Friendly fire, friendly fire!
I cut the wires he's got some wires..
No undercover I'm under covers
I'm understanding and underlining
It's exasperated and *******
To my mind to orchestrate this life I'm living.
Always feeling wrong but it feels so good gripping  life from a tip to receive simething out of it
My suspicion is always before me and my sin has elevated
My lips are weary so my heart becomes like lemons.
Bright and radiant

Who wants to be poor
cash is ignored
I want to be yours
Your closets a tour
You smell like Dior
I want to be yours
My presence is sired
These bottles are cured
You know what I want
You know what I want
I want to be your....I--I want to be yours.

We have done a lot we have but what is a lot if you never had? Having something that the other don't do you think you have more? Should I  resale what I have if I do would I have less to get more ?

This is Gold season
I got my own reasons
I got my new meaning
Pictures old feelings
Drinking my own room,
Sipping slowly but the taste is missing,
What ive been thinking after My love is sitting and some how Day dreamin should It move ?
What's missing..
What's missing in Me?
All these questions get recognition like a prisoner to my mentioning the unmentioned did I mention there just looking..
So my focus is focus and my eyes are broken and my love is sitting and mentions are mentioning I forgot to let these questions are now thinking ..
"Why did you leave"?
Then the answer was instant with a warm breath under the soft  clicking threw his intestines out of throat between the beat of your sleepiness....*inhaling ..exhaling *.
You just laying there breathing is letting these
questions stop thinking
Breaking the eyes of my mentionings and Everything apart of me listen to you breathing.

Really hope that I can be honest umm I got a problem yaa never really knew that thoughts could alter your sleep, lately I've been missing my breakfast umm uncaring but zealous yaa .Was that us or am I alone?

Living under what has been spoken tripping over what I didn't  yaa what if I win it what will I lose

do you realize
That you have the most beautiful face
Do you realize
That Beauty is vain.
Do you realize
Your heart is home ..to me
Do you realize
Can't hold all this weight

Do you realize
Everyone you know someday ..will die?

I see it coming like a prophets wife
Death is like a sacrifice
I wonder if you see me Christ..
I'm feeling like a Outsider.

Is it true ..you're coming right?
So much dirt that's in my life
you saw me ******* tonight.
...I hang my head and walk outside.

I feel it threw my bones tonight
Death is like sacrifice
I wonder if you see me Christ..
Another day another night.

Looking up*.. your coming right?
Some say that they need a sign.
I'm wretched coming back tonight.

Free me from this chain of life
Cause death is a lovely sacrifice..

Can you meet me tonight..
I wonder if you see me Christ

You been feeling so let down you just want someone around pick your heart up off the ground I know that shows I should never stay but I never seem to go nooo..no.

Tip toe at a line we shouldn't cross when the smiles switch like lights and the lights go off.

Got my X all in my bed, O your all up in my head should've text you that I'm sober but these X and O's I text instead .

Tip toe at a line we shouldn't cross when the smiles switch like lights and the lights go off

Could it be you calling me down
Dressed in wax when I heard the sound
Zeal! The wax of my ears jumped and my heart pound..
Like a dog in the dog pound looking at a old master that familiar word of mouth
I'm asking for too much now
What is up must come down
And your voice that old familiar sound
Like raised eyebrows
Excited for the moment
For the moment
The moment..
Moment?
Our moment is gone as I scrolled down your picture was old news But I love the moment
Such a familarface gone wrong
*scrolls down

You need a cape cause dame you fly,
For this ride you gon' need a seatbelt
I'll drive you crazy and let the seat melt
Never took Molly but Molly took me hell...
..Ha Heaven knows that it's a cheap thrill.

My past tell me that I need help my future never pick up the phone now
Neglect my family for my own tales
Cause I ***** the fairy of its own tales.
Distance lover became my worst song
They wanna bad guy mix Danny Glover
Old Micheal plus stupid rich the one that won't talk foolishness but sell the Sh
So I'm fooling them a good guy that's been lying that he's hurt but have a smile cause he made it threw it when honestly deep down in his heart he's full of heartbreak and smarter then the average rich kid cause money can't buy happiness so I smile cause I'm really smiling over some stupid sh and breaking over my ignorance

Thinking about the flight I can let it go reaching to the top and every step is gonna be the worst fall.

