I feel so alone,
Staggering down a dark hallway,
So many happy masks hang on the walls.
I wear no mask,
And bear a frown,
My own sad crown.

Everyone has someone,
Masks painted to smile,
Maybe only for a little while,
Till I can end their denial.

Why so alone?
You have a good life.
You don't,
Need anyone,
Didn't you say that,
Last night?

Everyone has someone,
Masks painted to smile,
Maybe only for a little while,
Till I can end their denial.

I thought you were strong,
Thought you didn't care.
But you know,
It's the sight,
Of you crying,
I can't bear.

Everyone has someone,
Masks painted to smile,
Maybe only for a little while,
Till I can end their denial.

So it's come down to this,
You found it all out,
You are bacteria,
In a sea of trout.
Nothing special no real positive of sides,
You know it too that's why you hide and cry.

Everyone has someone,
Masks painted to smile,
Maybe only for a little while,
Till I can end their denial.

You're trapped in a box,
One way mirrors surround.
I can see everyone,
But I'll never be found.
Where are the arms,
To hold me together?
I'm shattering,
Alone forever.

Why make lines?
To separate and divide?
To choose a side?
For a wall to hide behind?
Why make lines?
Is it to criticizes?
Or to falsifier,
The notion of compromise?
Why make lines?
Is it the circle you deny?
Refusing to give me a slice a pie?
Forcing a goodbye?

Line maker,
You are no artiest of mine.
Line maker,
I see you have not dulled your eraser.
Line maker,
Wasting our time.

Why make lines?
Why choose sides?
Why divide?
Why say I died?
Line maker,
You can't separate that which connects all of us into one class, kingdom, and religion.
That is time.

Stick and a rope,
Abolish my hope,
Slowly I walk,
Till I reach infinity.
My goal a tease,
As it hangs in front of me,
Never will get,
What I think I deserve.
In my face it dances,
Sings about the chances,
So close I can almost taste,
What always escapes me.
Chasing a setting sun,
Racing to finish what I have begun.
Or did I ever even begin?
Can't have what I can't comprehend.
So out of reach,
The sun always has a lesson to teach,
And I learn eagerly,
In hopes one day I can understand...

Understand why,
The sky separates us...

Unwanted living,
Can't stay for long.
All dies out,
Everything drowns.
Did your own dad,
Come to the final act?
Or was he not proud,
Of his son's wrath?

Who goes to killers' funerals?
And if they do,
Do they cry?
Who goes to killers' funerals?
Do they pretend,
They are in a happier time?

Killers were like you and me,
You and me were once babies,
Babies come from us,
We create killers.
We make funerals,
Killing innocents,
And blaming them,
We are at fault!

Who goes to killers' funerals?
And if they do,
Do they cry?
Who goes to killers' funerals?
Do they pretend,
They are in a happier time?

He was once a child,
Now he is dead.
The time in between,
Messed up his head.

Laying in the dirt,
Staring at the sky,
Middle of the night,
No I'm not high.
Feeling so connected,
Love how I am tied,
Then the thought comes in,
Can't believe it's mine.
What if the stars are holes punched in the sky?

What if stars are,
The good in the bad?
What if stars are,
The happy in the sad?

Light in the sky,
Stars way up high.
I sit here away from it all,
Laying in the dirt ignoring my call.

***** in black,
Wants her money back.
***** in black,
With a killer rack.
***** in black,
Put the knife in your back.

Why do you come here?
Why pretend to be hungry?
Why plague this place?
Why did you **** me?

***** in black,
Died in Iraq.
***** in black,
Called the attack.
***** in black,
Had the sweetest smack.

Why did you poison my mind?
Why did you start the war?
Why would you say those things?
Why are you a *****?

***** in black,
Alone with no pack...

Dead neck down,
Smile on face,
Feed me friend,
Let me eat cake.

Can't dance like everyone,
That's not how I roll.
Fateful accident,
****** up my world.

At least I get that strawberry cake,
Licking the fingers of my good friend.
I can feed her too,
If she is willing to play pretend.

