Stand up
Sit down
Rest
No
Wait
Can’t
Rest
What’s that
Who’s that
Are you the one
No wait can’t rest
Wait
Just !
Stop!
Please...

I finally realize what I need
I need someone that can cut me off from going out to much
I need someone that’s gunna share memories.
Let’s get ...
Let’s umm...
Do you anybody still get married these days ?
If so are you willing ..?

I never knew what i would do if anybody try to take you away,
and your beautiful boy won't wait for you because hes busy with the stars and the Fame.

And i don't know why i breath its taking to long for me,
Can we speed up the process Please!
or show me the one i need

I need somebody...Someday crazy enough to tell me
i will love you till we, till we are buried
Our  bodies ...our bodies buried  close together

in the Cemetary weather...

Isn’t that something?
They know nothing..
When you wink at me dude….man that’s something
When you text me “come thru”. Yeaa I’m coming.

Sitting court side barley 18, got his little brother on A team.
Just walked in but he can’t speak, so he sent a text saying “babe!”.
It’s a lot of faces around you,  got a lot of  people around me.
I keep looking up at you
he keeps checking up on me.

Man that something?!
They know nothing…
Sent a text “I love yoooou” dame you love me.
Sent a text “ dame me tooooo” now he’s smiling.

Sitting court side on the next seat,
Watch his little brother playing A- Team
Got alot of people around you
I got a lot of friends around me.
After the game ..just  @ me
Baseball field come kiss me

I got something..
you came with nothing..
You keep holding me dude…man that’s something.
We got nothing to prove….man that’s something.

unwanted time is symbolic
Cause it seems like we never have enough
Without money or talking you can’t get it back.
Without the media and a clock would it really matter what day it was?
Without your hand on mine woudl I really care of a proposal?
Without you saying my name would I really care who calls me ?
Time is so overrated it surpasses the mind
And yet I sit here watching the times we had together and now that there gone I watch another on what they do with there’s ....strange isn’t it

Is that how you feel?
Is that what you mean?
Say I got you do you got me?
clingy but zealous though,
Is that what you hate?
Let's be foreal..
changing  my ways because These days you need to be deep.
Listen for giving never for keeps.
Time is borrowed
this is  not cheap.
Ask How I know though
Look at tree!
Look at nails!
Why would you think..?
Why would you speak..?
Dead men are dead
Alive is the meek..

Off of the topic come back to point,
Is that how you feel?
Is that why you speak?
Is that why you're zealous?
Is that why your clingy?
Is that why you love cause you know time is cheap?

Yes

All I want is a thou or a million,
They want my soul and my friendship
They say take me to your deepest hole
Where the lights gone and there's butterflies a intersection to free your mind it's a good thing when they want you huh..?

I thirst water
I thirst for real.

My fake gets covered by corse joking still.

My thirst is stronger
For Elohim

I stay to ponder,
I'm on my heels..

i Use to sneak threw the back door just to see his face
In the morning and his mom gone cause she hated how my people made mistakes
It was almost time for school and here we are getting lost in each other eyes in the bathroom
Trying not be so loud he held my mouth as I held his
At that moment I was enchanted how he looked down at my feet
I don’t know ...what I was thinking
Dirt on my shoes but I’m the one sinking
My smile turn to love just by him blinking
And then it happen
He said
“Nene (baby in Spanish ) I have to go to school, Go to my room..”
“Take your shoes off here”
And it dawned on me the whole way up stairs.
As he watched me ...

I’m dripping with love For him,
The problem is my skin
They don’t even know I’m here
They don’t even know who I am
If only I can show her we’re not all bad
If I only I can show his brother that I’m not his dad
And I as I reached the top and looked back
All these things became like sand
And too stay and not leave him even though I know..we know if the water comes non of this could stand ...
He gave me a smile and I gave him my hand
He walked up the stairs and we kissed and in my head ...
In this moment
Holding him tight
I looked deep in his eyes
And said
“ it is what it is “..

He looked back at me and said “huh”
Haha nada nene ir al colegio.

..right

Your heart is so special
Your hands are so small
Your eyes tell stories as I sit and watch.
Undo these words undo these locks
Fireworks and ticking bombs
Trails come missles taunt.
Love is a battle field so I gotta know what side you're on.

Laughter like wine, shots for my heart..
When I sip I just cheer for what we are,
What are we?
Love is a battle field so I gotta know what side you are on...

