2 months in this place I call room,
Thinking thoughts of Glory and what have I done.
Is it wrong for me to think why didn't they just say my name?
Thought we were friends but in the end they didn't even recognize my face.
I'm not the type to leave that bitter cause if I were you I would of done the same, but if it was me and you lost your mind I would been on the ambulance and stare right in your face.
It's my fault oh it's my fault for smoking and wanting to be my own stain.
But my heart is broke cause I wonder if I didn't call would you still think of my face.
Like my last cup of tea I'm on my last cup of "this is my friend my brother my mate"...
Ryan if you leave I tell you this heart will be a empty wasted vacant space.
To tell the truth I'm laying here and I think life is great.
Glory to God hope he remembers me when he come back if this is the end of days.

Feels like I'm shadow boxing and I haven't got in the ring, I'm kinda hesitant to anyone now who say I miss you and let's be friends or smoke this with me today.
Stained with glory, rock bottom I'm climbing out the lost place

Blood on my Hands
blood on my wrist
blood on my pants
Oh i no i didn't
oh yes i did...

I lost my Mind
I lost my Friend
I gained a Win
when I woke up again.

If Man Came from heaven and heaven that means Heaven will  embrace Himself..
then women really did come from man wouldn't it make  it reasonable and accepted that Man will be conceived by woman?
Breath it self is Living in words in a body the functions it needs living because it keeps redifying itself.
Atheist and christians are identical when they say the are not the same  faith of wealth but there existence is a intellegent quest.
Why would you make a Human that Don't believe In any remark of Humanity acceptance? And the atheist a genelogy worth of cells perfecting it self? Both have a blood issue and there genes know full well that there is something that Keeps wondering Into there Cells.

The Identical is Formed The  Difference creates itself but tell me what is so different between the Rocks and the Shells your Heart and My health? The approval Of men in other words Fame it self...
what Is identical i believe is the samething that will tell us about ourself cells.

artistic hands will paint the pictures
you are a paint brush and the world is a enter "ception"
you can't stay but you can't leave
you can't leave me cause i never stayed in the first place.
do you see what I draw?
if not then you won't belive
and the shocking thing about it is...Something is saving me from..
Me

So much
So much it takes to be with you.
So much
so much it takes to let you in.
so much
so much Love that comes from you.
so much
so much things that I have let in.
the skies is the..
the sky ain't my limit
I have left earth
and found heaven as a destination.

My soul is flying home
and my spirit won't let me stay.
No I don't fly or Levitate I'm a skyscrapper for the end of my days

Febuary 1, 2015

I wanted to end it all cause i couldn't Rest in Peace.
I wasn't doing anything right i suppose or ...I believed.
My Best Friend was to far my Mom well..time showed me a Holy viper with the worst sting if you ever gave it information i mean..
My Dad Yells At things That I can't see though He Saw That I was There and I did everything That he told me and yet 2 Days ago he Screams at me like I'm Nothing like i didnt do anything, Do I do anything right in his eyes ? It's not His heart but His eyes i don't belive.
Maybe it is me and I just can't figure out Why ...We Hurt each other but love at the same time.

10:00 p.m. I leave like I have Something to do.
Caught up with a broken Man being beaten by questions to.
The Christian In me is Named but the Love the drives helps me to pick him as i slowly taste the Mascato's rain.
We go back and forth about Running in Place, though a hug is all i really want, maybe if I Hold him this numbness will go away.

12:00 a.m. Second Doubt of How i would escape.
It's a scary road when you know Demons are sitting with you but they can't see a thing.
Were laying in his bed as I drop the **** on the Floor so i picked my Gun up and started to walking out the Door.
The handle was moving it told me to Go, woke up aDragon and the other the one my mom kicked out the one that almost ready to go, Leave from his road...wished i never would of told her about you Forgive me and your Dragons Fire isn't Hot as Mine So i know that hurt when she drove you out just to get by.
Yet Here I am in a pool of smoke telling it to rise and Help me Rip out my throat.
You don't run to Demons when you want something to Heal you Do you?
Okay so....

