I just want you to know,
I'm trapped in a amazement.

When great takes control,
Your locked in amazing.

I tried to become what they always wanted,
They don't get me when I say "I'm a prisoner of needing it".

If your listening I know you don't get me cause I don't get it.

Why love loves us? That's the only thing I keep asking

And therefore I'm trapped in Amazement.

Blood on my hands
The 3 nails from your son
I did it!
I killed him!
I killed the only one who can save me from this man I become!

It's me you should ****!
It's me you should beat!
It's me that they should of took the 3 nails and pierced them into me!

Freedom from my self would be the sweetest rest I ever known.

Painting words can you see what I'm drawn to?

My eyes are lifting and gravity is saying "farwell".

I don't kno wat to talk about I don't know how to feel.
I'm covered in I wanna talk and I wanna chill

I can't keep living like this
My soul is wanting but my spirit is hurting when I stumble and trip.

Here I am on the floor again
Watching my life argue with sin
So I get up and start the fight again.

I'm ready to go home I'm ready to let go of this world that's literally deceiving men ..

You can keep heaven if your not there
I wanna be with the one that saved me from him, them, acceptance,****,ME!, SIN...

The world hates me and I can see that,
If this is my last day with y'all...


...Jesus.

Tomorrow's not promised
And I promised you I wouldn't do it again.
I'm dying to live but when I look back all I see is a dead man waiting for his last breath.
Wow the chances you give I take it and run off until I trip and  I break what's not mine.
Could a God find common ground with men?
Could a savior save me from the person that I've been.
Could a friend come down and erase my sin?
Should I ....would I....no could you show me and guide me to live a life worth living in love.

Use to love sleeping right be side you but i think you know what I know and now I feel like I should of never told my life.

Dark night I did find a *** of Gold and that was bitter in the starry night, so why do I get offended when you say let my baby brother  sleep with me tonight?

Man the things you do at night...you can be a lover  in someone's eyes then they get close to you and find there's a villian living inside... Don't you kno they have a hero that don't try to love it just comes naturally...right?

It's time..this time my stomach hurts cause I know what I did and I try and try to tell you but the secrets I know in my life are keeping you from seeing the hero that's trying to come and save the day tonight.
I went from by your side to the end of the line, and it's all my fault ...self piety right?

Do I sweep it under the rug or tell you yes I ........well....Nevermind.

If I can just rest
Rest in your presence
Behold the beauty of your face.

If I can just rest
Rest in your presence
And never leave this place again.

If I can just rest
Rest in your presence
And leave all my cares behind me.

I will be whole
I still believe
I would just lay
Lay at your feet.

Sometimes I don't know
Why do I leave.
Even my friends
My friends all has left me.

For I will behold
I still believe
I'm gunna just... gunna break
Break in your arms cause I know I need to be free.

You call me your own
So Lord I give you me.
You call me to come
I come broken but it's me.

Vod:
No longer alive inside something missing, i dont know why..

Mr.zeal:
I'm no longer in fear of the beautiful scandalous night.

Vod:
I find a bright light that gives me new insight and winds me, im away from the evil that blinds me.

I let my mind play.
My brains full
I feel numb before I fall .
I check my heart rate..
It's getting cold..
Lord knows
Hurry my love.
Show me something so I can stay,
And not go.
Okay it's been three days,
Sense we talked.
Where has mouth run to !
But it's okay I walk slow
For you to catch up and stop me or let me.

All my life it's been a struggle,
Just to give up things that lead to destruction.

Been working on my brain,
Cause that night when I touched you
My lips became a flame but over the years i found the water.

I search by any means that means my life's corrupted not talking bout the fall I'm talking bout the Moutain...I walk when I can't speak I run when I can't hear I slow down for week just to feel my heart thumpin.
Sorry if I breath just making sure if I'm still alive.

I hate to put myself up in a light where men can see.
Because I know I fell God each in everyday.
I try to get it right with every breath I take.
Still I lay down with another imperfect thought that I try to break.
I hate this....

In this life you see shadows and demons and darkness.
Angels come by speaking the word the light the glorious treatment.

But most friends leave you and your family sometimes treat you like Garbage.
Until they realize there's a light reflecting from your room at night.

You prayers that you don't even fathom like....
Speaking in different tones and crying threw the night just to wake up with a angel by your side.
Looking and you wonder are still tired or just literally walking another realm in this life.
I've notice that my situation comes but it's only here for me to prepare what's to come in this fight.
I see demons and angels everyday all night, use to be scared now I speak and the angels surround me to fight.
This is the Glorious side.