If it's not broke don't fix it,
When it does you replace.
Stop feeding me so much,
I'm choking on strawberry cake.

I can't stop her and the food,
Shoved down my throat I chew.
Shoveling handfuls in,
How much more of this can I do?

Stopped breathing then,
Couldn't believe my fate.
A tragedy,
Killed by strawberry cake.

Sit on my stool,
Next to me in my head.
Don't ******* touch me,
Eat this quicksand.
Need to wash it down?
Have some water.

Funny feelings fight each other,
Mind can't up it's bed.
Thoughts like saliva drip from my tongue,
Words I know that can't be said.

Freaking out around my room,
Banging into walls for fun.
Begging for that wrapped feeling,
Arms, rope, I don't care,
I want the voices to agree.
But hey, it's someone to talk to.

Too many sides of a story,
Everyone lies.
You are all guilty,
If you know of this crime.

Eyes close shut dreams take me hostage,
Tortured with "what if?,
I never comply,
Let the past die,
If it's not a good dream it's a nightmare,
Go away.

"What about the prisoners sir?"
"Execute them all.
Don't need any refugees,
Denting parked cars."

Look at the actor,
Wears a mask of hardened clay,
The shape,
A clear slate,
The background actor of the play,
Not meant to be heard.
But he's so ******* good,
As some viewers confuse him for a wall.
Sounds not made from passion,
Just machine.
Lyrics forged to beats,
Meaning is what lacks from it all.

Any monkeys can press buttons,
Any machine can be used.
Look at how he draws the eyes of everyone,
So in twined and amused.
You dance not listen,
Never think just drink,
Enjoy the act while it lasts,
Though it goes on and on.

Stupid ******* machine.

Drained drained drained,
Drained my life again.
Mosquitoes will drain until the end ,
Drained drained again.
They drain the blood and life,
They are ******* knife.
But as they drain your life again,
They can only descend,
And descend,
Until out of sight.
Can't see swarm ahead?
Must be out of mind.
So the saying goes,
True words always rhyme.
Mosquito mosquito,
You must have drained my life.
I am full of empty thoughts,
The only thing looking good is that knife.
Sorry Mr. Mosquito,
This time I take the blood.
And if the scent lures you in,
You have clearly had enough.
If I drain the blood,
Will it remove the pain?
Or maybe the mosquito will help me out,
And allow me to avoid a carpet stain.
Mr. Mosquito,
It looks like you are all that I remain.
Are you jealous of the husk you ******,
Who can no longer feel pain?

Mind like sky,
Only clear when we die.
Clouds roll in,
Thunder rolls by.
Sky like mind,
Absent at times.
Stars hide behind blinds,
We search and search,
Until we finally find...

The sky, the sky,
Clear enlightened mind.
That's what we find,
Our true brotherhood's sign.

One sky,
One world.
One mind,
One girl.

Mind like sky,
Storms never truly abide,
You'd wish you had died,
With your clouded mind.
Sky like mind,
You can never decide.
Contemplates crime,
Always wastes time,
The two are one of a kind.  

The sky, the sky,
Clear enlightened mind.
That's what we find,
Our true brotherhood's sign.

One sky,
One world.
One mind,
One girl.

Strive for clear skies.

Middle of the night,
Beginning of a new day.
Better get to sleep,
I hate to feel this way.
In my head I hear morbid songs,
Something is missing,
I know something is wrong.


Walk into my dark room,
No need to turn on the lights,
The sun might rise soon.
I don't like to let people in,
But if you are in you stay.
This door is only one way,
Only when you leave you pay.

Late night early morning,
Can't help to want some company.
O well I guess,
The darkness will not leave me.

All I need,
In this world,
Is peace of mind.
Peace for,
My piece of mind.
Don't really need,
Anyone at all.
Unless that someone,
Is oxygen,
Some food,
Water,
All of the above.
Who needs,
More pieces,
To the puzzle?
This one,
Looks fine,
Doesn't it?
It's a weird shape,
The shape,
Only one,
Could fit in with.
But who needs it!?
Not me.
I have my,
Perfection.
Anything imperfect,
I can now say,
Is perfect,
In it's own way.
That's why,
I am perfect.
Simply because,
I am no where close.
All I need,
In this world,
Is peace of mind.
Peace for,
My piece of mind.
Don't worry,
I'm fine.