Have you ever stared at someone and thought how they would look naked?

Coming so close to my poison without sipping is a lustful concentration.

I'm in a concentration camp that's killing me by your fragrance.

Into my mind I course jest with a under age thought of excellence

Trying not to get caught I believe you want to be my beautiful injection.

Have you ever seen a smile that was so interesting you made a plan to plan out how you would never ever miss it?

It's just a humanly thing to do.

What's invisible stands at the door,
Do I open or should I sit here to tell you some more..
Truth is truth my son there's no other way, when Great is in your face don't speak of the best things you should've done
We all here wait for death don't you say? But death has enough patience to wait on another page.
I do hear them coming faster my world and this earth world is beating the same heart beat ..
Make sure you know where your going..

At the center of it all,
I found the center of him
Only putting the tip in I’m finding my love exceeds within
Sweet satisfaction for him
To know there someone that’s all in
Without putting the shaft in

It's a dreadful thing to see your love one moving away from you slowly.

The wind gets colder and the walls start to talk again.
You do everything to prevent it but say something and most will think your crazy weird or just ...
Just..
I'm just growing numb in ignorance
Cause I don't want to see this happen even though I'm in truth and all lies in the world can't speak to me in this moment.
I hope I'm wrong.. My friend.
I hope I'm wrong..my
I hope I'm wrong
Hope I'm..
Friend?

There after me!
It calls at night
What's after me?
I'm scared of light
Cause I done this in the dark
Some how when I'm living can you help me threw what I fight..
What I started
What I might
Bad habits coming to the light
My habits walking threw the night
I love my life but I can't stand my rights
I wanna go home I wanna go back
Back to where our mind was in the Garden before we sat and ate of what good and evil pre- lapse.
I have nothing to gain
I have nothing left
If I was born without hands ..amen I'll will praise you on my knees.
But I lift up my hands and say..
He's after me myself save me from my help all I need is you and what you are to me you're  holy in all your ways what am I in your place ? No Kanye I'm not a God I need one not just anyone you the Holy one I believe..
I believe!
I'm just tired of me

The red capes are coming
A world full of Super-mans shouldn’t need saving....Does it?
A portion of my mind wrapped in a thought like a rain drop falling from the sky until it’s a puddle of things that are absolutely nothing.

On the highest when I praise
I'm the lowest when I fall
When they call I'm the youngest at heart,
But I'm the oldest in age
I do more then what I supose to,
Just to see a smile..,.dang

Like the waves in the sea
Your ways flow threw me
And even as I speak I can’t see the Forrest from the leaves
The water from the sea
And I was starting to believe
We had a Forrest full of dreams
But now I wake up feeling steamed
Like starch pants Without the crease
A man with baby feet
I weird vivid picture meaning I have to start again without your face and lately I’ve been missing that lately.

I got to much self in me,
I don't know why but his soul has alittle of envy.
It's tempting when your in a room of people you don't know and they know the same person as you ...

Oh please
say this to me,
Someone's out there will hold my hand.
Don't think
I go to sleep and never dream of being your man..

I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

My friends are closer to me then leaves that's on the branch.

So think
When me and you speak I feel like we are like atoms and wind.

I wanna hold your hand.
I wanna hold your hand.

When lies are in the open tell me what is naked?

My mind still goes  places
My heart always stay grounded

We think we know each other intimately just by sitting here talking, but my spirit picks up a lot in you I wonder if you can here me trusting you?.

I worked ******* your smile
I chiseled my chin
I cropped my skin
I crinkled my brow just to get a four letter word
Out of your mouth.
3 years ago I was the one you talked about.
Getting up to see me was expensive
Getting up to hold me Was a check you needed
How did I let those moments get deleted
Everyone I talk to are like a song that’s on repeat
i already heard it...
*** runs the world and if it don’t run you then you’re running from it
I’m so in shape I forgot how it felt to be square to my circumstance.
I worked hard to stop the tears
I lowered my chin
I leveled my friends
I even crinkled my pride just to get a four letter word from your mouth again.
I tried to wash your name from my mouth ..but I can’t.

You know how froze that is!
Look at my neck oh dame
You know how froze that  is!
look at my wrist oh man
You know how froze that is !