I've taking off what I belive,
Now I'm just naked like Adam and Eve.
Media talking she want What I bring.
6 inches swinging the smell of prestige.
***** is longer but  let it all breath.
Surviving the conscience the world on it's knees.
******* up children...abortion to me.
Now that I'm payed I'm payed with there greed.
All that had is now on the link scroll to the left and you see what I mean.
Norp is so backwards if u know what I mean....

Oh my bad I just can't help it.

Loving you is a bad habit.

I want you literally by my side when lay down in my bed.
Forget the lust forget the ***.
Have you ever just wanted to lay down and rest?
Wake up with a individual saying "hey are you up"?
As you turn over you see they made you breakfast.
You smile and say joking word like man I hate your runny eggs..
Minute you smile and then they laugh and what happens next.
Is greater then the rest that you had.

They reach to get the plate but you pull there hand instead..
As y'all sit there smiling and you say man I'm glad your my friend.
As both of y'all are startled cause the plate rolled off the bed.
Then they say " I'm glad that you can clean up cause I'm going to bed"....


Wow did my imagination go there?

Oh please
say this to me,
Someone's out there will hold my hand.
Don't think
I go to sleep and never dream of being your man..

I wanna hold your hand
I wanna hold your hand

My friends are closer to me then leaves that's on the branch.

So think
When me and you speak I feel like we are like atoms and wind.

I wanna hold your hand.
I wanna hold your hand.

...suddenly! I arose with a strength that was greater then me,
Seeing my body there I didn't question I had a thirst of defeating my enemies.
My sword was my mouth the clouds were *******...
More then conquerers fought right beside me!!
Amen the shouted as my lips embraced "thank you for Saving me"
A scroll walked carefully wanting me to read and see

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Here in the dark I see the brightest of light,
As I look closely it looks like lightbulb with sword bigger then mine?!
The locust feed on me by the wounds where the strike.
Fighting lust will give you some bruise but I ...look toward this marvelous light as it comes defeating and crushing witches and sorcerers behind me.
And then it happened.....

I can hardly breath the face of horsemen,
The fear grips me his arrows have touched me.
I lay as the vampires bite me the demons they taunt the nephelims kick me.
As all of my enemies have blood on there hands from the wound when death struck me.
I look to this light as he looks towards me...
I can feel my heart stop
My eyes are rolling
He runs HE RUNS TO ME...
I can sense the fear fading the demons stop talking the nephelims run the vampire are burning I'm dead but where is his sting? As he tells me get up our hands reach I tell him save me!
He pulls out of his mouth words that says "BELIEVE IN ME".

....

I love to drink a glass of soil.
The clouds will sing which makes them royal.
They rain on imperfect man the trust less bodies the souls that are loyal.

I sit to watch the perfect storm,
The moon is red the wind is horrible.
I see a horse that haven't ate,
The one that rides without face.
Behind him hell and all it's  gates,
I stand to watch them crumble this place.
My helmets on I strap my breast plate,
I behold the sun as it shines bright on my cape.
My sword is firm my boots are tight..
I look at my loved ones one more time
I feed my cat one more time
I felt the wind one last time
I drop my eyes one last time.
Lord knows for this I was ready,
If this is the death of me, I'll stand to fight with the rest of me.
A thousand warriors looking towards what I see.
I open my eyes and see the angels fighting with me.

Would let me take care of you ?
And do only things that only best friends can.
Would you let me wash your hair?
Can I breakfast sometime?
I mean we can just hangout go to a movie sometime... oooooohhh I give up!!!
Because to me that will be good
Nothing's greater then we do cause they can't measure up to my love.
Sense we measured what we hate about us...
Let's just put on cheap make up
It will be fun.

You kinda lose yourself in love,
Were only friends and at night I..well I think to much.
That's why I don't mind spending time with you.
But I'm not gunna lie I wanna be loved to.
Hate is so cruel.
Jealousy is better then envy don't you know?
I kinda lost it today thow,
But I know why I'm jealous now it's because I don't wanna lose you.

He's clingy jealous punk,
A loving skinny jeans wearing skunk.
Madly in love with Love and I give up my spot just to see you sit you down.
It had to be known but I didn't know all this was gunna go down.
Full conversation of our imperfect things that we hate about each other ended up like a little kid crying on my shoulder. Your friend turn to my brother when his speech came quick like a eagle towards us.
You said I was jealous annd you said right.
When u see you with another friend that's treating you bad I came to fight.
Reading me like a book I hope you cross over the chapter when I say good bye.