I will keep looking,
For I am a lighthouse.

I will always see the good in everything,
For I am a lighthouse.

Confused I will search for answers,
For I am a lighthouse.

Help any ship along the sea,
For I am a lighthouse.

Wait in a single spot unmoving,
For I am a lighthouse.

Slowly decaying from the inside,
For I am a lighthouse.

Alone for all my days,
For I am a lighthouse.

Never will have any true partner,
Because no one builds two lighthouses next to each other.

The dark,
Is it empty?
Or is it full,
Of the unseen?
Flip the switch,
Scan the space.
Find anything,
That you don't like?
Please replace.
Clutter will mutter,
***** thoughts to your mind.
Till you finally snap,
And **** someone.
Then your trapped,
In dark again.
This time jail cell,
With your new friend.
Go ahead,
Take your corner,
Sit and think,
About her.
She's all you have,
Yet she's not even there.
Alone with darkness,
Without a care.
Never know though,
The dark is so thick,
Maybe she's with you,
Trying to sooth the sick.
Wrap your arms,
Around both your sides,
Pretend she's tight against you,
And try not to cry.

Standing by myself before gates of open sky,
There she stands in front of me looking right into my eyes.
Open plains but I know the rain might just pour down,
So I stay hidden away under my umbrella.
Every answer is empty not caring what we do,
Whatever you want I promise I'll be content.
It's not a lie, no not all I just want to be your doll,
But I am locked in my emotion umbrella can't even feel the rain.
Never a chance of getting wet or misstep because I am protected from the pain.

Anything I want next time?
How about you get me out of this thing?
I don't need any promises any more,
Meet me at the door.
Because I can't walk in there with my emotion umbrella.

They tell me things can mean more things,
And those things are a greater metaphor to things,
Which symbolically amount to things beyond my knowledge.

Take the number 138.
A number found in my scale.
Usually between an odd and an even,
Never greater then 140.

To me,
It means home.
My own space where I reside.
Where I have for quite sometime.

To others it means love,
In an odd puzzle way.
1 syllable each,
3 words,
8 letters total.
I love you.

69 poems ago,
Is another example.
A simple number,
Can mean so much more.
Like everything can have a greater meaning.

They tell me things can mean more things,
And those things are a greater metaphor to things,
Which symbolically amount to things beyond my knowledge.

Join me good friend,
Look into this pond.
Tell me what you see.

We can see different images,
If we both see through,
The haunting reflection.

I see you and I together,
Staring into a pond.
Not seeing the creatures below.

Do you see how we stand here,
Smiling without reason?
Our most inner thoughts fight one another.

I grab you quickly,
In some romantic gesture.
As we stand close getting closer.

That's the reflection.
Standing by the pond we stay barely close enough.
Longing in my eyes I lay down.

And let my ambitions rest.
"You're the best..."

Die for me,
If you love me!
Die for me,
If you believe me!
Die for me,
If you want me!
Die for me,
If you want to be happy!
Die for me...

Never good enough,
You won't get through the gates.
Clouds shroud the entry way,
Graves diggers will get the best pay.

Die for my love.
Die for family.
Die for happiness.
Die to reach the stars.

Or live...
Breath the air of betrayal,
As you slowly sin away.
Why can't you just die?

With a smile the martyr ascends.
Killing for peace.
Dieing for peace.
Thrives for peace.

With a smile the martyr ascends.
Paradise in eyes they die.
Tears in eyes they die.
Twisted ties of us all seem to die.

With a smile the martyr ascends.
As he ascends he lives on.
Everyone mocks the martyr and where he will live on.
Some claim he will not live on.

Martyr martyr I believe you live on.
Your cross can carry you,
Into the caressing arms of your dreams.
Martyr martyr can you take me?
I've wanted to be happy for so long.