Snuggled waiting for you to get home **** it THIS IS NOT A POEM!
this my first time in this might be my last
I'm tired of merry go rounds and places I can't have fun. You were everything but you're worried about everything and you're everything feels like everything but getting distracted by the fights and the other couples smiles.. no please no don't think I Ughhhhh no I love you oh here you go not listening to my feelings feels like our speech is shattered and both thinks we're out to cut the cord we put around our necks  sigh* I'm tired of hanging for no reason what's next I'm not looking forward to Valentine's bliss not cause of you but the day after this..... Help me I'm bout to drown in something else

Lips like autumn
Mind of envy
Call from momma
Kiss so empty
I don't know
What to say
In here alone
But you're with me ?
Money problems
Talk is cheap
F the car
Be home with me
F your feelings  
Who's texting me?
Lost a heart
Kept a seed
Pour the liquor
Pour my honey
Drink the whitest
Do you love me?
F the  milk
Where's my  honey
Where are you ?!

Heard you need a new man
(New)
Heard you need a new stack
(A new)
Heard you need a new phone
(Plz new)
I know your *** can't be home ...
(A plan)
..well call up Room Service
Tell them to clean this place
Call on the phone,
I'm waiting on your call home.

your my obsession
Your My obsession
Your skin is golden
I left my taste on your body
I left my eyes on your body
***** my life with your probably
I'm drenched in love hope you like me
I'm drenched in love hope you ride me
Unlock yourself until tried me
You lock yourself until you saw me
You can't stop smiling hope you like me
Open hearts we locked our bodies
Naked love exotic bodies
I want your hand You sniff my "try me"

Thus time is upon us,
Here ye all that believes in me!
We will get better things will get better
Wait for the sun  it will be our treaty
God will be our time
This world is given
The universe is Mine
The stars are mini
The ants of life
The wind is existence
This pen is mine!

Oh I feel the humility as I sink inside my chair hang my head before who came as they all watch and move on, I'm drained my dear...
I'm the one in the spot light breeze my mom will meet up with me as we discuss my life of greed and failures that I won't speak of,
I fight my tears...
They came to get my car my friend
I'm lost without a job again
Entangled from the man I've been
Entangled from me..
I'm losing heart my love is dim
They came to get my ...
Losing everyone of my friends
Time and all the distance
She's coming to get me...
I pray you catch listening in..
I pray you catch me

Locked his self in his room
Electric lights like Mr.Doom
The voices getting louder
The boy is becoming consumed
The argument before is leaking threw the man after this will be nothing but a uncaring waiting for something to happen tomb..
As I lay dead of words that I told u in confidence I pick up the pieces of what I said...then again...
This is my end I will let my demon speak for u

My angel just became my devil get a lot of information and they... leak it out they want the truth  but they can't handle it my truth..

I'm messed up I've been with people only had one love and the rest was men and the one I love had a babe for a guy when we was together..? How would you feel if your true love ****** someone and had to tell u that they was pregnant for someone else and your friend wanna ******* and his friend watches .. I took a sip and layed down when I layed down I fell so far away I drip in the basement now my savior just told me " truth Hurts" that's all !!! That's all you have to say !! Well truth will hurt I will become higher then Saturn higher then my critics the world will mimic what they didn't my love will be soo high only God is the one that can sense it !!!

Daylight
High life
Dreamin
Take flight
Hit me
Kick  me
We go
All night
**** me
Hurt me
Lick me
Smoke it
Heard he take that then he's not the same way
I watch me take that who am I I don't know ...

Slipping threw the clouds drowning the grace falling so fast saw a glimpse of your face I miss you Pops I miss my Dad I miss my father the one I had I trip on me so hard I laugh and the tears come falling ...
sinking threw the ground the empire I made the Years I see isn't what I imagined what I thought we had I miss my dad..
Father in heaven father of love show me something no oops I fell my bad  I laughed my bad this love I hold is bleeding threw these wretched hands

Every morning i wake up with a big *****,
Awkward yes but with you you don't care cause you look like your in a comma.
Fast asleep as your phone go off I start to wonder,
Is it only me ?
Cause you got more guys then a dating site and on my life most of these dudes are better then what I look like...
Why me, why did you pick a sudden bi-polar youthful flight?

Cause maybe you love just for me ...right?

**looks at *******

I'm your peace of mind fight for what you made yourself believe,
Time is mighty fine when you're not thinking of the minutes they gave.
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
If u can save me now would I want you to?
Can't even help but cry
And break away!
Just take away!
Everything, plz just can't hold on to you anymore...

