Water over wine
What do you like ?
When are you gunna get it?
Where is it?
Will you go there
Will you be down for anything?
Will you..

I breath carbon dioxide
I drunk fluoride today
They place lead in the air and called it climate change.
So many applications
So many died today
I got accepted to work for pollution Estate.
My right hand is FEMA
My left hand is Wait
soon they will be in shackles those who try to speak out in legislative.
I'm one of them now
Those people that believe
Good God can you still save my worry heart cause I know you have a better plan for my life today

I don't understand where ever the battle is on both sides here I am.
i was young now I am a man, seeing the fault in my stars and seeing the government play a hand.
All I feel is gravity moving me closer to the end,
Thoughts race to see which one of them can crash out of the corners of my head.
my mind slipping and the gravitational pull of what use to be something to me is fading once again.
I'm finding we are *****
I'm finding we arnt strong
I'm finding out that life isn't that long.

My watch ticks it's my body that tocks.
My mind clicks but my body rocks
I have no tears for the things I have become
Cause if I was truly yours I know you will finish what you begin.

I should of been further then this,
23 with no college 23 with no scholarships
23 with no problems 23 with no honors and little kids.
Little me's just loving it
Little me's just love life...
I gotta dog but not a wife
And Cat but nothing to drive.

I'm ready to live I'm ready to live life,
Make a city or make a basketball courts
Visit a hospital as one of the kids know my name and I see them smilecjustvby I'm there
Head home with a car with two and one kid idk
Or see 2 naked guys waiting for me that leaves in the mornin while I get a DM  from my his friend telling me to come thru and play paintball or something!!
Getting up and having my own pool in the back

Lord Ima be honest I don't know how to do this..

Another Day Another dollar  alittle faith  a lot of power,
I sense the weight I feel your power I speak the truth they call me liar.

Lord im be honest I don't know how to do this

I can still feel the coziness till this day
How you wrap yourself around me was magical
How the way you would lay with me and never ask nothing from me,
When it was Cold outside you never let me cold like that.
Until the day came where I couldn't find you
I can't find you no where!
Where did you go my friend
You will always be missed.

Love, Stephen

P.S. Mom can't find you either I guess I left you at school I'm sorry black Nike sweater."

Are you ready? Are you for the night,
Would you let me? Would let me go there tonight? I know we're strangers.. isn't it strange that we look in each other's eyes.

When they burn down the churches,
stuck the ******* to God.
My clothes smell like smoke
Dame I can feel the tears in the sky!

But THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS!

When I threw the *******
Lord it's breaking my heart
And as I walk down the street I know you're hurting inside.
threw the mall I see sneakers
I see sneakers I can't buy
Oh they make you look like it's your appetite.
Late at night it goes deeper
Had a vision bout a guy
That sold his souls for life.

But THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS.

It's a thorn to the eye to try to sleep at night when you know the after life.
Our society is Satan on Sunday he shows us right but it's him in disguise.
Lord we need you to help us
Lord we need you in our life
I'll be lying if I said We'll be okay threw tonight

I wish this bone wasn't broken,
Bone of my bone I wish upon your stars ..man you have some deep eyes. So deep I fall and I don't think there's no return, that reminds me I gotta return this movie from blockbuster I'll be back..

Listen *****
I hear you *****
Sleeping with another but she got a *****
Sleeping with her Man but he got woman
She like my heart but he loves positions.

Listen *****
I hear you *****
Break down the **** but she pop pills
Break another heart cause he loves the thrill.
what am I to do when I lock eyes ?
What am I to do I saw the devil twice..
You scared *****
Nah *****

Yo you hear me *****
Ya I hear you *****

In town tonight where you going?
Let's not tell them where were going.
You got someone me to Tommy.
It's me and you under the moon light tommy.
Why didn't you stop me when you saw me?
I'd drop everything just to see you smiling
I'd drop who ever hurt you tommy.
Go to her when you're done come find me
No time right now I know I'm trying.
No Time right now I know you're trying.
No lights right now it's okay will eat threw the lighting
I'm going home when you're in the city come find me,
In town tonight where are you tommy?

If you had a question for me what would it be?
If you had my love and you had all my trust would you comfort me?
Well if we stop talking but you really missed me would you contact me?
And if somehow you knew that Someone you knew didn't like me would you leave with me?

If I kissed you just to kiss you would kiss me?

Can we last threw the winter?
My heart is starting to freeze
Will I last threw the winter?
My hands are starting to shake.
I'm hungry for your laughter,
My mind is trying to think
The thoughts of you are rotting
It's so old it stinks.
I crack a smile for assumptions
The years I know there like blinks..
But will we last for the winter?
Are you here to ..thinking of who we use to be?