With a smile the martyr ascends.
They all laugh.
Shunning him they all laugh.
Mocking his one hit or miss chance to finally find peace they all laugh.

With a smile the martyr ascends.
They all think less of you I am sorry.
They all hate you for your sacrifice I am sorry.
Your god will reward you because it too will be sorry.

Martyr martyr I believe you live on.
Your cross can carry you,
Into the caressing arms of your dreams.
Martyr martyr can you take me?
I've wanted to be happy for so long.

Head hurts,
I don't know her.
Water never flows,
Behind curtains,
Just rocks.
My chair rocks,
Back and forth,
Left and right.
Why am I never right,
And always left behind?
The trees,
The trees,
The trees will not sneeze,
But bless everyone.
For paper will be printed,
Burned and defiled,
Can't be trained,
To be wild.
My head hurts,
But why ask questions?
Dieing and breathing aren't choices,
Can't drown yourself without,
The help of a rock.
The movies play on,
While I am stuck in the ground.
A zombie with one brain in mind,
Will get it sometime.
My head hurts...

My dreams won't leave me alone,
Sheets bind and blind as I am tortured in my own home.

Images are whips that slash into my mind,
Blood corrupts good dreams to the twisted fabrication that distort time.

Dreams will always keep me hoping that I will find them true,
They will never cease reminding me that I love you.

Another day goes by on the beaches of Dubai,
And I'm sitting here drinking my tea.

No explosions or death,
Erosion not theft.
Just enjoying my days on the beaches of Dubai.

Planes over head,
My head filling with dread,
As the bombs begin to drop from the sky.

Now we all need to say,
Goodbye to the beaches of Dubai.

Bombed for our oil,
Exterminated for our pride.
We now say goodbye to Dubai.

Big American men,
Dressed in gold suits and ties.
They will always deny.

Their seeing off the land tonight,
Can't wait to get their prize,
That big old slice of oil flavored pie.

And they will never learn to share.

Now we all need to say,
Goodbye to the beaches of Dubai.

I'm looking at the ***** in the mirror,
All he does is stare back at me.
What's wrong with that ***** in the mirror,
Why must we always meet?

Let's pick apart that ***** in the mirror,
Let's dissect, and see what is wrong.
I hate that ***** in the mirror,
He is my worst enemy.
Always ruining everything I do,
Scaring off all I see.
He keeps getting in my own way,
Never seems to want to play.
Messes everything up,
I yell at him to shut him up.

I'm looking at the ***** in the mirror,
All he does is stare back at me.
What's wrong with that ***** in the mirror,
Why must we always meet?

Whats wrong ***** in the mirror,
Are you going to cry?
Why are you laughing ***** in the mirror,
Don't you feel the tears in your eyes?
I surprised the mirror doesn't,
Reject your own form.
Nothing special or unique,
Just skin and bone.
***** in the mirror,
Don't come any nearer.

I'm looking at the ***** in the mirror,
All he does is stare back at me.
What's wrong with that ***** in the mirror,
Why must we always meet?

I want to find my Alaskan Sunrise.
Her appearance rare but burned into memory.
Whose warmth begins a new era in time.
Doesn't last long but neither does high tide.
Her beauty is an Alaskan Sunrise.
Burns away evils of the past.
Replacing my thoughts with a warmth that will last.
The light at the end of the month,
Tunnels of darkness a tricky labyrinth.
But I will find that Alaskan Sunrise,
All in good time,
As I wait out the dark,
Dreams of her warmth,
Warms the hollow tree's bark.
My Alaskan Sunrise will melt the dark ice cold,
Erase the old,
Replace with gold,
Hell, I'm already sold.
Alaskan Sunrise,
All in good time.

Resting on my cross,
Moss crawling it's way up.
Interrupt, crows break the silence.
Ever since my mouth has become sown shut.

That image of the woman,
Has been stuck inside my head,
Dread, that sudden realization,
Migration impossible I am tied to a cross.

Around me is grain,
Pain of blandest stings my eyes.
Sunrise is coming,
Running to me she smiles.