It's my fault when I think about it my fault when I reread revault the lock and find out the truth what's new? Who knew the loop of you was me twisted and untwist the things that was in it I'm seasick I done it I did it this sandcastle I build it and spit in it and poured water on it it's done its finish I don't wanna re live or fight over something that I wanted to forget it forget about it FORGET IT FORGET ABOUT  IT FORGET ABOUT IT!!

Lord don't even know
I've been so far gone
I've been drinking some
I've been smoking some
I can't stand up nooo
Ive tried on my own!
Whole world on my d*!
God I do repent!
I just need you noooooww!!

I believe that someone watchin.
Time conceives who's really there and...
Life will bring a new option
The sun and you is my horizon!
I believe you're always watching
I believe you're always there and...
I believe I'm not never leaving
Why can't we watch the horizon?
Time will see who's really there and...
I believed you were my best friend
Why can't we be in love and...
Thought we would do better man
I still believe you're always watchin..

Struggle just to keep my car rolling,
You struggle just to keep my mind open..
The walls are sinking and I'm soaked by what we have perfect but what is perfect ...yeah who is perfect?
Kiss of ****** and the touch of black angel. I bot my myself a shirt to cry on and a thick muzzle. You're lying and I know it! Evicted now we're open! I wished it but so hated the fact that the truth is not gunna come out now I look to a boyfriend that sad and full of maverick should I let it go like he said or become his black angel and never hold my wings again?

Calling myself from a mirror I can't hear what I'm saying I'm too fragil in disguise. Ringing ..it's finally ringing in my head that Ima have to make a decision one day and it terrifies my soulless emphasis ways, having a conversation with Godless taste drinking down my lustful place I picked up the call to my own heartbeat

In school they showed me once upon a time wasn't real time it was made up like make-up on a real girl with insecurities or the perfect Bonitá, so when I look at you I think of you as make up to me but I'm a guy if I was a transgender there would be a way to live in a time as yours but I know it's fake and here I am watching the mirror toning my eyebrows to be accepted buy the mirror once upon a time I was pretty once upon a time I loved this feeling ..my lonely years

you can taste the dishonesty it's all over your breath from the time drips threw the sun into my bedroom my eyes dont remember your scent not even a stinch... for my heart is to sold for questions and my mind is shattered into little pieces I eat at night and I'm back waiting on the sun to drop so I might get up from this spot I've been in for 3 months.. geezzz just live zeal just

I've created a monster a Frankienstein  something more abominable then what I wanted tonight. Sweet sleep trapped in a maze of love me tonight when the suns up still like I rain rush in to wipe the tears of scandalous night. M.I.A. For couple of flights cause I've been up for a couple of nights

I don't know what to do
I don't know what to say
They will kick you wen you down
When all you was looking for is grace
Only God has Grace.

I don't want to just make it
I wanna succeed
No job no money no GED
The further I get in life it's like people passing me
When I'm not even racing them I'm stuck back in line at the dmv
Trick or treat my heart issues is haunting me
More money more problems just a saying what I'm saying I know I need to eat.
Be or beat to be or not to be is that the job for me if it is why arnt they hiring me ?
I'm tired over all and I haven't made it over the hill yet
I'm not saying I want a private jet but what's wrong with renting one and owning ur own sets?
This is bigger then being rich this better then having *** this is endurance to be who I need to be in this moment.
I've been knocked down and out I'll train harder I will work harder not for applause but for the man I am

Have a lot to be said
Can't say the things that I know
Rumors turn to a bed
I rest in what do they know.
Feelings fill in my head
Like a ship when it floats.
no help at this point
I'm off the grid at this point
I treat the waves like a joint
Inhale the weight if I do
Exhale the pressure if I don't
The sound of fishes in me
Like I got toss to the sea
I rip the bread just to feed off my secrets cause there just to deep

Once upon a time there was a Veteran spoke in paint lost his love threw the traces in his brain, memories of her flows threw the canvas stains as he ponders the weight of holding her my love sits beside me wanting the same flame as both of us go threw the fire it hanging on by a oxygen tank or by a wire we sit here like 2 drawings matched made.

I can't get no rest
i fell asleep with a list
if you need to say something get it for yourself
this Fall will be the reason why i don't text
i can't get no rest
i need time for myself i guess
if you need to say something get it off your chest
seems like if i don't do what you say your ****
sense your in the bathroom i'm tired of your Sh**
Sorry my english and my French
Trip so hard whats next
now i have a smile who's next?
Lost so many i lost count
i lost my mind i lost it
somewhere in the middle of Rainbows and Him.
He who colored the sky I'm greatful for what you make even if i make my bed in hell in this ....