Can we last threw the winter?

Was it suppose to go this way
Was I suppose to be there when you left me ?
Was I suppose let change change me ?
Different thoughts everyday and yet haven’t seen it
I forgot what I was looking for when I look in your direction.

Pieces of my peace
Into little fractions obliterated into kilograms I’m drowning in a sea of little Me screaming here I am!
You know if I shoot myself do I really die?
If I eat am I really fed?
If I leave it will I leave this planet?
I believe the biggest things to fear is the smallest think about

it’s Voodoo I tell ya it’s the Illuminati it’s supernatural it’s vivid how the way I am Human...
And if I have something diffferent then somebody then I’m demonic  he’s in the matrix.society these days

Turn off the clock turn on the bass
I want my heart cause I never gave it
If it’s in a safe then ain’t saving
The preachers words go with his actions like the ******* that starts to date him
It’s what you do not who you’re playing cords on cords then your tied to something if you’re really free then you seen Satan he come in ways but he’s one person first we give to much power cause the Little’s words can make you great to greatness.

Played it safe until you played yourself,
Keep God out of it so you can save yourself..
How’s that going?
From rags to riches but listen your ears are cut off walk slow cause you know the distance.
Walls are talking cause they hold secrets
Skip the details cause in the mirror do you see me?
Do you see him?
You was on a clean path
But I know how hard it is to be
Bump your head was that because I wasn’t living right?
Smoked that night cause you were tired of being ok when you know you wasn’t so let me ask ..
How’s that going ?

Do you know how it feels to  feel alone,
Are you really ready to love then change your tone..
Spilling feelings that you don’t know
Saying things that you don’t mean sipping to much until your head explodes waking up to text like are you home?
Flip the scrip on your love cause our know you’re wrong..
Tell his mom what all she did wrong
Taking a shower cause your heart froze asking yourself how did I make this so wrong..
Are you ready to be real with yourself that being alone was the best thing that you have ever known

That old familiar fee
ling that old familiar self how old am I gunna get until I’m to old to tell?
Listen to the excuses put my regards on the shelf until it’s tipping over and hit me underneath the belt.

Have you ever had that moment of reflect
Like you’re not where you suppose to be but right now your heart beats the best?
I cheated I lied before I had *** with a complete stranger yes I’m talking about myself come in at night and hold my bed tears fall for not having no one except myself now that I do it’s more convenient to do what I don’t know I’m not  incompetent big words but trust me I’m short like a cake on a plate at least I got my slice and I’m not in that bed will I be happy with myself?

His skin is as sand
And his mind is a ocean the winds of life comes and he’s over flowing with laughter his smile is the only thing that keeps me believing.
But I... am a man with blood on my hands a handsome vampire that waits in the moon light with those light brown eyes gleaming and piercing threw anything that moves what a beautiful sight he is and what a fearful moment to be in the presence of me how does it feel to feel when you can’t even see your self in a mirror..

I need closure I need this
I need that and I need a kiss
Haven’t been home man it feels like I’m tossed like the sea as the foam is so white so is my lips I tell the truth and I’m finding out it’s not enough you. Man this...this this *****

My love what's worse...
Cheating on someone or that person saying they don't love you as a joke?
As you try to picture it he had me strip down with a smile and a note.
Wanting more I texted him the same day no reply though
I guess it's safe to say it was a one day thing???
I don't know.
Still I got some somebody I've been looking waiting on to catch him while he was alone.
Back at home I get treated like he loves me but don't touch me I feel so combed if that make sense I feel so plucked out of my thoughts I don't know .
Reminiscing kissing on his stairway,
So many positions made me remember why I like guys in the first place.
But I'm home and reality starts to sit in the hard way
It's either get dog out by the hot freshman that works with you or take the senior by the broad hallway.
I know I'm not right but who is again if we were looking at this side ways.
Talk bout being torn and rip from to guys that really don't have nothing and I'm chasing them both for a good case.
They both want me and they both tell me I have great taste but one sounds just to use me and the other say "I have you i don't care about *** anyway."
He says *** ain't love and everytime I try to show him to me it goes the same way while the other takes it shuts up and prolly rn don't even care which one today.
Was I wrong
Oh I wish I just had you loving me the way you do And you receive how the way I feel today but you won't so we go half notch because When you want four play I give it when I wanna make love you tell me a story and then try to back it up with *** ain't love or nah not today

i wanna be your lover
I wanna be your mother and your sister to
There ain't no other
That can do the things that I'll do to you.
Didnt wanna pressure you babe
But all I ever wanted to do!
I wanna be your lover.

ivdont deserve him he just little to perfect he just alittle worth it,
That's why he gotta come threw quick quick!
Hit me when you done I'll be your number one shift.
I need some company
I need some company,

I rather lose a lover then a love a Loser,
The lies are like snakes in my head like my name medusa..
I am just a man but they want me super..
Saving life's are harder then think to do huh..
I flirt like in bed with kuma Sutra.
But I rather lose a lover then to love a loser
I think it's just a spell.