Fixing my coat she picks at the straw,
Caww caww, she mocks the crows.
Oh that smile warms me,
Please stay here.

All done now she leaves with a hug,
Tug on my cross I want to wrap my arms around her.
Brrrr winter's breeze blows by,
Goodbye sunrise.

Night falls upon my space,
Taste, the crows all swarm me for salty tears,
Years of torture the crows pick me apart,
No heart, no courage, no brain.

Just the pain of the cross.

I can't get what I want,
So I am stuck here with everything.
I have all a person needs,
I want you and me.

Trade away all I have,
So I can walk your path.

Stuck here,
In my own chains,
Rotting in loneliness,
Day by day.

While I miss all the good times,
I lay here with everything dieing inside.

Buried in everything,
Trapped in a chest.
Gold and precious things,
Only second best.

Believe or not I'd rather spend my days,
Up against you as we both lay.

I am,
Alone.
In my,
Own home.
Sitting,
In my,
Big chair,
Goodbye.

No arms are around me now,
As I burn into infinity.  
No arms are around me now,
As I burn into infinity.  
No arms are around me now,
As I burn into infinity.  
No arms are around me now,
As I...am...

Alone.
In my,
Own home.
Sitting,
In my,
Big chair,
Goodbye.

Why can't I,
See,
That one sided,
Dice?
Roll to find,
Me,
Always so,
Nice.
To look into that,
Puddle,
Won't last long,
Faded.
I am,
Evaporated.  

No arms are around me now,
As I burn into infinity.  
No arms are around me now,
As I burn into infinity.  
No arms are around me now,
As I burn into infinity.  
No arms are around me now,
As...I join the clouds.

My favorite people,
Are the ones I don't know.
They are the only ones,
I can let my feelings show.

I feel a little greedy,
Stocking ideas in my head.
Everyone I know around me,
Not knowing what I have said.

But all you great strangers,
Who happen to read my poems.
You are the only ones,
Who I invite into my mind, my home.

I do fear the day,
When certain people find,
That almost every word I think,
I subconsciously put in rhyme.

Or that I feel so radically,
About certain subjects.
Don't even get me started,
About the opposite ***.

And what if she reads them?
Will she color me insane?
Not you people,
Your opinions runoff me like rain.

I'll never really know,
What you think of me.
But you will all know more,
Because you'll let me be.

I go down the rows,
I see the prizes behind glass.
Can't even take them out,
All I have to do is ask.

Mom always told me,
Don't touch what's not yours.
So I glace,
Though cracked doors.

I want, I want, I want,
The prizes taunt, taunt, and taunt.

All I need to do,
Is break the glass.
Risk ruining the prize,
For a bit of ***.

Looks so perfect,
Kept behind walls.
Would it answer me,
If I gave it a call?

All I have,
Is not what I need.
Wishing to simplify,
Willing to bleed.

Snails can't out race,
The formula cars.
Worms won't ever,
Reach the stars.

Garbage is trash,
If's not white it's black.
My favorite knife,
Is the one in my back.  

Media will **** ya,
Not old news.
What is a car?
I think mine is blue.

Can't happen without reason,
What a way to think.
So tell high priest,
Why do we naturally stink?

I started the war,
Which tore up the land,
But some else dropped the bomb,
They took on the plan.

Thought to be unjust,
Our teacher was evil.
Now only kindness in his heart,
Will show on his highlight reel.

Can't believe he is gone,
Taught me his trade.
Never thought he'd leave,
Am I to blame?

There was a time,
Yes mouths ago,
Where I despised the man,
That I now have come to know.

Taught me hard lessons,
Strong like my dad.
May have been the greatest teacher,
I've ever had.

But now the man cries,
Can't look into the eyes,
That I used to despise,
Now all untrue, lies.

Hard to not hate,
The one had pushed it.
Righteous and number one,
Knew he wouldn't get hit.

But tempers fly,
And what comes up comes down.
Lost a good teacher,
Best instructor around.

Motivated me to new heights,
I am a better person since you were in my life.
Taught me all the things I know,
Taught a seed how to grow.