Last but not lease this is my blatant descovery.

God is real because of what October the 31st have shown me.

I've been nuts that's what makes me a human being, cause when your not crazy they tell you stupid things.

I mean stupid things like the cartoon Mickey or yu-gi-oh you know it's there "card games"...

Psychics play the same game but I recognize that the weekend called it mind games.

If your not crazy they place things in your mental so you can become like a beat .. "Instrumental". M.J. Said it  a slave to the rythem babe.

I will not dance to the pattern that they want me to play we were made to sing and give praise not dance and not speak only if you were a puppet to what they say.

Dannnng..

Calm down zeal I believe your share to much without even knowing there doing,
I don't care I pray for you so you can be who God called you to be a Human BEING

I sense a urge!!!
No purge.. That's the government. And it looks like it's getting worst.

I believe in my president and the IsIs thing is only but a dime to a knickles worth.

If you get me then you get me I'll explain my desperate words.

Men covered in devices can't even see the perverse that's why I'm pointing out the things that just in reverse.

Love!
love!
love!

Look at in reverse!!!!!

The crows the cats the animals are disappearing from the earth,
Abortion is just something you do but why tell me why does it look like DEATH is walking in to the hospital?!

There's more Rappers then rockers now but that just shows me time is RAPPING up.

Lot of religions but most can't even back it up.

There's an urge to find your self because if you don't know who you are there trying to take you to hell.

My rooms ***** and if you checked my history on my phone I bet that would be to.
But the king is coming and I'm cleaning up what makes look ugly to.
Can I go hear without you deleting my page?
Nooo! So I hope those who read this will slip in truth like a bar of soap.

THERES no where to run except to the only place your legs bend and your hands together...you know.
It's not that he don't hear it's just we been going to the loudest wicked places of the world and it's hard to hear the truth.
Listen!
Oh listen...before my tombstone.
No one else  can save you except the one that's on the throne.

Drink Isaiah 55 invitation to thirsty except drinking from "Sinkist" look at your soda can really close

Getting off my high horse, I can tell and say yes I've been DECIEVED but if you look closer you can find Adam and EVE in that whole word.

Please I urge to see something greater then what a iPhone can give you or technology.

Itching ears only hear what they wanna hear but here how can you touch words? By saying them over and over until it becomes yours..

This might be the death of me, but even Ebola was made in a factory.

Words been cheap that's why the ones that get paid to say what they never wrote waiting to see if you know your DECIEVED.

Example A is the media example B is ....well those who believe.

Our history tells us it was horrifying and people being sacrificed.
Now little kids look cute as a witch or something dead and horrifying.
Quit that!
Stop that!
Your trying to take away the fun of it away...
No I just told you what they told us and you wonder why I don't celebrate.
It's not about religion it's all about what's been given, live in a fantasy but the truth is there are really witches that cast spells and I wonder are all of them good like the wizard of Oz tell it?

****** was a cigarette in the 1960's but I guess I can go to jail for calling someone a cigarette? Do your homework cause most are playing dumb.

Gay meant happy but I guess I'm not gay no more unless I'm a homosexual...

WHAT WAS REAL BACK THEN HAS A BECOME JOKE NOW.

YOU CAN PAINT YOUR HISTORY ON YOUR FACE FOR A DAY BUT ITS THOSE WHO DONT KNOW ARE THE REAL CLOWNS.

Never thought I would be with a girl to be honest.
Drinking feeling lethal on my body  like a pool of *****.
Lost my affections I was effected when I hit a wicked state of conscience.
A rose kiked me and west meadows told me how to love again with a big pour of Godliness.

If she was ever over here I would treat her to the finest but she's in heaven and that's where I would get to see her to be honest. My love is there and the lovers for this life is ending I'll get it right before he comes I pray and walk right ..I promise

Same answer I don't mind taking it I don't mind giving it but I'm so mindful my thoughts would try to talk me out of it...when I say I'm in a rock and a hard place with my life I'm serious

Oh please
Hold me till were out of time.
Don't see
Don't see
Okay ******* up nice.
Oh happy
I'm not happy without you by my side.
Cause I know that your the one that helps me be alright.

Cause you I know that your the one that will help me live this life.

I speak to the red letters
The lion and the lamb
Beginning and the end.
Hold me in your hands.

Get up chase what you was chasing yesterday.
Lay down be burden with what you didn't say.
Didn't do...
Or didn't make.

...if there was another way I believe it would be pray.
About and in everything

It's a dreadful thing to see your love one moving away from you slowly.