It's like ... my tensions are Good
But my hands are ***** and I talk to Dogs that tell me I'm unworthy.
As they bark I chuckle but my hands aren't steady I'm scared to leave this earth without living like what's after?
It's like...I lay with a Rose that's dead and the only thing that makes me smile is the memories we use to have, what's this feeling I'm feeling ..am I safe with the daisy that burn brighter then the Sun or am safer with the pettles of a Rose..?

Winds pressing upon the window seal,
Remind me of my Gravity Mr. Zeal.
Calm rain drops hit my unworthy Lips
Thoughts of drowning tonight never felt so real
It takes me back to the Man of God Noah's ark it was so real
I can see it but I can't feel
It was so still after you past Harvey as we watched you like a big Deal cause it was so real.
Without a dry spot on the ground I sit here thanking and asking God to bear with the Loved ones who lost ones for I know it wasn't your will for any to perish.
But dead couldn't exit a better way for there is no better day to die
Am I ready no I'm not looking for anyone to die today but who can say it won't be us tomorrow or any day ..? Who can know the day ?

This pen this paper
My words my letters
I threw away most
I let go a lot
Still I come to this place where  I am God
No I will never be
No I'm not
In the best thing that ever happen to these words I write
I'm the worst thing that ever happen to my life
Such a energy
Such a mystery
Love is misery
But hate Is dead
My words are walking
My sentences are like lead
6 years in this world I made and I wish kinda wish my words would hold me like you do

We can make a moment forever
I can make a crack rock into a mountain,
Feenin' for forever and ever it will be..

My heart hurts my stomach is filled with liquor my best friend
Who is but who isn't when you was infront of them they would all say they were but run for my money my debt is not paid so I don't know I'm drunk and I love it

**** and ******
Plus and the minus
I got some ******* and *****
DM to snaps which do I call
Pick up bad habits you seeing me fall ,
Notifications you seeing me crawl
Made it a habit they love it so long
They love when I'm wrong don't tell me I'm wrong I sip on this  wrong she smoke on a **** but I'm high when he calls.

In a room with lions and tigers
What I mean is liars and buyers
It's a shame that I do not fight it
Then again I do not know why I riot in my heart gotta sail like a pilot in a ocean that calms me but stays consistent rains down but keep me alive when I'm breathless
It's a shame that I cannot be distant
What I mean that my mom wouldn't listen
Till I found out she's the ocean and...
Uhh never mind I got kicked out again ! For no reason

In and out I mean down and up see the smile of you and i found my trust I mean found my love..see it goes hand in hand like marriage or one that's never satisfied with bucks.
Try becoming my mind and I'll blow yours was that a *** reference or something that you were reading for?
I don't read I listen to hearts speak when I think of read-ors

what it takes to swallow your pride
In reality your getting played like Hard drive oh and inside...
Your killing yourself to create fake world something living lies.

You know I'm a freak right
It looks like things don't go right
Did you see I didn't want this right
It's like
You know what makes him fight
It's like
You have a hold on him and your grip so tight
Killing the breath until he says stop.
And because I said stop
I get hit with "I WANT YOU OUT TONIGHT"

And now we're here sleeping on the floor of another tonight
My heart is wounded and I really didn't even have no pride
You have everybody mislead and claim you're here for help but like a dog in a cage or a guy with a .45
There's No life.

I tried to hold the light Deep within the chambers of my Spirit
I have tasted the joy of a Dear Savior
His blood on my hands were wiped by his grace  
His tears were on my shoulder
And his friendship was royalty.
I asked him why do you come down to see me there's many in this world and he will always told me i" am"
he had a peaceful  pause ..
As my fate was sealed
And my name was dirt
My hands shook
And my mouth open with hyme
And said :

Don't you see what I'm doing ! Do you see what there doing ? We are ***** my friend oh so ***** I'm nasty oh so nasty!

I'm breaking and I'm not lonely
I took your son and made him my something
We do things that are nothing
Temporary nothings all around me
Signs of the times
I say all the time taking my time gets harder sometimes.