Our love was made in China,
Outta of the sparks rose a fire,
Now we're all burning,
For that love we've been yearning,
That love that started the fire.

Who can call it love,
If we've only got a taste.
The words on the tip of my tongue,
In my ears that laugh stays rung.
In opposite directions we race.

Didn't push me off,
Seemed it enjoy it all.
But at least we have that day,
Where you and I played.
No one can break that wall.

Our love was made in China,
Outta of the sparks rose a cloud of ash,
Now we're all cold,
From that love we've been told,
That love that stayed dead at the site of the crash.

Odd zoo animal,
Let him in my house.
I was only trying not to be a ***** *****,
Now he wants to get hitched.
Such a creepy craving mouse.

Gave to him a gift,
I was his first kiss,
He was fine but I wanted more,
So awkward he couldn't handle a *****.
But please go on insist.

Our love was made in China,
Outta of the sparks rose a column of black,
Now we're all empty,
From that love we've held gently,
That love that stayed at her house and won't ever come back.

I am teenager and I want to be loud,
I am a **** and I **** around.
Smoking villages, smoking towns,
Teenage girls keepin me aroused!

**** nine lives I've only got one,
Got problems bro? "I feel bad for you son".
****** pop lyrics till the day is done,
****** teenagers already think they've won!

World is their oyster? More like a clam!
All the weirdos with their over done glam.
Sheltered sadist couldn't give a ****,
Girls so jealous of the Lady and the *****.

Smokin, smokin peace to all,
Relaxing freeloaders ignore all my calls.
Chill brother the world is just a big ball,
Getting throw into the sun like a glass vase to the wall.

Don't forget me! I'm the eyes.
Seeing all these strangers caramelize.
Suffer, suffer let the pain rise,
Karma gonna see to your demise.

Voices get quieter,
As I watch  them get higher,
Smiling so big, new furnace buyers.
I sit alone scared and tired.

So much beauty in our world,
In every tragedy we think we see.
You think you can compare ******,
To happened to you and me?

The storms came often,
Ripped our land apart each three months.
But I always stayed in the storm,
Looking back I feel like a dunce.

Sad to say you only saw the rainbow,
When the storm had stopped.
Now I live in a new land,
Your crimes' charges have not been dropped.

Can't say I miss the sun,
In the times it did shine.
Nor the heavy rain and harsh winds,
That had clouded my mind.

Though I do miss that feeling,
That Spring days are ahead.
Looking back it's quite a shame,
You never slept in my bed.

Sad to say you only saw the rainbow,
When the storm had stopped.
Now I live in a new land,
Your crimes' charges have not been dropped.

My new land still unclaimed,
Yet I do not jump right in.
Would never disrespect my ******,
My great new female friend.

Just another stick in the mud,
Selling food till the day is done.

Hours and hours they see me wait,
Fake smile a while keeps them abate.

Barely time to eat my food,
Thirty minutes total, we all our tools.

Getting trained in the basics or so they are called,
A hair in the food could start a brawl.

Man up and eat it,
Can't **** you dumb ****.

But no, smile,
Give them a while.

I'm sorry I'll fix that.
I am a clone.

Please don't even shed another tear,
I'm watching you all but disappear.
Poor girl sits on the closet floor,
Never handed anything has to work more.
Can't get hired, can't get payed,
Can't get a car, can't get *****.
There I lie behind big gates,
Have it all never had to take.
Oh poor girl she makes me sad,
Wished I could give you all I had.
You deserve it all you know it too,
So much to offer so little you can't do.
Can't get hired, can't get payed,
Can't get a car, can't get *****.
It's odd how similar we are,
But we are divided by some bars.
Bars of the mind that we build together,
The cells outlast kind and cruel weather.
Either way we are locked inside,
In the corner shadows of our mind.
Can't get hired, can't get payed,
Can't get a car, can't get *****.
Poor girl with those lips,
Could make her more happy with just one kiss.

Realization through dehydration,
Sadness is so sensitizing!

When I own the sadness,
It's a depressing madness.

When I see sadness on your doorstep,
I couldn't be more glad you guys met!