Cold as Alaska My heart become a state full of diamonds as I dig up the dirt I find my heart beating with greed... I need it ! I want it !
You know how froze that is! I can't breath with out making a snow storm

If I had it all....
I would bought you car with miles and all.
Would of been there so you wouldn't have to call
Yet I play to ball
It's like I was made to fall
Right into your arms then go walk in the mall
If I had it all ...
Would it be something to taste your lips again
Cause I have been him the one that keeps receipts then
Falling so far froma Godly hyme
Im singing alone again.
But if I had it all
Jesus would be calling me to make a call
Finding all my demons bleeding like a bite from jaws
But if I ...

Like Addias ain't no strip bae
Zig zag in pipe bae
Pringles over night bae
Tell me what you want from meh...
Never in exalt
Always humble thinking hard today  
amends me on the right day
I'm weak and your a  Fri-day .
My kisses not might bae
Like do you want more sprite bae cause I gotta say the truth!
My past is not that cute!
And yet I think about you with you legs to the roof
And yet I think about you with ring to carry to
Too me I'm not flute
But keep singing I'll get it right bae

Help me..?
What's wrong with me?

The professor can help he can fix it

I don't wanna Fix it..!

I can't keep living like this
My soul is wanting but my spirit is hurting when I stumble and trip.

Here I am on the floor again
Watching my life argue with sin
So I get up and start the fight again.

I'm ready to go home I'm ready to let go of this world that's literally deceiving men ..

You can keep heaven if your not there
I wanna be with the one that saved me from him, them, acceptance,****,ME!, SIN...

The world hates me and I can see that,
If this is my last day with y'all...


...Jesus.

I miss you..alot
And the worst feeling is your just literally around the corner not even a Block.

***** to know your best friend know where you live and inches from you but never... Oh Nevermind.

I miss you..alot

Do like this
do like that
running like i'm usain bolt
no bring that back
somebody gotta...

take me home
i drunk all night
**** your wife
im kidding but my loves not right
i feel it...

cold and mold
these ****** wanna take my soul
the ones that get it they really wanna let you know
hoes are hoes there blinded third eye closed
angels diss dont switch cause you never know...

forgive and get
repent and sip
i sink the ship
and kiss the man
they wonder why i'm missing dame
cause his blood all over the street
they don't know its me
they don't know hes a king
and god don't talk but the devil does
which i never did wish he never was

I robbed before I did
I lied before I did
I kissed her once I kissed her friend I kissed him to I've loved a man.
I'm sick!
Never killed a person but I hated
Suicide thoughts always **** him
He was ten years old ima ******
There's blood on my hands yes I did it.
I seen stuff that I should of told
I heard stuff that they never known
I ate stuff that hurts my soul
I gave stuff that I know was wrong!!

Do I believe in demons
Yes
They talk to me they say "look at this mess!"
Do I believe in angels
Yes
They walk with me until Glory come shine on us.

I need a God cause you can judge me but I judge myself every breath.

I know one day I'll be judged
I know someday I will touch
The greatful day of my Love

His splendor renewed every breath
The light of him just to much
I took my steps in this place and no I fall like I have known

All my Sins are infront of me
God I was a fool to my lust
My words and my head are revealed threw my tongue
I forget what I said cause now it's actions that talk with all my life in his Hands.

It's over it's finished it's done
I wait to hear from the King The lamb
And His Son....

The older I get the more I pray
The younger I was the more stupid I became.
See it starts with a twitch then you running from things
It floods in like water then ends in flames.
If the beginning was big then then it will end with bang
If I cut my wrist then I followed the Milky Way
But the sun is out so here come better days

Tired of falling asleep and waisting a dream on feelings and emperors.

I'm caught in the sink wash me oh please the dirt of my old life's.

Time is following me I covered her blinks her eyes won't stop shinning.

Pills sound good for this stuff but I know that it's rust I'm up for suggestion.

Why would you look over?
It's God or smoke **** the spark of a new life.

I look around and I wonder why I stay grounded the roots in me comes threw ceiling rather then the earth that's full killing that's full women that men disrespect for a couple minutes just to get a visa she's called a dog and other words that cause attention I never pay attention to the worldly views that they say facts but moving on I'm hearing that were victims in all of this the gansters drug dealers and politics are the same thing just acknowledge it,
The government is the government I'm never condemning this or condemning men if I throw my stones then I get hit by big ones that don't make no sense it don't make no sense just to talk about and not pray for it. So I bow down in action
And look threw the heavens.
To the holy fire  and thank him.
Cause we need him more then we need a vacation.
Hope actions speak louder then sentence..

