I miss you,

I miss the way you laugh and the way we were together.
I miss your sass and how you'd say best friends forever.

I miss how well you knew me and I'm sorry I took you for granted.
You showed a new world of love in which I grew quite frantic

But now you left me and although not intentional, I hope we reconnect maybe somewhere recreational

you broke my heart that day as I always remember what you used to say. And how you comforted me no matter the time of day.

I got you in trouble as you did I. But. we made nice memories and those will never die.

So thank you for the opportunity to show me what love truly is, to teach me that love is shown in many ways not just in kisses.

You were one of my best friends and I will always remember, no matter where we end up you gave me something I will cherish forever.

So thank you Car for giving me the opportunity to be your friend. I will share this story as something that changed me as this chapter in my life finally comes to an end.

Mommy's little little girl for that you are,
keep your wings they'll take you far.

Mommy's' precious girl for that you'll always be,
Please always know how much you mean to me.

I always knew the day would come where you'd stop crawling and start to run,
And when the day came oh I was proud but I missed the little girl who begged me to carry her around

Mommy's  lovely girl when i tucked you in and kissed you goodnight,
I'd whisper I'll love you all my life,

For which you'd respond mommy please, I'll love you much more for eternity

Mommy's  gorgeous girl for one you'll soon be,
I'll guide your flight but soon you'll flee.

I'll look away and back again,
And suddenly a year will be ten

Mommy's  little girl I hope I'm ready,
For soon enough you'll be steady,

You'll fly off to do great things,
And I'll look back at all the memories.

But despite it all you'll always be,
Mommy's little girl, at least to me.

I took a plane here
I didn't come by boat

I crashed into the ocean
but i learned how to float

I loved it here
when i first came around

The more i explored
the more things i found

Sparkling rivers and deep seas
these are a few of my favorite scenes

From the golden beaches and very tall trees
the animals can run free

But as time goes on
the excitement is gone

I finally know in this nightmare of dreams
everything here is not what it seems

I now know i am stranded on this island of misery
I spend everyday dreading the never ending sea.

I wish... Oh I wish Upon a Star
that is brighter than the moon and more powerful than the sun,
that I can be wanted,
that I can find the one,
the one that can truly help me find love.

They say it's a terrible disease
that it's a sign of low self-esteem

They tell you to get well soon
not bothering to ask why your so blue

They Judge you
when they don't know what you have been through

Yet what you don't know is that
they can't help but be jealous of YOU

I Love You,
not because of what you have or who you are but because your the one person that ever made me feel special like a rare star

I Miss You,
not because your gone and you just left without goodbye but more because i no longer have someone to comfort me when i feel like i'm going to cry

I Care For You,
not because i owe you but because you might need comfort to

Your My Best Friend,
not just for the sake of calling you my best friend but because your the one with whom i hold a friendship that i hoped and prayed would never come to an end

I'm Always Here For You,
not because your there for me but because i want to be a good friend the best that i can be

I Want To Show You Friendship The Way You Have Shown Me

A hidden poet who writes when she doesn't know how to speak
A girl who has no talents yet she tries to be unique
A girl who hides within the shadows of the world because she's scared of being seen
A girl who tries to stand tall but is always thrown in the backseat
A girl who said she had enough when she reached the age of fourteen
A girl who tries to find a word to describe the girl in the mirror she sees
A girl who's been called names and always felt like a freak
A girl who believed what anyone said because she was naive
A girl who is now seventeen
A girl who would rather read then sleep
A girl who is learning more about herself each week
A girl who is trying to finally learn how to see herself as a queen

Why do I feel this way?
Why do I feel like crying when I think about him?
I find myself asking “is this love?”
I heard that this is how it felt most of the time
I just never imagined it would hurt this bad
I guessed I never believed it would  
but it does and its like hell on earth
like my heart is on fire
but how is it that others can find there happy ever after?
What am I doing wrong?
I want what my parents have…I cant wait until I finally find it…  
I know I will be truly happy like my mom is…  
I guess that’s why I accepted her husband, its not just because he’s cool and fun and chill but because he makes her so happy
I can’t wait to find my own happy ending.

He corrupts my thoughts and haunts my dreams
He's always on my mind awake or asleep

I try to get rid of him, though as much as i try
I can never get rid of what i feel inside

It's like a drug is what i noticed as i have a weird feeling
I hate the hangover but i love the short good feeling

I know how bad it is for me
But i cant help but feel intrigued

The power it holds on me is actually quite scary
It is just like a person hooked on ecstasy

You heard of the side effects if you take it right?
Your whole life goes wrong and you cant seem to find the light

Until a certain person comes along and saves you from yourself
All you can do is pray that he doesn't come back again.

It's not our darkness that scares us
It's our light we truly fear

Our darkness may consume us
But the light is always near

It's the dim light at the end of the tunnel that drives us forward
Although you may disagree

It's the light not the dark that truly scares us
Can you not see?

In the darkness most find comfort
In the the light most find hardships

Once you accept the dark as well as the light
You accept yourself just as you are.