Sadness is relative,
And is all one of our relatives.

We all share the feeling,
But on others it is peeling.

When I see it on some though,
I laugh till I know,

The sadness.

Feeling so worthless,
Worthless,
I can't digress,
I'm just worthless.

I never take the gold,
This is getting old,
All the racers pass by,
Me,
You see,
I'm worthless.

Wish I could repress,
The fear in my chest,
That I am just worthless,
Worthless.

I'll never be there,
For all to stare,
Lifted high above,
I'll be alone,
At home,
No one there because I'm...

Worthless,
A pest,
Retreat to my nest,
Where I am more than less.

Can't escape that bar code,
Bars me to a price.
But feel free to take me for free,
Since I am a grain of rice.

Worthless.

Here lies the bride,
****** ripped wide,
Married rich, a bribe.

Watch her walk,
The guests all talk,
Open mouthed minister gawks.

Masquerade party,
The lock and the key,
Binds two for all eternity.

The smile they share,
Warming with care,
Trapped in a stare.

Married, her dream fulfilled,
Kids, a home, family dinners, that's the drill,
No money for the bill.

Last chance to run,
Last chance for fun,
Eclipse the sun...

Here she comes.

Standing still,
Somewhere in time,
When the urge comes over me,
To roll over and die.

Viewing the happenings,
Of all who are around,
Everyone looking so pleased,
Mind safe and sound.

A hollow coffin waits,
For it's first and last embrace,
Greet my new friend with open arms,
Can't wedge between our space.

I hold my friend close,
And it never lets go.
Now I am loved,
My new home.

A car passes by,
And a thought escapes my head,
I could die right now,
If I jumped out of my bed.

Look at me dad,
I can smile like all the others,
Nothing wrong here,
Even ask mother.

A hollow coffin waits,
For it's first and last embrace,
Greet my new friend with open arms,
Can't wedge between our space.

I hold my friend close,
And it never lets go.
Now I am loved,
My new home.

No, this friendship is complicated too,
While I am happy ten feet underground,
Friends and family cry above,
So I guess this is goodbye for now.

I'll miss you.

There is a beach to the east where high tide never seems to cease,
A man, a son, runs along the shore fighting his own brother
Tied, an equal match for each other, they fight for the right for a lover.

An evil inside has taken a most deadly form,
A clone who's desire is parallel to the other with equal cost.
Or is it intersecting, since now both their blood cross.

Two men of the same right, one black, the original white.
Will never talk nor words be spoke at all,
A fight to the death will only begin the next brawl.

Sand burning the souls of the fighting men,
Bare fists curled into iron ***** of hate.
Swing and miss till you land a hit, they will never abate.

The seas try to pull them apart, ripping the shore itself,
Blowing winds of pure destruction upon them.
But the fight blinds, only thoughts in the heads of them are to condemn.

War wages on, now they harness nature,
Making bombs, sickness, and uses all life.
Just two brothers who are trying to end the strife.

The Mother calls a friend who promises to deliver,
A force so destructive any tide will retreat.
The brothers ignore signs and continue stroking their meat.

Ignorant men fight on.
Meanwhile the bystanders ask for a sign,
What have I done to ******* the divine?

"You've done nothing. Now die."

Everything I once thought was everything,
I have forgot.
All the feelings which I once felt,
Have left.
All the good times which lit my life,
I now drown in them in a kiddie pool.

Not with sadness,
Nor pleasure is there.
I have no feels for the past,
I no longer care.

A new light has entered,
I will catch it.
Better times have been had,
I will have more.
Nothing has been replaced with everything,
And once again I am whole.

Not with sadness,
But pleasure is there.
I have feelings for her,
I now care.

Placed into an awkward stance,
Can't see through that powerful glance.
The look in your eyes so all powering and sweet,
Yet I can not hold you till our feeling meet.

I want to spin you round and kiss you beneath the trees,
No one near by only you and me.
But I know how I feel but how do you do?
I feel so small and easy something that's new.

If I grab you will you comply,
Or would it result in an awkward goodbye?
Please grab and kiss me,
Let me know that you love me and you'll miss me.