2:01 a.m. Left my gun but the Dragons caught up with me, this road was so Sudden.
Being around with the angels and God you start to know "I'm the Brightest One"..
Lucifer will tell you but Satan won't. "Pride Comes before a fall".
You heard from the Zeal second and the Greatest Host First.

2:36 a.m I can't breath and hell Is Closed?
Dragons turn to men and Police turns Into Cyclops,
My Breath is there and My Mind was..I don't Know
Some Say He's Lost it and He's  hallucinating.

3:00 A.M. I'M DYING!!
My breath is Leaving me
If i stopped Yelling it would of Flew by me!
Here Lies Stephen Branch, Mr.Zeal Has Left..

5:20-ish and i woke in a Hospital
I can't...I don't..wait I can't remember anything.
The Viper is crying The River is in the camp, The "Yeller" is holding my hand but This is My family soo..Yeah.

I'm up
I can breath
Gift of a ticket and some bruises that are stuck on me.
A **** in my head that will be there for weeks,
as I Say "I Lost it and Now I have Found my Mind today".

I never said this like i did but I truly thank God today,
Worst LSD Day..
the Day I lost Everything
Don't know what i smoke
but i lost Mr. Zeal My Friend My companion the one that loves me and helps everyday.

"I TAKE MY THRONE BACK AND GLORY TO GOD HE IS REAL TODAY."

Laying here trying to rewrite my wrongs..
A ticket from the police no job and no schooling at all.
Life happens when you try to reach your goal.
I'm broken and I've fallen my Love.
Yet I find the strength to come and weep by your words of God.
Don't know how I supose to pay something that I don't even have a job yet though..
**** pics still come and I close them cause I want something better though..
Resurrection is my favorite song,
Who would of known it would be the outcome of every part of my unworthy life to.
I don't know how and I don't know when but I sense the strength to get up and take there cruel words there beatings just love The Most.

Forgive me for wondering so far and falling so close, all of my getting I'm getting a understanding that you can be a better person today for tomorrow.

I miss you..alot
And the worst feeling is your just literally around the corner not even a Block.

***** to know your best friend know where you live and inches from you but never... Oh Nevermind.

I miss you..alot

-sigh-

Ima break down in the worst way and I know it.

"My thoughts are so loud in private,
But whispers in public.

Drips of Gold
ANTIDOPE
Love is Close
Let's pillow talk.

You think to much
I don't think enough
Your hands are soft
My  Love is tough.

You keep me captured
But your hands are free
And when you fell asleep
I fell so deep.

I stroked your hair,
It's my disease
My tears to a walk
On this pillow talk.

In a maze cause I was amazed
That you didn't move and yet
My butterflies flying my heart always racing..
No need for words I hope my actions always say it

"I will never leave you I'll rest in that..."

They don't deserve it
Why should you do it.

Put your ear phones in , keep listening to your music.

Cause everytime they come uhh I hate it.

Whatever!
Whatever they say is nonsense.

But there innocent, whatever they done in your life was wrong and embarrassment.

Was he a friend to touch me like this?
My mother just don't understand..
Dad is.. Oh Nevermind
Mr. Zeal I want to but it hurts to let them all in.

My friend this world will hurt you and it's always the closes but in all you do when they do even though it's hard it will heal you of all this.

Forgive them...
Forgive me..
Will you hold me forever?
I need to be forgiven cause I need know forgiveness...

Miss the way you lie.
Miss the way you kiss me
Miss the way you miss the way you miss the way taunt me
Miss the way you cryed
Miss the way you knew me
Miss the way you miss the way you miss the way you showed me.
Wait!
Thought you knew me?
Wait!
You say you owned me?
Woah!
You didn't show me...
Woah!!
Don't yell at me!
When you sayed "I needed you and you can't get over me!"
You missed me..
I was gone before you said anything.

In the end we all die
And you tell me live it up but I was born to fly.
No metaphors no wings you were my smile and I was your dreams.
God placed people here.
you and me to make Us..together with different genes.
So when I point at you and say i want you to be with me.
That means what it means I'm no guarenteed, but your perfect to me still I run for the high calling.
maybe not that fast but I say this my Love I'm picking up speed !!
At the end I will be with you and you me.