I knew i shouldn't have talked
I knew i should have kept it all locked

I knew i should have let it just be
And let no one know, no one but me

They proved my point, i was smarter before
But back then it really wasn't a chore

I will go back to my plan that i broke
And stick to it, i really hope i don't choke

I knew i shouldn't have trusted them
No one will ever know my inner thought again
And that's a promise i'll depend

Do you know what you do to me?
Do you know that I've cried myself to sleep?

But it's okay i understand your choice
I'm never anyone's first choice

I act like I don't care
But deep down i swear,
That I've let out a few tears..

You might not see it
Trust me it's not just you who can't

It's because i'm good at hiding
It's locked up in my heart in a real tight binding

Or at least it was until a certain person came along
He didn't notice that i was hiding behind my big, long wall

But soon i told him when i knew i could...
He was shocked that i ever had such a thought, he never thought i would.

I hope i mad ea good choice to tell him such a thing
But i have a feeling i can trust him with my inner being

I really hope i'm not wrong about something so important to me
But i just need someone to know so i don't have to go through it with no one but me

I might be making a mistake but that's okay
This is life and in life you have to find your own way.

When i was a young kid i used to dream
About fairy's, princesses, and even kings.

As i grew up i let them slip
But one dream would always stick

The dream about the princess who found her way
Only by accepting the problems at bay

The princess before was only a peasant
But the story of how she found her love was really quite pleasant.

I dream't through the night of finding such a thing
But only to learn it would be a true blessing.

I want to find someone who will truly accept me
And hopefully WAY before i'm thirty

By the time thirty i want to have 3 little blessings of my own
But i really hope they don't ruin everything i own { :-p }

2 Girls and a boy i used to say
Now i laugh and say "any will truly be the same"

I laugh and i smile, i cry and i frown
But i know deep down
"This is how it starts"

Soon enough i will have my own Prince Charming just like in the books
But i know forever i will be my own Cinderella.

Your sitting at home
All alone
Trying to get through

Your running high
Running low
Hiding from the group

You pray to God
Cause you know
Only he can help you through

But come on sweetie
I can see
That you're hiding insecurities
But i know that you have many opportunities

I'll stay by your side
Got nothing to hide

I will help let people see
How amazing you can be

Then you'll get up off the ground
I hope you don't leave me hanging around

And when you see you life is good
Will you help those who couldn't?

Because if you don't you'll be just like the rest
And you will never be the best

But if you help stop this awful trend
You can help bring bullying to an end.

S - stop bullying it just isn't right
T- think about how they feel inside
O- open your heart and feel for them too
P- pause for a second what did you do? do you know what else they went through?

B- "bullying is my game" you say as your friends laugh
U- ugly is the habit that drove your victims to pass
L- loser is what you called her as she walked through the halls
L- little did you know she is living with one and is appalled
Y- you don't know her life yet you bully her why?
I- i know the things you don't, the loser in her home was born a bully unknown
N- know that your bullying hurts and that you should go home
G- go, don't just apologize but leave her alone.

Dear lonely girl/boy i can see
that your so shy, shy from me
but oh you so shouldn't be
cause i can help cant you see?

Dear lonely girl/boy i can see
that your so scared from all you see
you say "i'm scared that they will do it to me"
but i can help cant you see.

Dear lonely girl/boy cant you see
that you can surely trust me.

dear lonely girl/boy why cant you confide in me?
that way the bullies will see
that you are stronger then they will ever be.

so don't let them bully you,
it wont do any good which they will soon learn
soon all they know will defiantly burn
and when they say they will turn,
don't give in turn away with a stern.

a stern look, a stern heart, or even a stern brain
but atleast that way you know you did great finding your own way

What's wrong with me?
I'm not who i used to be.

I'm having a hard time describign how i feel inside,
Sometimes i have an overwhelming feeling to hide.

I lost my wya,
And we were drifting away...

But i found my way back,
Without having to pack.

I dont know what i'd do without them,
They are my best of friends i knwo for sure i don't need ten.

I'm an insecure mess,
But i rather you not test.

I hate feeling like i'm not good enough,
But atleast i dont feel like my problems are to tough.

I hope to go back to the fun old me
But i'm almost there i already solved three.

This poem has to come to an end,
Although there are some rules i would love to bend.

I sure am positive that everything will be better soon,
And just maybe even by the next full moon.

Since when did his smile make me go weak?
Since when did i get butterflies every time he'd speak?

Since when did he make me smile with just one look?
Since when did i get happy with every glance i took?

Since when did he make me happy when i'm feeling down?
Since when did i light up whenever he was around?

Since when did i feel sad to see him so upset?
Since when did i feel the need to have him by my side watching the sunset?

Oh how i wish  he knew how i truly felt
But i know the reason he doesn't is all my fault.

I promised myself i would get over it and that i would do well.
But this is one secret i wish i could tell.

No one knows not even my friends
I'm afraid to be judged, i'm afraid to be put down again.

It's been months since I've last seen him, since we went our separate ways
It ***** to know that i still feel this way

I wish i didn't take
That big long leap

All on my own
All alone...

i miss him dearly
but what should i do?

I should leave him alone
and let him love you.