I feel loving
is right now  
the last thing
I'm capable of doing

When all the love and hope
Was soaked out of me
I was blown away by the wind
Like an autumn dry leaf.

Please  
I'll put my mask on of "happiness."
When you see me put this mask on,
Pull it off and ask me what's wrong.

If I lie to you,
Which I probably will,
Slap me.

When I slap you back,
Pull my hand back,
And wrestle me to the ground,
Force the truth out of me,
Then console me with hugs and kisses
As the tears begin to fall.

The sun is shining,

But I couldn't see.

The wind is blowing,

But I couldn't breathe.

The darkness remains to stay upon me

If no one comes,

My heart would bleed.



My senses are lost,

Please lead me the way

If you promise not to break

The promises you make.

I trusted many before you came

They broke my heart

'Cause they wanted some fame.

And now I am here standing alone

I just want myself to be unknown.



The people are driving me insane

They do nothing but give me more and more pain

Their laughter rips my ears,

Slowly making a way for my tears.



The clouds burst with a growling grin

The rain pours down upon my skin

Alone I stand beneath the rowdy rain

Because all my endeavor went vain

I drench myself wishing my thoughts would melt

removing all the pain that I ever felt.

Its all in us...the consumer... it feeds on the living. Untill the heartbeat has stop. Life has to end to give to another. We all struggle and fustrate one aanother to give more and more... what happens when.. what is givin is gone. All your left with is a storm of chaos, but even within all this,
all this maddness and chaos there is peace.  We all have that one spot, that one place that we can go to too relax and slow down for a minute. This new age, the one I was born into is very questionable...

Do you feel it? The weight of the dirt, may it be upon your shoulders, may it be ipon your grave. All the matters in the end is that we're the same. In my opinion, i think we should all be buried in the earth bare body, that way we all fully givin back to our real mother. I know that we are born of a male and a female. But with out mother earth we would never have a mother, nor a father. So we must give back to our mother earth all that we owe her...