled with ice
Even after all this **** time..

It goes
1 pill
2 pills
Now 3..

..It takes 4 pills
Just to get some sleep

Not to mention how many lines
It takes to ease my mind

And roll my *** out of bed
Baby girl's sober; she's dead

It goes
1 pill
2 pills
Now 3..

**..It takes 4 pills
Just to feel like me

I was handcrafted
Woven with words whispered by the breeze
Molded by melodies that let themselves freeze

For you.

.......

You were handmade
Seasoned by homemade remedies, equipped with amenities
Expensively constructed as a penthouse with luxuries

For me.

.......

We were man-made
Birth-bound to smooth one another's rough patches
Brains aflame, man-made matched as lit matches

I wanna take you all in
But where do I begin?

Star-lit kisses, every tattoo to trace
Just to put a smile on your face
In hopes that it always stays

I wanna take you all in
I'll start by tasting your skin

Pray for you and hold you close
Watch you grin and crinkle your nose
Telling inside secrets that no one knows

I wanna take you all in
Something so good it must be sin

I'll love you now, I'll love you later
Renewing pieces to fill my chest's crater
All along, you've clearly been this girl's savior

I wanna take you all in
Feel your warmth on me again

Remember me. I'll go nowhere
When I'm with you, the world ain't unfair
So please dont leave; I'd follow you anywhere

I wanna take you all in..
Oh where do I begin?

She watched as the flames bit at her heels

And stared on in silence
As the sting licked her calves
Inching slowly upwards, aiming for the ****

She let the light blind her in her daze

And settled into the abyss
As the anguish learned her name
To haunt her dreams and taint her days

She whispered her pleas

And released herself slowly
As the rage took total possession
Reminding her chest of the purpose of greed

She captured it in a Polaroid picture

And shoved all else away
As she glared at it in shock and awe
Beholding the explosive, exclusive, targeted rapture