The wind gets colder and the walls start to talk again.
You do everything to prevent it but say something and most will think your crazy weird or just ...
Just..
I'm just growing numb in ignorance
Cause I don't want to see this happen even though I'm in truth and all lies in the world can't speak to me in this moment.
I hope I'm wrong.. My friend.
I hope I'm wrong..my
I hope I'm wrong
Hope I'm..
Friend?

Well quit kicking me under the table..

I don't have what you looking for!
Well what are you looking for?
What are you looking at? Didn't you want me gone ?
Didn't you want me just to be there
But when I'm there
Where do we go
We go to another
Oh my brother
You push me until I'm bothered
Without the R we are getting Further
I've seen this happen to me and Joshua
Please don't do this
I..
But if you wanna
I'm out of..
Reasons and breath cause
I've been chasing many in this life uhhh!!
Why do you smile at me?!
Why do I smile back and shake your hand?!
When did you comeover and layed with me like a lover?
When did you just sit at my house and kissed me because it was funny and until we cryed...brother?
They can think what they think brother!
Well quit kicking me under the table!
Take your plate cause I'm not really hungry..
I love company  more then I'm thirsty.
If you ever read this.
Yes I'm trippin..
No, I like your company more then I wanna go or do somthing.

I'm full

I love to be in your arms and there's nothing for lust I leave it empty handed cause our friendship is what I hold deeper then that zipper in the dark.
Yes I trip I tripped of course but I swear and pinky promise to the north that I won't and meant that.
I feel oh crap my feelings
They spill until you get it
Then we, your prolly thinking that I or what I'm thinking that I bore you thinking that I ignore you thinking maybe don't have nothing for you but..

Clearly I do a lot to see my friends happy, let's see show we..

I got terminated from my job because we chilled that day.
My whole check didn't go to me it went to your face.
Plus your eyebrow plus that freakin look on your face.
And that look on your face makes me feel good okay I said it I did it I'm thinking let's move on.
When I call you wasn't busy we was cool like AC in a Bentley.
But tell me why I'm feeling like a Chevy the won't start up and then I ask my dad to come get me and he said the samething "why do you come all the way over here just to be friendly?"

I don't know Dad I don't know,
Now I'm laying in my bed thinking like maybe I should just back up maybe I should wait for you to call me
Maybe not maybe let's see I'm just watch from a distance and see if you even want me.

Not because my love is gone or shrinking,
Just cause I wanna see if were real homies..

I have the brightest light and his is kinda dim.
But  I don't hit the right notes and his is sounding like a good hyme.
He's the one that loves to much when it comes to friends, and when comes home at night love sick I just say "here I am".
The mirror don't know  me when I talk the truth but I know he hears me when he comes back and say "is my noise to big or somethin"?
Why do you stare at me like that's gonna change your situation?
Let's not point fingers cause the same fingers is gunna hold you tonight.
I'm hear then I'm here even when those brown eyes are trying to hide the hurt or won't disappear.
Come to me and look at me again,
I will tell you it again
I love you and when I can't talk to you.
That's why we gave our life to the truth so you don't have to lie with a man.

There's truth in lies,
But there's no lies in truth.

In time we will find,
That judgement will be the proof.

Too soon to cry when there's joy waiting on you.

One thing before time ends , you gotta find out what is truth.
Then you will see the lies the lies that are infront of you .

Ricky, josh, bobby,chad
Joseph,Caleb ...Dad
These are names of my best friends.
Threw the years the fade to side and most cared good laughs with empty bags.
Even when I was bad the thought of y'all takes sometime to wipe my mind up from the crash,
When my pillow and brain collapse, these thoughts get so in ti mate until my eyes get stuck on memory then I blink and my eyebrows dash to the front of my forehead just get my focus off the past.
The new will become old and I wonder where I will be after this has pass, but while I have the names with me I will love laugh and hold on until I can't.

My best friend ain't picking up..
I run to God when there's no one else..
While the world is like the titanic..
I do my dirt then tell them not to panic..
It makes a hero not wanna save.
When he's going under and the people themselves don't wanna pray...
It's my fault it's my fault God
Forgive me Lord I repent Lord.
All my years been stolen from what I tried to hide,
Tangled pride  turns to ugly lies and you realize do it need a God?
Yes you do cause when the world don't wanna hear your cry,
Sometimes it bothers me when I run back to the other side.
I hate myself cause then I'm saying my friends all of them ain't down to ride.
So I get deeper in the lust that makes me weak and dry.
But when I asked God to be there for me and let me not slip or fall be my strength threw this tempting time.
I need his help more then anything else right now.