Are you still there?
I stare but I can't hear
Further then what I know
Yet I don't where..
Where I am at this point
Point me to you and raise your head
I'm coming home
Are you still there?

They say God is on his way
Oh the big theory that's in the sky?

Who cares though but who's Adonai?
Still I get a check that I'm not doing fine..
If your really then show me now.
You know my pills are not working now.
I smoked 4 times and I liked the high
But I don't like to Hide ima blatant guy they can see that I'm all my writes.

But what right do I have to come and see you Christ?

I know Shivia and other Types
Greek Gods and Zeus wife
But why do this one stick to me?
Maybe cause all of them are blatant
And you don't Hide but there's radiant
And when you save a Man you died for him..
What other God that I know that did?
I needed that
When you come come I'll be waiting

I robbed before I did
I lied before I did
I kissed her once I kissed her friend I kissed him to I've loved a man.
I'm sick!
Never killed a person but I hated
Suicide thoughts always **** him
He was ten years old ima ******
There's blood on my hands yes I did it.
I seen stuff that I should of told
I heard stuff that they never known
I ate stuff that hurts my soul
I gave stuff that I know was wrong!!

Do I believe in demons
Yes
They talk to me they say "look at this mess!"
Do I believe in angels
Yes
They walk with me until Glory come shine on us.

I need a God cause you can judge me but I judge myself every breath.

Fictional people want to be equaled
Practice there happiness but I know what I'm in need of.
Do I gain the world and lose my soul?
Do I let let them in on a heaven note?
Angels sing and horns they blow
I'm to far out God bring me close!!
I'm fear God like wouldn't know still I have days where it dosent look like though..
All my silver and platnuim and Gold my idols my thoughts my actions I throw down if I can step back in to reality.
Step back in where you need me to be
I'm so alone when it comes to me.

He say he want to be my fictional boyfriend,
The other makes me feel like I'm poison
No joke but I'm steadily Joking
I tried I tried to tell him
I lied I lied and said it
This is soon to ended I should just walk away and forget it forget it there i go again!

Fiction words to get a pic
Real words I think your dead ...
I like your smile now ******* kiss
I don't think I'll be here again..
Cause miss love not happiness
When you get mad then don't talk to him I think it's for the best.
But I won't leave without you been giving a chance to come to reality..

I just wanna run to a place where I'm back where reality sets in.

Cheap cappacino

Talks with above

Losing myself with what I thought I want.

Angels can see and God would he speak?

From the actions I made in the moment ..I didn't blink.

Does this make me a freak?

Rich coding of peanut butter and a splash of jelly.

Tonight we will drink from the whitest of milks and with cookies that's crispy.

I wonder if they can tell that I'm hungry..

Ashes dripping from heaven

Hands shattered from something

I don't remember why though.

I can't control it

Trollin...

I can't control it

Scrolling..

Hells burning my minutes

Anti  I'm anti depressing when I sit I'm counting my blessing when I ride this time I'm walking stop thinking been tripping and sinking feeling like I've been living backwards..

Tryed to break my fall maybe that's why I don't hug myself my arms and hands are shattered.

As I sit smelling coals all the time I burned threw just to be another clueless snooze.

I'm awake
I'm Awake

Ashes dripping from heaven.

You make me feel like it's magic
Caught in the tricks oh the tricks of you.
You make me feel like this is tragic
The wounds on my body my body cause of you.

Tell me when I'm trying, I'm trying to get over to you.

I just don't get it don't get why I'm up all on you.

Texting and calling
Oovoo and skyping
Well friend I'm trying to I'm trying to get threw...

***** to know you look at me snapchating,
But there is nobody nobody and you..

Look over me and think I'm not gunna be wound..

You only text me just to be tragic
You only Skype me when you wanna be magic
**** pics and body shots that keeps thinking you don't..
Love me like I think
Like I think you do.

Well I'm escaping escaping what you do why you do that you know.

Watch how I don't reply to bodies and bodies of **** Gold...