My life Just changed
i changed all arrangements for you
i don't have a dime for 2
but some how i feel rich when i'm not next to you.

when it comes to you
i think i like for you
i think i'd die for you
jealousy cries for you
like  controlla

i do how you say you want it
they don't wanna see me
smiling at ease

like Controlla

Glitter ain't Gold and
Small aint bigger
little belittled
pics of image
Sort of sorcery
Vexed or vision the visionary
Entertain the dictionary
Color the word Missionary
Detox from every touch
Even though you love the inventory
It's just a Selfie at the end of the day.

Liking the attention but my eyes are not attentive drifting to the floor over chorus that sings "is this what I wanted"? Is this what you wanted ? Quest for questions unanswered and swept under well one day they will get it now I get it it's his vision on how he feels about his new relations as I rest on that pivet I dive into I can't wait for him to wake up and see if I get to see him ...prolly not as he says goodnight I love you I said it first maybe that's the reason why he said then again I love the attention even when he prolly don't mean it..my eyes are not even attentive drifting to the floor and back at the minutes we shared I never said I  liked this I'm loving just to see how I come Out of it .

I can't get no rest
I want the Lexus or Benz
Cause when we were young I didn't have ish
I gotta get some rest
Leave my mind that will be best
Told my boyfriend i love him but treat him like **ish
I never tell him I need him
Only when I need something from him
Tell'em I love him when he first says
ish

Sweet talk bitterness
This is bittersweet
If I was honest
I don't know who I am today

Dangle in lust
Your hands are touching my trust
Da'vince and Mona Lisa couldn't trace out or love
It's too big to fit in like a ****** with him.
Nakedly finding out the Coast to your waist
When it  pours then it rain.
I'm soaked in vain
We both switch lanes
I don't know if I'm winning this race
Hate to be away from you but I'm loving this pain.
If you were me would you tell your mom I just had *** with a man who was older then me?

I never felt this power before
Entertaining inner giants that was restricted from my heart
You... The Man I want is caged with his past and it's ripping me apart
Strengthening us seems like there feasting off the secrets
Losing my soul to a blooper
In other words funny how my life is becoming a joke
Rumors consumed him and I'm seeing light threw the dark.
Was I suppose to save you or just love you from a distance?
Looking from the inside out these giants is shadows I guess I was entertaining  myself..

****** don't need to last
And ****** are only 7 seconds
It would  be our Love that keep us together

Circles and stars
We are who we are
Give you space you took me to far
Cause I'm in space with black holes that are dark
Climaxing threw them I just saw God oh my God I'm so ashamed of where this took me take me back to where my Sin took me

I was sleeping in my sister car
Tripping sinking trying to get a new Job
How he Christian while he yelling at God
Ticket after ticket it's a conspiracy
Trapped at night in his thoughts fights with the inner Me
We were friends why acting so enemy
Drifting feeling like I need to get out
Smoked all the fake smiles and woes from a pouch.
Drunk till I poured all my thoughts in your room
Little brother say that you look consumed.
I love him
I love him
I love him
He is the only one that know who I am
For he is the better half of who I am.
Who he is is who I am on another ceiling
My head spinning I got lost in the ceiling fan.

ceiling Fan spins

I got to get out of this car...

It latches itself like venom from the spider man movie is this real?
Or Are you me...cause I've been feeling these habits and I don't know if it's good or bad for me.

Age makes a difference but age don't make the smile who am I becoming someone that's been here for awhile
Lost another that I wish would stay awhile wow why does every poem has to be sad! Cause it's my life if you read it back..

Smile..

Bullets are not the answer
Guns are not harmless we created powers that controls us
Power trips are just governments as the empires fall only the people will feel the need to pick him up.
Democratic atheist speaks about God
When half is buying the "truth"
I'll get shot just for saying "He is lying to us"!
We the people more like a group that's trying to kills us too deep I'm reported speaking threw the nails of this coffin if your reading this I'm just laying here waiting for someone to dig what I'm saying...

Losing every friend he knows
What about them secrets though?
He don't tell nothing cause he's too deep involved
**** it...let it drip cause he got what he wanted from me
Open her legs I'm losing memories
I'm tryna find the way the truth the light you see
But the one who loves to lie is erected for me.
If I told the truth they would be scared of me
So much going on they like when I don't say anything..
Found my train of thought it's been a long time sense I've talked with my old friend integrity..