Help me..?
What's wrong with me?

The professor can help he can fix it

I don't wanna Fix it..!

He wakes up and smells lust,
His prey sleeps threw the night.
His past is present and plus trust,
Hearing my stomach roar he gets hungry.
So he slides to his victim...helpless and unconscious or just sleep he wraps his hands around his mine.
Thoughts come to mind..
I-I-I tried and tried to stop the past from taking my life
But it's too late I'm eating my victims mind and I fight and fight.
But I've done this before I'm numb to the fight.
My tongue has touched what my soul likes as he turns over.
I'm covered in regret tonight.

I'm taking sweet precaution
My heart is like a roaring ocean.
***** like a dead possum
The stinch of my hands make me so noctious.
I'm sick of doing what makes me foolish,
Sleeping with myself got me waiting for hell in a hamachi.
That's suicide well...if I can manage.
Please all my friends have walked out on me! Please don't leave me you complete me like meat in a sandwich.
These days are full of poor people counting there talent.
But what's talent if you don't have nobody to count on to see it?
Forgive me for everything I have done I need you more then I know it.

I'm my on poison,
And I know it.
God you wasn't joking when you said I can't help it but you can help me..
Even if I do everything for them,
It pleases me but it's not pleasant

I only have love for you anything else is my own destruction.
To tell you the truth but you never get it it's like I can't function
My souls hot cause I've touched ****** and licked more then I wanted..
I just want to be pure again where my Love was only hundred.
But I blew it literally and now I'm Duncan.
If you get that refrence I'm appalled by myself but I like it.

I love you more then life and I'm still breathin

I'm losing interest slowly
Picking up rocks and throwing them at me.
The pond mirrors off the rocks impact and comes back to me....slowly.
I look to my left and all of my friends are grown, then I look to my right and I see you come.
What was it that made you wanna see my reflection and listen to my stream?
I believe it was me I sink in side myself just to breath.
Saw the same with you that's why I love the way we look ...Deep.
But even you my companion is walking away from me.
I'm tired of looking up to see is anyone gunna just stay and was tch the reflection I see.

I've been a victim of your schedule
But I didn't mind it..that means I stop thinking about everything you say and your motives behind it.
To tell the truth I'm hurt behind it but even you can be open with your bestest friend and still be distant.
When I come I'm thinking heck yea were gunna chill and laugh at the stupid remarks were sayin, but all those get cut off when I know it's time when that phone rings and my smile gets lost in " Hey let's go do something".....
Is it weird for me to fill this way about the situation? Is it me...do you really wanna hang or just go somewhere where they still don't pay you no appreciation?
I think I'm just rebound friend sometimes .... You know what I'm saying?
And tonight really set me back to be honest.. When you lied infront of my face and said I can't spend a night over ...
Maybe it's for the best and maybe this is just my conclusion.

When you said you was gunna call me so we can help me threw my verse with this song ...Dude! It's
10:50 now I hardly doubt that.
I hardly doubt this.
I doubt you will be right back...

I said
I did
It broke
You saw
I knew
I peaked and looked.
My body wants
Your body touch
That's lethal cause I'm dying for love
Or dying in lust..

I hate nights like this.

Tell me your deep and dark secrets,
My ears are craving for it.
Maybe cause I got a lot to tell you more then what your thinking..
Sinking your happy trail offensively your dribbling well, my devil tale sticks out more then a bad tale or a back rub that leads to something else.

Let me know if I'm to close okay?
It's not you it's me I know I'm your taste.

Waking up to a familar taste,
5 inches is growing from 5 cetimeters away.
My eyes beholding the wickedness my hands say.
Silently swiftly I put my hands in ur Gaze.
Hungry for selfishness tonight I watch our friendship almost hang.
Yet I still watch you hang from 5 cetimeters away.
Blushing while you was awake I saw your cheeks red when I trusted you with eye view of my private things.
I feel like the worst if you wake up and tell me you felt everything.
Then again why didn't you stop me cause your eyes couldn't stop from turning away ...
It's amazing but  not amazed but I'm a maze, trapped in my own private things .

Existence is irrelevent
Living is like the opposite
Faith is better then religion
And relationship is greater then coexistence.

I don't no anymore if I'm coming or going.
My sorry is warned out and my heart has been so thirsty.
Everytime I look I sigh more then I thank thee.
I know that's not right but I'm wrong cause I know it's something.
Something I've been doing.
I ask you to Guide me and you lead me home

Lord I ask you do the same after this life is done.