When I say you I mean me and when I say I , I mean I'm escaping your Body Control.

No matter how much I tell them no matter how much I do, most will be numb to the fact that  we live after we die.

But that's not why I come to live this life to tell the world about truth and hope that's coming for his very own life.

Jesus is the answer to all dead questions
If religion is your question it will be unanswered..
No matter how much you tell me no matter how much you do.
This world is full of evil just look at the money beside you, giving you clues on how to die for a dead man is unsearchable but to die for the living...who?
Well it's supernatural  and the worst thing about this is he is right in front of you.
breath that's his way of loving you. Have u felt like there's more to life ? Then I'm talking to you.

But no matter how much I say no matter how much I do.. There u are thinking this is another poem.

Point out mistakes
But never celebrate your achievements is a mistake.
Miss things we use to do when it was tapes and innocence.
Running in the ditch though it was filthy it was fun and great.
Still I couldn't shake what I made to be unshakable.
7 years old ******* **** but I didn't know!
I swear I didn't know what I was doing my nieghbor was just to old..
Now I'm too old..
Thinking bout things that's to old.
But I wonder what I can do new to get this conscience removed.
Jesus Christ was the only thing that was identical.
But I read now
God I always pray now
Even though my adversary likes to stay down,
But he is way down
Sorry bobby this is why hated when I stayed now
Dame why did I stay now..
Knew that this would haunt me.
I ghost now hoping for my soul and there counting on me to fail wow.
Still wake up every morning just to bow my head and thank him for this life and these days cause life is a achievement and  I will celebrate what God has for me
Rather then mistakes I made.
In both I'll give him praise.

Messing with a saint
So I'm flying with no wings.
The other likes my gun
So I shoot him with a pic and I blow his brains.
Literally seriously clearly your pilling me like a orange.
I can't take it cause u come just to squeeze me and you know it.

I'm feeling used
I'm feeling new
How do I ***** something without even touching you ?

Why do they talk when they want to
I trust in God never trust in the issues cause I'm walking issue don't trust me I got  issues...

Lately
I've been eating lies
Can you help me.

Fighting all my rights
I don't know why run from the light
I can't! I can't! I can't!
Watching all of this darkness got me hiding my lamp.
So I ran and I ran
But there just gunna **** me so what am I afraid of.

Lately
I've been holding tight
To the right things
Before he touch the sky
I'll get it
We will get it right

See I'm caught up in trance
Escaping is so thin.

The world will let you in,
But don't mean you fit in
Just fill in what I'm missin
Then we can just be friends..

What's friends if we're friends when we're caught in this love trance well I guess it fits...

Tired of listening to silence when I does this thing to accomplish what I been with!

Feelings is feelings I filled you with a couple of feelings to care about me.

It don't work I work just to see me not co-opporating.

I heard the world was ending, so I went to go make my bed.

I heard the world was ending, so I went to go get dressed.

I heard the world was ending, so I brushed my teeth and head.

I heard the world was ending, so I started to lift my head.

A knock on the door came so I said " I heard the world was ending" to my friend.

He said "No I've Just begin, my kingdom is at hand".

Hard to speak when your my speech to speak to them in love.
Who can I run to even mirror talking you can't do this alone.

Tonight maybe the right night to bow knees or Go.
Tonight will be the right night when I now my knees to you.

I don't really mean what I mean is giving up.
They hate when I leave and even when I come so why would I give up?

Tonight maybe the Good fight I fight to leave with you.
Tonight will be my last if it is Lord take me with you.

Fantasy and all the things that I have made up.
Are keeping the smoke and coals and foolish things from taking me to your heart.

Tonight maybe the last night to wash it all for you.
Tonight will be the last night you see the smoke from my room.

Tonight maybe..
Tonight will be the day I choose to stay with you!

They hate, don't leave  don't go from what you believe I believe in you.

I know that they talk well there running in place
Throw there rocks well I'm glad that you came.
Binge eating my sorrow been licking some shame.

The world is so cold when it comes to your pain,
Kick me now before I get up again
Kick again
I'm up again!

