Spinning circles in my head
I never have been on the meds
I hear they're great and fix some stuff
but I just want to be enough
I don't want to be zombified
that just makes me mortified
so I will argue for our right
to just be different, that's our fight
so we have too much energy
and are lacking synchronicity
people can't keep up with us
some with Tourettes often cuss
wild ideas spinning out
enthusiastic scream and shout
and they just want to structure me
to fit me in their society
this is how it's supposed to be
well sorry dude, that just ain't me
I just want creativity
and redefining normalcy
that box just will not fit us all
sorry but it's just too small
we were made so limitless
it's time for us to be fearless
breaking out to be our own
we discover the unknown

Grinding out the pages for the classes I am in
I do not know my goal, what am I trying to win?
I work and slave away, gaining not a thing
and trying not to glance out at the greenery of spring
this work is never ending, but it's like a rocking chair
I may be doing something, but it doesn't get me anywhere
who am I trying to impress, is there one who even sees
I don't know what the point is, will someone tell me please?
I'm enrolled in this school, and working toward this end
but I'm also part of that school, can you see a trend?
I like to be in school, because I like to learn
good grades are so easy, please tell me it's my turn
work is so much harder, I just can't figure why
I am always reaching but the sky is just too high
what will I be when I grow up, I wish that I knew
but here I am at 30 and I still don't have a clue.
Some people just know, exactly where they're going
or are they really stuck, and it's not them they're showing
some content to work at jobs they hate, to make a buck
but I could never live like that, I want to give a "duck"
then there are those people with the dream jobs in their hand
ah what would life be like to have something just so grand
so here I am my brain in circles sitting in my room
I'll be pondering this till old and gray and rotting in my tomb

I cannot decide
though many times I've tried
is it more frustrating
this stupid one way hungering
to love a specific man
to have had him in your hand
and now he's gone away
and you wait for the day
when he will return
and you forget about the burn
or is it worse
does it feel more like a curse
to hunt and hunt and see
each new face could it be he
each time you're given eyes
is he the one to end your tries
no I cannot decide
though many times I've tried
if more strength is required
or which makes you more tired
to wait and wait and hope and hope
to try to believe and cling to that rope
or to search and look and try out the new
and hope that you'll find your one love true?
waiting and hoping
or searching and groping
looking for love is a frustrating thing
it's best to just stop, and see what God brings

One little thing, or a thousand, it's hard to know
can't organize it, put it in a box
like a trillion stars bursting in all directions but somehow making sense, intricate designs upon designs upon designs
chaotic and complex, but beautiful in our complexity
they try to make it all work, to put together the puzzle
order, organization, stability, rules
Fear. Fear brings everything into perspective for some
and nothing makes sense to others. Spurring to action or inaction. Not all action is visible though. Invisible action the more powerful of the two by far. The pen, for instance, ever mightier than the sword. Takes much more action to use effectively and powerfully.
Sometimes things don't make sense to some, but perfect sense to others. Boxes are made for the dead, not for the things that run around in your head.

true love's kiss a wishful thing
like the delicateness of a butterfly wing
you make me weak in my stupid knees
'cause you scare me as much as a horde of bees
my love for you is purest white
but when you draw near, I take flight
I timidly tried to give you my heart
but you sat and laughed as you tore it apart
the lesson I hope you all learn from my mess
Be brave! Have courage! True love is fearless!