I want to be free...

From everything
That holds me back
Free from the confidence
I too often lack
Free from the guilt
Of things I have said
Free from the secrets
That I have kept

Free from the thoughts
That I'm not enough
That share the same space
Of why, just because
Free from the lack
Of forgiveness
For my fellow man
In whom I think less

Free to be happy
With who I am
Free from the thoughts
Of you know you can't
Free from the lies
That my mind often spreads
All the negative vibes
That fill my head

Free from the worry
Of what others might say
When I first awake
Not to dread another day
Free from the bad
Decisions I've made
Free to find love
And have them feel the same

I need to be free...

Sleep to you is waking up
Sleep to me is death
Joy to me is seeing the day
Joy to you is well I don’t really know

Here lies the boy that knows everything but in reality…

He only knows where his feelings take him,
Wearing his heart boy his sleeve.
I’m such a tease
The only reason I write here is because no one is reading me like I’m reading me.

Not gunna think
Just gunna write
…right …or left
See how the government treat us
Kinda looks like man in the mirror..
Always saying you’re gunna do something about it but look how weak you are.
Have I gone to far
They don’t want God just  a charge
I need God and perfected spark
Light me
Help me
Save me
For they
Kept me
Broke me
***** me

And even now the sin that so easily besets me take it from me and I pray for America Lord.
Amen

Nathan._713 I’m not no longer 281 …

Note to future self  in February…

They say never trust a cheater but what if you cheated out of fear of what’s to come?
For I was boy handling a gun
Now a man who understand what love comes from.
Even though I think it’s stupid to be dumb but the numbness that has summon is suggesting lust is better than love.
….And so I forgive you my love.
When I think about you cheating I understand for we were just boys handling a gun…
But if I was shooting my shot
Forgiveness is as a trained assassin.

My emotions are thick like syrup on butter pancakes
And the sweat of my brow will be your simplicity.
The third eye opens under the ***** burning …
As the smoke and I have *** under the moon light
Moon light…
Moon…light
My worries are lighter then the moon on clouds

Thy humble cancer has healed from its on demise. Let the Gods speak on things that’s not and my beloved Capricorn will understand just how deep the water is!
No longer will the waves rush to be mad nor will my heart come to the surface…
If you find my heart then it is yours but!… this is your warning this is the sound that harkens the beast within the sea!
Be warned
I be set you the kraken of old
The spirit of my ancestors
You will see my face and hear the roar of a new empire
Crown who you want
My snake,  the Virgo that kraken of old!
This will not be easy