I want to be yours and for you to be mine.
Forever? Maybe. How about a long time?
Laughing all day I can't help the thought,
We can love each other till we rot.

Ya, I do sound crazy but really I want one thing,
To spend many days with you darling and hear you sing.

Can't be like you,
No one can.
Distant star out of reach,
Not many even knew.

But I stand here an island,
Hoisting up your flag.
Saluting a man I never met,
Wanting to be in a band.  

So many dreams I've seen,
They overflow my thoughts.
Imaging I am sitting alone in the dark,
Remembering my life as I scream.

But not wanting to take back,
A single moment gone through.
Running naked in the forest,
Adding more stories to my stack.

So many journeys accomplished,
And a thousand more to go.
Hungry for the entree,
Yet I only can have the side dish.

You inspire me much like a sun inspires a light bulb.
I shine bright in my room, but will never light...the world.

Churches crying for attention,
Preachers point towards crowds.
"Sinners, all of you!
Repent, or go to Hell!"

Scared sheep scattered to find sanction,
In the so called holy land.
Attempts to please their God,
Explosions of passion everywhere.

People now divided,
Weaker than before.
But at least we know it's bad now,
To **** many ******.

Generals in the clouds,
Divide and conquer they all say.
I'll take the west you take the east,
Let's each make up some crazy names.

We'll tell the living a lie,
To keep them all in line.
Follow the instruction manual,
Or they'll all burn underground!

Get them to fear their master,
Make them beg for his forgiveness.
We truly are sadist,
For how much we enjoy your pain from our power.

Yes, everything is your fault,
And unless you donate to our corporation,
Than you can bye bye to all of your present and past family,
Because your going to burn in damnation.  

We'll make puppets of people,
To spread our word.
Which will create an opposite group,
Who we can put the blame on!

Scare the world to purge evil,
Fight hundreds of wars.
Just men waiting for a happy death,
All of which we can offer door to door.

Always so confused,
Can't help to be amused.
Hope I'm not being used,
That this not all just a ruse.

I want us to go somewhere,
Where it is I don't care.
Just sit here and touch my hair,
I'll hold you close enough to wear.

Our plans are always changing,
But my mind is rearranging.
Set up the staging,
While my love is still raging.

Sleep in my arms,
Laugh at my charms,
I'll show you no harm,
Wasn't raised in a barn.

All and all I must say,
I can't wait for us to play.
To spend time with you in my day,
Would hit me with the brightest of sun rays.

Racing mind racing mind,
Going everywhere all the time.
Call me two face, wish I had two,
Schizophrenia gives me much more than you.

Why am I me,
Why do I see what I see?
I could be whatever I want to be,
Yet I am me.

Keep asking myself what's wrong,
What is wrong?
Why do I question myself?
Come on kids, run along.

One on one,
Me and you,
Locked in a room,
Built for two.
One on one,
Let's have fun.
I crave the grave,
Where I can,
Rest my eyes.
You and me,
Trapped indifferently,
A room with no escape,
If no one hears you scream,
Is it still called ****?
The lust,
The pain,
The gain,
Innocent children,
Someone has to win.
Let us tie,
You and I.
Go crazy,
Not so lazy.
Unkempt unchained,
Our bodies stained.
Trapped in a room,
Till our doom.
One on one,
Never ending fun.

Covered man,
By the pool,
Screaming at,
His favorite rock.

Says his rock,
Is not all talk,
But when it comes down to it,
It still can't walk.

Screams his rock is a fool,
Believing it is something it isn't.
A super powered demon rocker ladies man,
Please just shut up.

You aren't the pretty pictures,
Hanging on your wall.
A small grain of sand on the shore,
That is all you are.

Can't you see the problem?
Don't you know your wrong?
How are you content with being one of those blades of grass,
On their lawns?

A grain of sand for their castle.
A tear drop in their moat.
A penny in the sea of million dollars,
A person who doesn't want to standout.

Don't be someone who you aren't already,
I promise you someone out there will shower you with confetti,
Because of who you are.