Genuine the crafty but his faith for real
Square to society a dog with a tail
Running from life means I'm killing myself.
Suicide thoughts come to think of my health.
Darkness decade the slightest of hell will give a good atheist a kiss that God is real,
more of moscato makes my feelings come out
Pour me some more I'll be spilling myself.
Laughing at nothing the walls are to chill
He's looking like honey his brother is milk
Might wanna taste or I'll just take sip
See this is what happens if I took a pill
Can I be honest ?
I wrestle *****
my mind when it's sober wonders but push
Drunk the wonders are pulling me in

That's why I stay with a belt
I can smell blood then I go for the ****
Something takes over then it's over for them
You wonder why I don't like to comeover.
You know full well.

I'm genuine here's the details

When you chase Love your whole Life.
You will find in forever it will be chasing you.

Good grace even though you smoke
Good grace even though your wrong
Good grace will hold you close
Closer then your skin do.

Mercy faces the bad to
Mercy gives us broken thoughts
Little tears that makes us choke
A Good thing  when you don't know what's up..

But you what's up without the luck
Good and Bad is in cup
Cause weren't you just choking ..?
Yep..

Thank you for something to drink
When you get a chance let's gulp together.

I'll remind you of my deeds
You will guide threw your favors
I'll help you again to dream
You will make me changed my weather.
So simple but even better
Let's chase love no measures

No measures
No measure

I tripped so much I can't even stand straight.

I fall hard I think I fractured my brain

Cause it flips to the images of a kingdom and when I was in the womb being made..
Then it goes to my first oral in but I can tell the difference cause Love is love and that was just semin.

I tasted the sea and I tasted the meek
I tasted the sweet and I tasted the please.
Most of this is me and I can't redo what I've done in me ...I'm sorry me can you ever forgive me.

I can't lie
I was fine
But I'm a mine
Ready to explode in minds
I hate to be a lie
But I lie to a guy I can't lie to my wife but where is she?!
Till then I like what I like and okay I lied I'm not fine...

The sun is coming up I can see the breaking of the light.
My dreams speak more then what my mind invites..
My hands slowly raise to the sky
My head drips in my pillow
As I thank God for another bite at life.

Mind under mines that bomb if I step to the right.
I was wrong by leading you on tonight
I'm under attack by the demons that hate when Im right.
But ima fight with the faithfulness of the light
Rain drops is all I hear tonight
But threw the storm i ask that you will help me hold me mold me threw tonight.

Is that how you feel?
Is that what you mean?
Say I got you do you got me?
clingy but zealous though,
Is that what you hate?
Let's be foreal..
changing  my ways because These days you need to be deep.
Listen for giving never for keeps.
Time is borrowed
this is  not cheap.
Ask How I know though
Look at tree!
Look at nails!
Why would you think..?
Why would you speak..?
Dead men are dead
Alive is the meek..

Off of the topic come back to point,
Is that how you feel?
Is that why you speak?
Is that why you're zealous?
Is that why your clingy?
Is that why you love cause you know time is cheap?

Yes

It's funny how the world just disappear,
When we don't talk  and your not here..
The stars shine brighter but fall like spears.
The days go on but slowly I'm drifting near,
The places where I use to hide is finally drinking tears.
The joy I know is crumbs & weird my hands don't text cause your words are in my ears.

I won't cling so much so I can hear your heart and watch as I step back and watch this all just ....

I think I'm tripping on something,
Maybe it's just nothing.
Use to be so close but now we fall apart,
Tell me what I don't wanna hear
Push me until I need a breath of fresh air,
There's a million reasons why I should just leave you in tears.
But my heart won't let you fall-a-a-a-all.

I'll love you threw it all-a--a-all

Sr_gino I want you my Bezellé,
Lips like morphine I'm high off your speech to.

They tell me I like you no I'm just like  you
Busy all the time and my girlfriend left me...now I reach for any drink cause they understand me ya know..

I fall so hard for your accent
I try to play it grown but all I want you to do is listen.
Can't feel I'm here your there not erected..

We all have our obsessions
Sometimes..sometimes.

