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Fearless Nov 2018

A long *** flight to parts unknown
A beautiful town becomes your home
With jagged mountains topped with snow
And crystal lakes lay far below
A bustling town with lots of bars
A canopy of brilliant stars
A jet boat ride a ledge bungy
A cruise with dolphins out to sea
Snowboarding with awesome friends
Until the season meets it's end
The adventure is continuing
It started off with canyoning
Sleeping in a car for weeks
To see new shores and snow capped peaks
From glaciers to beach in a single day
And free campgrounds where you can stay
Zorbing down a grassy hill
A private beach where you can chill
Caving through the dark abyss
Is definitely something not to miss
Adventures abound in these islands
And I'm gonna miss all my awesome friends
And now it's time to say goodbye
And to new adventures, off I fly.

Fearless Nov 2018

Love it and Leave it

If you love him set him free
when time is right, come back to me
that's what they say but **** it hurts
emotions up and down in spurts

I struggle not to think of you
because I don't know what to do
when your face pops into my head
I sometimes wish that I was dead

I try to smile at the day
then on my knees I cry and pray
my aching heart skips inside
there's nothing left I haven't tried

I often stare out into space
shimmering tears run down my face
lost in thought and then bought back
trying not to think thoughts of lack

the gym helps me ignore my pain
and gives me something else to gain
I study when I have a break
exhausted from the smile I fake

I love you so I let you go
if you'll come back I do not know
freedom is my way of life
but for you i'd rather be a wife

I never thought that I would wed
but that was before I shared your bed
you make me laugh but give me space
you wiped a teardrop from my face

you should know when you come back
that I was always keeping track
of things you said that gave me hope
and not what made me cry and mope

I thought about the happy things
and pictured us with wedding rings
I looked in eyes of deepest blue
and in there all I saw was you

I saw inside your deepest fears
like I was looking in two mirrors
I saw your hopes and all your dreams
and your thoughts and imaginings

I saw the love that was inside
even though you tried to hide
I know you thought you did what's right
you didn't even put up a fight

you left me raw and heartbroken
unlike any other men
you made me pray and hope to die
its the truth I cannot lie

I get by just day to day
thoughts of you still in my way
though it's been months I sometimes cry
better every day that passes by

because I love you as you are
no matter if your near or far
though distance is what did us in
I know that I will someday win

someday you'll want my heart as yours
with other guys there may be wars
I'm wild, fun, and always free
they're always trying to tame me

but you loved me and you let me go
so if i'll come back, you do not know
you'll find out if you'll only try
together I feel like we can fly

freedom is a tricky thing
it can be lost with one little ring
or that can be what sets you free
I guess we'll have to wait and see

This is an old poem that I wrote, but I just found it so I thought I'd put it up.

Fearless Nov 2018

Disney Downer Country Style

something something little lamb
all these poems are so sad
Mary probably ate that lamb
'cause she probly had no dad
and Old Yeller up and died
at least that's what i've heard is said
but i've never seen the movie
its so old now, he's probably dead
the little mermaid got divorced
because she missed her family
Mulan's life was totally forced
had to be a man just to be free
Eric must have drowned
tryin to get his wifey back
and once a queen is crowned
her main job is in the sack
poems are like country songs
they only talk of what is sad
a long long list of all the wrongs
they're focusing on all the bad
and if you read them backwards
do you think it all is happy things
all positive and happy words
rainbows, butterflies and birdies sing
laughter was my honest goal
but now I'm done with rambling
negativity can take a toll
but I feel for all those suffering

Just went through and read some poetry and it all seemed very down, so I thought i'd try to be a little funny.

