I Can't Stop Thinking Of You
What Happened?
To Us?
Was It You?
Was It Me?

I Miss You
Hurt
I Feel You.

Time is going by so fast
     **** I don't even know anymore
My heart rushes
        I wait everyday
  Really don't know what I'm waiting for
I've been thinking
  What it could've been.

I love my son I am raising on my own
     Lots of people loves him
...

He makes my days fly by.
I enjoy every moment I have with him.

I wanted to come with
I wanted what all you have said
I wanted that love again
I wanted it all back what we had
I wanted you back
I wanted the real me back also
I want to live with you
I want to get off this place
This cursed place

What's stopping me
My heart aches
Its torn into tons of pieces
I really hurt
Saddening hurt
I wanted to see you

How long does distance becomes a chore.
**** I wish I knew why myself
Why am I scared to go to you
Why am I afraid to hurt someone else that have already hurted me mentally and physically and spiritually.
Its not what I really meant to stand you up.
Your gone
Would I have to wait another year to try get to see you again
Will I come to you
I didn't even get to see you two days is not long enough.
Two years is too long
We got this bond that will not go away
I feel it
Its real
Since the beginning.

I will come to you
I will do something about why I feel the way I feel
Why I am torn
Why I'm hurt
Why I didn't do what I wanted to do

I'm sorry but I will make my way to you.
When the time is right.

I miss the old days of how it use to be
You and I will go all over the place
Day or night
Anytime
Any day
Just to be with eachother
Laugh
Tease eachother
Yes, you were my beautiful side of me
Where I felt so happy
And I still do feel that feeling
With every thought of you
Makes me feel happy and special
All I can say I wish and pray for those times to come back
I loved you
Still do
My heart aches
But now I got a new love I made him myself
My son
My love
But you were my first love
In which I still crave for
I miss you so bad
But least I still got these happy feelings and memories to look back on
Maybe one day
We will come across eachother
I also believe I was the only one you fell in love with too
Actual love
Not the kind your living
Cause I know how you are too
No one will ever treat me the way you did
You treated me better than anyone else
And it's hard to move on
I miss you.

I loved you once
You left
I don't  think I can love you again
You left a couple of furtures behind
Decided on leaving long ago
I didn't  realize it will be this hard
Now that you're gone
I'm lost
With my own
To look forward to
We will have to try and get somewhere in life.
Just to see happiness again
God, help me.
Creator is my God
Forgive me and guide me once again
I had it all
Alcohol ruined this plan we had
Didn't even get to see this little guy.
Couple more weeks and I will be happy.
In which there is no father for my unborn child
I'm not afraid, or scared
I know I got this.

My first love will always be true
My first love will love me and accept me for my wrong doings.
My lover now will be insecure, mean, tollarate, cruel.
My baby will love me back no matter what goes on least I got him
My first love taught me how forgive and how to treat eachother
When loving and caring.

I have decided to take a new path in my life
I will be having my first child
20 years old isn't so young
I look forward to having more children with him
This guy I met a few years ago but I never gave him a chance
He knows that I've been on my own all my life
I have decided to keep him
He wants to keep me
He's offering me a new life
New journey
He wants me to finish school
And get what I thought I never deserve
I have more to discuss with him
He's successful himself
I think I have found love
Real love
Young restless love
He says he's not young but to me he's just as good as me
He makes me feel good
Better of myself
The other side I never got to see
I am very happy that I found love
I thought I will never get someone who accepts me
The baby I am holding is not his
But he wants it
He wants me
I can't wait to carry on with my life with him
Everything will be great
Cause of him
Now that we happened to just be together
I am also happy that I'm having my own baby
Just about 5 months
I look forward with this new life
He asked me to move to the city with him
He even told me I can start school
Finish where I left off in school.
Who knows maybe I will just might graduate
I don't want to let this opportunity to pass me by
Not with this guy
I have told him
He's so interested in me.
Pray he won't leave me
I still feel alone
I know I won't be so alone when I have my love in my arms in some months from now.
Make's me tear up and smile
Glad that I never gave up
Life changing
I have lost many friends as the years went by
Yes I miss them
I still don't got much friends but not like I need any
Friends will gain when I gain to a better self of me.
At times I was lost but I held on tightly
Stayed strong
Held my head high as I always have been doing.
I will take care of him and my children
When I say no matter what
I mean no matter what
I've taken care of myself.
I'll love to love my children and bring them up.
When I have more with him.
He seemed happy that I'm ready to grow up and have plenty of babies
I told him I was much mature than him
He said no I'm not
Just makes me smile
I can't wait to have what I never expected
It's never hard to expect the unexpected
Even when it's a loss.
I'm in love
Can't wait to show my dad what I have made and found
That his baby girl is going to build her own life.
Even though he was part of my life for a short period
My father is my father
I kept him updated and really close.
One of these days I will get a house for me and my family and have my dad to live with us too
Since my sisters can't seem to want him to live them or take care of him
I know it's a big responsibility I look forward to it.
I always have been and I don't think I will ever let that dream slip by
Now that I have this chance to do what I never thought I would get to.
Good things happen or great.
I found love it came out of nowhere.
A family I can call my own.
I will never did what I did before.
I will never leave my new love not even if anyone tries to steal me.
Cause that's how much I feel in love
Will be tough love.