You drink to let go
I'm here oh I know..
Give me time again

We all have our obsessions
Sometimes...sometimes..

...sometimes I wait to see if your gunna text good morning like the olds days...
Looking at my phone like one day he gone text me.

We all have our  obsessions...
Sometimes...sometime.

Use to write a song but now the beat just plays me.

Flirting with the mic I can see it wanna kiss me.

It's getting kinda intimate how my poems hold me

Leaving my brain on a page that's oral you see...

******* gave me keys to city,
Drinking all my words the pencil told me to "marry me"...

Cause when I'm freaking down I be down the road.
But when I say I'm done Do  I really go?
I don't really have a friend I can depend on..
Cause when I say come do you even come?

Sticks in the fire I don't think you understand me,
See I've been burned so tell me something new or why I shouldn't feel this way?

Cause when they wasn't down I was by your home.
But when I don't speak you should be Affraid.
It's not because I'm mad it's because when I'm on the road I be down the road!
"Do you wanna chill"? Oh my bad I got church though...
Hate to see forget me but it hurts to go all that way to hear the lie though.

You don't understand? Your gunna fall when the one you was climbing is not even supporting you.

Forgive me for hurting the one that was supporting me.

You lose what you try to gain,
You gain what is nothing
When you find what is meaningful.
You take it and brainwashing your self into thinking it's in your membrane.
But who you are and what you made can never be together, unless your a God and there you go again claiming what you can't be.

..wretched! Filthy! Men who decieves will be DECIEVED.

You can tell them I said it!
You poor and wretched man until you see you need him more then you want to be God, YOU CANNOT EVER BECOME REAL TO ME ...

Will they hear were they here?

There  symbolism are taking us no where...

There peace signs ✌️ are nothing but a sacrifice and mocking the only that can save us out of here!

Will they hear where is your ear

I placed my focus on the ground,
My smile is just something that been burning on.

Cause joy don't come from the proud
And pleasure don't give you security.

Well I'm just saying don't let it them down, just because someone talk about what they don't know...
Bound people meant to be set free,
The broken was meant to be engrafted and redeemed
Come you got this don't give up now!
I believe you when you believe in me..

"Well I don't just wanna always keep putting you down and going back to things I use to think".
-Me
But still right now I call you down
I still believe in you even if you don't believe in me.

Do you believe?
-God

Most oft friends don't know I've been around,
Still they unfollow cause they think I'm just loud.
"Please turn your life down"
"Live life and let your life flow"
But if I do that I'll miss out on what life made me to be.

It's hard to lie when you have the proof,
To tell the truth I've been living life like a fool.

Level of conviction
My voice is so silent
My mind is yielding
My heart becoming radiant.

And so the pattern of this world is hating him.
Hating me without cause
My friends there to dark now
My room has lifted without even touching a cloud.
Heavenly host just walks right in then go out.
While demons skirm just to be let down.
Zeal is here trying to endure this night with no "burst" out.

So he rights a verse couple of songs and poems then he lays down.

I don't hear nothing except being loving before they take him out.

I see my thoughts like the sea
I hear my heart is like the sky
Little waves sometimes come and it reflects off the sun how bright.

The clouds just rain because my mouth needs to cry.
It gets cold because the climate changes from what's wrong and what's right.
If the universe was in me..
Tell me why would I wanna stay on earth tonight?

Try to hold time
Try to hold love
Try to take Joy
Try to open mud and fuze the water molecules with atoms so it won't float up.
Try to create you even the bad parts
When your mom died, or your sister cried or your Dad leaving the family cause he had somewhere else to go.
Try to ..
Try to prepare the heart.
Try to make the sky before the  stars
Try to keep smiling
Try to keep still
Try to be a son when you was in a womb
Try to be a water
Try to create a fog

Oooh I wanna see this
Try to be God.

Rumor has my name
Left me broken for days
For years I came
For months I go
Still the lips of others burns my bones
Until I saw that one day
They will be burned to
Not by the words they spoke
But by the heart that they couldn't stop
Burning out.

"gossip betrays a confidence you know.."