Fearless Nov 2018

Heaven is a Place

Heaven is a place where there is no time
Where you're never late and there's always wine
Heaven is a place where the jobs don't ****
Where you never have to stick your hands in guck
Heaven is a place where babies don't cry
Where husbands and wives never cheat and lie
Heaven is a place with no disease
Where nobody gets stung by bees
Heaven is place with lots of food
Where it's also ok if you like to be ****
Heaven is a place where we don't get tired
Where we don't have bosses and we won't get fired
Heaven is a place where there is no dust
Where allergy pills are not a must
Heaven is a place where there is no cleaning
Where nothing we do is ever demeaning
Heaven is a place where we don't have to worry
Where there's no loved ones we have to bury
Heaven is a place where animals can talk
Where lions and lambs will together walk
Heaven is a place where we're never cold
Where our human bodies won't grow old
Heaven is a place where there is no trash
Where we won't have to sell junk to make more cash
Heaven is a place where we're never weak
Where no one is ever afraid to speak
Heaven is a place where hearts don't break
Where we don't have to feel that consuming ache
Heaven is a place where we're never alone
Where everyone here has found a home
Heaven is a place where there is no fear
Where you're truly alive, 'cause He's always near

Fearless Nov 2018

***** Skeezers

I sat right down upon the stool
Ignoring the eyes of the nearby fool
The bartender nodded and I ordered a drink
He had it to me quick as a blink
The the arrogant *******
Decided I was the one to scratch his itch
He came right over cool as can be
His clothes were screaming 'I have money'
He laid down his line, something about water
Didn't seem to matter I could be his daughter
Gave me the up-down look, I could see his mind
Normally to my elders I am quite kind
The sad thing is, he thinks it's fine
because the other girls do fall for that line
I wonder if he's ever thought
Is his daughter out there to be bought?
Since he decided not to use his mind
I decided to give him a piece of mine
But my Ferrari's just outside
Does he think I don't have any pride?
It's clear his brain is in his pants
And no thanks, not even just one dance
I look at a sad divorcee
And wonder if that'll be me someday
Watching a man my own age
Hitting on a ******* a different page
When I would love to take him to my room
And make him into my happy groom
I'd probably know a thing or two
That that young thing didn't know to do
But men will want what they can't have
And hit on girls when they could be her dad
But must we sit and suffer through
Their attempts to just ***** you?
For me I think that I will not
And though I get hit on quite a lot
I've got some things I'd like to share
With old men that get that stare
When they come for me they will find
An intelligent woman who speaks her mind
It's an uphill battle but it's gotta be fought
So Skeezers know we can't be bought!

Fearless Nov 2018

Heart & Sea

Here I sit upon the sand
Holding my heart in my hand
Reaching it out to the sea
An offering to what beckons me
My wild heart has found a home
One that leaves me free to roam
Allowed to laugh and be myself
Not sitting on some proper shelf
To fly and fall and sometimes break
And often making my heart ache
But even with the pain I feel
When my passion stirs so real
To let it have me heart and soul
But sweet surrender costs a toll
A life full of adventuring
Does not come without suffering
The ocean took my heart like theft
Sometimes I wonder what is left
But now my heart is not my own
It melted from it's former stone
Awakened from a fitful sleep
By stirrings under the great deep
The beatings in my chest subside
As I become the sea's corpse bride
Pulled so deep I cannot breathe
But not having the strength to leave
I'm lost and found the sea owns me
I'll love it when it's killing me

Fearless Nov 2018

Life and Death

An acorn is a tiny thing
But out of it a giant springs
It makes a home for birds and bugs
The roots give rocks and boulders hugs
Below it's branches leaves are dried
And broken hearted souls have cried
Tombstones lie below this one
Someone lost their only son
A stream of water near another
Where someone buried their dead mother
But back to other happy things
The peacefulness, wind whisperings
Powerful and mighty is this tree
That it puts hope inside of me
A mosquito flies around my head
Not bothering the lucky dead
But he brings hope to my heart
To get me up for a fresh start
You think you're too small to affect big things
Take note from that tiny terrorist with wings
God gave us nature for peace to be found
That's why I'm sitting here on the ground
People are buried all over the place
That's why this spot has a different pace
No one is worried or hurrying by
Nobody crying or asking God why
They've been sleeping for hundreds of years
Their prayers have been answered, no more tears
They sleep and wait for the glorious Son
To come down and say, 'alas, it is done.'

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