vanity.
Infinitely.
What is Reality?
Who am I without a family?
Life itself is so costly.
People living without morality.
Everything is a war, always using a sentry.
Life is no comedy.
Always expressing feelings externally.
Unless they are you, you hurt them internally.
Someone always using profanity.
This is the direct definition of insanity.
People out there committing adultery.
Why cant hate end with mortality?
Why does war have to go on for an eternity?

We've tried time and time again and it didn't work and that's on me. Now you're gonna go to college and I'm going in the Navy. All the pain I've caused you will always be my biggest regret. And you'll always be someone I never forget. You know I love you and you are my north star in my sea of seemingly never ending drama and trauma. When it comes to you I'm always in a dilemma. Do i be selfish and try to be with you again. Or do I finally let you go so you can find your dream man. I am truly sorry for my selfish actions. Especially since I always get the same reaction. Idk if we will ever be together in the future or not. But at least for now I can't shake the feelings that I've caught. Because of you I will always stride to be a better human being. I also know that seeing is believing. So let me show you the man that I can be. Because you're the only one I want to spend my eternity.

All my life I would run
Then I met you
You stopped me from flying to close to the sun
No one could make me feel like you do
All I wanted to do was be with you
Tell you your'e smart, kind, and cute
You were my parachute
And then you left
Like a soprano without a treble cleft
I started to run again
Made me feel like a grain in the sand
How could I move on?
Without you I flew into the sun
I didn't even get to say my part
Living without you made me fall apart
All I have to say about everything is that I'm done

Every day I wake up thinking of you
Nothing ever changes
It's like roses are red violets are blue
Because of my love I can write many pages
I never thought I could have two
Be able to love and be on all the stages
You are my light in the tunnel
I wish I was there so we could cuddle
Every day I wake up thinking of you
Every day I sleep because of you

Going round and round
Been all over the world
Never have I ever heard a sound
Sound that reached the clouds
You singing could stop a war

When I was little you were my hero
All you left in your wake is sorrow
Made me lose hope in a better tomorrow
When I was little I used to look up to you
Instead of number one I feel like your number two
If only you had any clue
Your parenting is long over due
I wish you knew how much I really miss you
You turned something so bright into a dark blue
I really wish I can be made anew
There's so many things I wish I can undo
You turn my heart black and blue
When I am older I wish I can forgive you

I
   Loved
               You

I wake up to the thought of you. I go to sleep to the thought of you. When I am without you I think of you.Every second of Everyday You are on my mind. When I am with you all I think about is why you don't feel the same. I see the way you look at me. I see the way you act. I see the way you look I him. I will never be him. I will never be as smart, handsome, and courageous. I can promise to always love you, I will always be there for you, I will always listen even when you don't want me too. Everyday I will always love you even though you don't know I exist.

The truth of the matter is love is the most ****** up drug of them all. The truth of the matter is it can either save you from the pain or make you raw. Yes heroine crack ******* can **** you from an overdose, but reality is no drug can come close. Growing up everyone said don't do drugs yet movies and TV promoting kisses and hugs. No one ever prepares you for what happens when you take the love away. Then all the pain comes and stays. I'm addicted to you. To your eyes your smile and even your perfume. And when I lost your love I found myself looking for a new drug. But the truth of the matter is I can't live my life with out you in it. And it not like I save our relationship from all the pain I brought to it. So I'm left here with pain and sorrow. Oddly enough the only hope I have is I'll talk to you tomorrow.

When I was little you were my biggest hero
But all you had left was sorrow
You made me lose hope in a better tomorrow

I was broken
I was distraught
All have been spoken
But nothing was taught
My mind is overtaken
By something to be bought
You are so loud spoken
While I am not
I feel forsaken
That’s the end of this plot

When I was little I used to look up to you
If only you had any clue
That your parenting is long overdue
That I’ll always miss you

What is this reality
What am I without a family
You’re living with no morality
This isn’t some sick stand-up comedy
I keep my feelings internally
Because you kept hurting me externally
Oh my god this is insanity

When I was little I didn’t know what to do
Even though you hurt me I still love you
That’s what sons are supposed to do
Despite the fact, you turned my skin black and blue

Yeah I was broken
I was distraught
And all has been spoken
But nothing was taught
My mind is overtaken
By something to be bought
Why are you so loud spoken
When I am not
I feel so forsaken
But That’s the end of this plot