It's funny how the world just disappear,
When we don't talk  and your not here..
The stars shine brighter but fall like spears.
The days go on but slowly I'm drifting near,
The places where I use to hide is finally drinking tears.
The joy I know is crumbs & weird my hands don't text cause your words are in my ears.

I won't cling so much so I can hear your heart and watch as I step back and watch this all just ....

The realness is setting in,
I try not to blink or I won't come out
The goodness is coming out
I begin to speak
The hope is flowing now
You are all I need.
What is life without a place you can call home,
What's a friend if he don't ever find the secrets in your life?
Good question at the wrong time,
No one is hiding Im becoming the loving type..
As I play on keyboards I'm unlocking the lovers life.

My tears won't come like my eyes won't close for sleep,
The last dream I guess was telling me there was a door closing on me.
I've been walking till my feet dreams,
Please no I'll take what I need!
This isn't the end....
But I tell you this will be the end of sleeping outside and not getting payed!!
My fault mom forgive me but in I learned that it's time for great.
I'm not settling for the best...
Faith I hold today.

With these kushite hands I take off this crown,
My heart has never been this loud .
I can feel my spirit getting dim
I can feel my soul getting weary
My eyes are low
my shoulders are tipsy
Just please ...
Shut up and kiss me
Just please
Shut my thoughts up just love me
Just please
Let me
Let me hold you I don’t wanna be a King today I just want you to be with me.

I know where you hide when the lights get low and the stars bow
We’re all at your feet now
We’re all yours now
Tweeting your thoughts and tasting your regrets ...why?
Why would he make a Angel wait?
How could he turn a tear to a lake ..
Such man with no power has this king kicking his crown as the past days penetrate..
But I ....I vowed to stay in a castle that’s on fire...
And if you we’re willing listen
In the darkest hour I speak
And “say I know I’ve been here before”
A love from a knight circles the city
A king needs royalty as his mom lives in such diversity...
I was kicked out but meet me on the moon
when the sun don’t shine but it’s never to soon
You will find a night ...patiently waiting for you.
Burn the castle and come meet me soon that will be the sign I will know and I will take you to a Sun that speaks to you...
Don’t wait to long but don’t be to soon.
As he calls me threw the moon

I heard the world was ending, so I went to go make my bed.

I heard the world was ending, so I went to go get dressed.

I heard the world was ending, so I brushed my teeth and head.

I heard the world was ending, so I started to lift my head.

A knock on the door came so I said " I heard the world was ending" to my friend.

He said "No I've Just begin, my kingdom is at hand".

We've seen mothers bury sons and were begging you to come
Ohh-ohh-ohh
The homeless fill our towns and the hopeless scream out loud
Ohh-ooh-ohh
We can not wait we can not wait ohh we can not wait!
Feed the your justice to the innocence
And the bread without religiousness
I tryed but this life just can't spark my love like you.
I won't hide what you have placed in me to do
I need your grace like they do
Like a killer with a gun what have I done? Is there a way to pured and cleansed from the mistake I've done?

Last but not lease this is my blatant descovery.

God is real because of what October the 31st have shown me.

I've been nuts that's what makes me a human being, cause when your not crazy they tell you stupid things.

I mean stupid things like the cartoon Mickey or yu-gi-oh you know it's there "card games"...

Psychics play the same game but I recognize that the weekend called it mind games.

If your not crazy they place things in your mental so you can become like a beat .. "Instrumental". M.J. Said it  a slave to the rythem babe.

I will not dance to the pattern that they want me to play we were made to sing and give praise not dance and not speak only if you were a puppet to what they say.

Dannnng..

Calm down zeal I believe your share to much without even knowing there doing,
I don't care I pray for you so you can be who God called you to be a Human BEING

Yes I do I believe one day you will see how much your missing me.

I'm scarred ..that day it was so dark,
The moon and the stars I use to count them to tell you...

..Don't trip don't quit where would you begin if I just left you would say "I'm missing you".

But it's hard your pridefulness has blind you.

Plz oh plz don't go that's all I want..
But my heart is overwhelmed of being ignored!

I don't want to lay by your side,
I'm tired of you
You.