I gotta catch myself
I'm falling right threw hands
Is there a way to come back and will even have the strength as I start backing up his eyes oh his eyes felt they were whispering things to me.
Will you be waiting..

Drowning in debt it wouldn't hurt to sip slowly
Chase Me I found myself In the morning
My pain is mix with wine and codiene.
My eyes are low I can't see nothing,
I smile for nothing.

Seven hundred waisted on my nothing's
I need to take it
Easy, Easy Easy Easy
Oh this ain't Easy

I re-up
You woke up
This ain't enough
I love the feeling where I can't feel my feeling.

And my car is gone
And my card is decline
And my drink is sweet
Cause I don't have to worry

I place my tongue as medicine and my jaws as the truth but you feel as if it's wrong to ponder or say what's on your mind but threw time I see that you watch but you don't like you see but you can't even tell me the truth of what you feel threw the nastiness of Me with that said I know you're not gunna tell me what you feel about others or others telling what they feel about you and that scares me cause feeling that I've seen what you won't even tell me that's why I present my body and thoughts as my responsibility but I don't think it's working cause you still get mad at how you think I like then "why are you tell me?" If you ask me that question I would of told you what I'm writing 5 inches away from you but you don't care and that terrifies me

The summer breeze rest on my shoulders as I lavish my feet in the Green grass beneath me I start to wonder why second guess I should of stayed laying by your warmth like fever..
coughing out "I love you " watching your body move threw the sheets like a Man made teaser..
Im love sick I think ...I think I need a doctor.
Dr.

Loosin ohh loosin these locks from my heart,
Lose me I lose you you lost your son heart cause he don't even know where you are yeah..
Is there something that I've done?
Is there somebody that I won?
Loosin ...
Oh
Listen!
Why you lost me cause I can't even find my heart for you cause you won't loosin..ohh loosin these locks from my heart.
Sorry to say I'm not sorry for what I've become
Forgive me but I found unforgiveness on your love.
Finally found something about your heart but I can't find my heart for me.

You know how froze that is!
Look at my neck oh dame
You know how froze that  is!
look at my wrist oh man
You know how froze that is !

Cold as Alaska My heart become a state full of diamonds as I dig up the dirt I find my heart beating with greed... I need it ! I want it !
You know how froze that is! I can't breath with out making a snow storm

she  gotta taste
for  praada,
(you look so good in everythaaanng..)

out her way
she a model
(all she wants is diamonds raaaang)

baby you the bomb like a hand grenade,
( i just wanna taste)

i can give really give u what u wanna say
(say my name)

Say My name, Say My Name!

she  gotta taste
for  praada,
(you look so good in everythaaanng..)

out her way
she a model
(all she wants is diamonds raaaang)

baby you the bomb like a hand grenade,
( i just wanna taste)

i can give really give u what u wanna say
(say my name)

Say My name, Say My Name!

Do like this
do like that
running like i'm usain bolt
no bring that back
somebody gotta...

take me home
i drunk all night
**** your wife
im kidding but my loves not right
i feel it...

cold and mold
these ****** wanna take my soul
the ones that get it they really wanna let you know
hoes are hoes there blinded third eye closed
angels diss dont switch cause you never know...

forgive and get
repent and sip
i sink the ship
and kiss the man
they wonder why i'm missing dame
cause his blood all over the street
they don't know its me
they don't know hes a king
and god don't talk but the devil does
which i never did wish he never was

play in sky

Man things been changing like the seasons, one minute I'm watching to see next minute I'm stuck thinking who do you want me to be. Like blood the window is covered with red sheets up at night the light escapes the sides of this mysterious beast the window shows me a lot my eyes are glued like my feet sweeping all the thoughts on the floor so I have room for my dreams to one day escape where I am or maybe leave who I am...minutes go by and I'm watchful of the day where I can stand out of my pride.

They say you depart in 7 ways
Crucifying your rights
And regenerating every thing God says "don't practice"... for I believe you take many shapes still can't fit in his will like a bad tire with the right tools and I'm sitting here thinking like
I'm born in a danger state ...state of mind where I'm so far from the place that I sit across from earth like a dog on his chain watching the cars pass and chew my bone whichever is my understate.

You wear your feelings so Good on your shoulders there's no room for your heart but apart from the walk of your life you don't know where you going without him tonight known to be a wonderous soul you sit by me for the answers tonight just tell me your more then what you want to be like ease my greed and I'll show you where it's not enough room So I'll show u my heart tonight

Digging myself out the holes in my head cause I keep tripping on myself like "this sh** is deep". How can I keep this going if I'm already gone and fallen into pieces of me?