If you don't text oh it's alright,
I'm so numb to you
You.

But I DONT WANT TO THINK THIS TONIGHT.

I was reaching out to you
I text and I call?
I payed for shirts and shoes
I've given you
I've given you more then what you gave me.

Watching a tree blow in the wind tonight and I don't know why I can't sleep.

My life blows like a tree in the wind,
I create shade for thoughs who read but winter comes I'm rooted to this dirt of mine I can't "leaf".

..And there they are on the ground leaving me, what more do I have except the branches and thorns but that's me!

But you .. You ...come to me and I ...I move
Everything I am to you what am I to you?
To me I'm a tree no for me tree you help me breath and you show me that God is with me as his love flows threw the breeze.

Thank you mr. Tree...

I'm just a simple boy
Who's love was for attention
Then I grew from past to present
I need someone for protection
Maybe that is why I try to hide the lust I have the angels cry, I'm running for a life believe me how can anyone say this life is easy..
Not knowing what to say I've seen a lot against the gate
Some say it's fine some say it's fake
Some hate the same and call it gay
Some like the climb and see the change
I'm running for my life believe me how can anyone say this life is easy.

He's haunted everyday,
He leaves the city without a trace those bullets fly the people break my legs and arms have broken down I've seen it from the ***** crowd I'm reaching for the life that's in me how can one man say his burdens easy I thought of your face relax and focus run to space..

Life gave me lemons and I held them in the freezer,
Watching the ones that was so close to me point there fingers

….as they say “what happen to your lemons”?
Even my best friend left as I stop giving out free lemons…
I never told them the rest was in my denim
And now the clouds cry and I don’t even reason.
I’m somewhere thinking of myself cause even my partner the one I thought that would find them I have left…
When I even showed him where they was. Such hallow love for someone to know you but hate what you become.
But for me it was like the dirt turning into mud.
When you left crushed the lemons and sipped a cup.
If you would of stayed the first time maybe I would of gave a ****
But now I sip lemonade not because I want to but it’s the only thing I have…
As you point your fingers im so glad you were to dumb to see them in your face because now I drink them and hardly think of what you have done

Never wanted to lose you and I lost you.
Losing something is hard when you know what it cost you.
You...well you’re trying to move on from the thought to,
This is not a sad poem so I don’t want you be tearful
I’m just saying if you have time with them to fight about small petty *** ****....be greatful.
Cause waking up to someone being mad at you shows Me thar  it could of been a better example

Blessing to the giver,
It slips you from the strays
Hold me like a beginner
Don’t let go until change.
Secrets in my veinsss
Whisper them to me
There lost beneath the sheets
Only those that strays

…am I just another high ?
Tell me babe are you high ?

Don't forget about Love
the root of all things
those who do become entangled with time are always timing everything.
Don't forget belove
Don't forget about Loving Me
I won't forget
I won't forget about you..
..No matter what i do belove
I won't

I love to be in your arms and there's nothing for lust I leave it empty handed cause our friendship is what I hold deeper then that zipper in the dark.
Yes I trip I tripped of course but I swear and pinky promise to the north that I won't and meant that.
I feel oh crap my feelings
They spill until you get it
Then we, your prolly thinking that I or what I'm thinking that I bore you thinking that I ignore you thinking maybe don't have nothing for you but..

Clearly I do a lot to see my friends happy, let's see show we..

I got terminated from my job because we chilled that day.
My whole check didn't go to me it went to your face.
Plus your eyebrow plus that freakin look on your face.
And that look on your face makes me feel good okay I said it I did it I'm thinking let's move on.
When I call you wasn't busy we was cool like AC in a Bentley.
But tell me why I'm feeling like a Chevy the won't start up and then I ask my dad to come get me and he said the samething "why do you come all the way over here just to be friendly?"

I don't know Dad I don't know,
Now I'm laying in my bed thinking like maybe I should just back up maybe I should wait for you to call me
Maybe not maybe let's see I'm just watch from a distance and see if you even want me.

Not because my love is gone or shrinking,
Just cause I wanna see if were real homies..

Laying on my bed ain't real rest.
I think about the night darkness can you hold my hand?
Feeling like I'm august I'm the only one to fall
Picking out myself again like black panthers do there Afros
Twisted, tangled and pulling all these thoughts again oh no
Can't keep running Forrest you just got to let it go.