Simply loving her cost me more, more Than i could ever fall.
Simply saying i love you,
I must let you go.

You’re close yet so far, I have a lot to Say
but guess the words don’t mean too much,

Would you want me to take you?
To be free of sadness and loneliness too?
You precious one. You forgotten how..
How lovely it is to be merry now.

Light will come and find you someday,
You won’t have to struggle to breathe everyday.
Don’t give up the journey called life.
Soon you’ll find the joy of being alive.

If can just fabricate my own thoughts, my own love, my own you. Maybe it will be more easier.

She always has those killing smile.
With a terrible lying eyes.

She can be tough and rough, but too easy when it comes to love.

Her presence was like a safe haven,
A keeper,.
A savior,
So things won't further fall apart.

She cries and laugh,
to elude the sting and smile like nothings happening.

She lost so much,
But still willing to give more away

Understands that thorns supposed to protect her,
without any complaints on how she is Bruised Every time.

How I wanted you so badly
How this pity words rush out to change your mind
How I longed having, be able to hug you once again?
Watching those rogue waves attack the shore how cruel of me thinking I’d grip you so tight
so right that I’ll never see you taken away by those currents
As much as I keep rushing to reach you enjoyed the salty environment that he fed you,
I waited and waited
For minutes,
For hours,
For days,
but all I had was silence and with the absence of your words I took it as an answer,

Sweetie, a love where one gets hurt doesn’t exist

"I wanted you to love me, but I don't think you will."
Oh! How have I longed to tell you these words still.
No matter how scared I am of the answer,
My overflowing feelings is the only thing that is clear.

Putting these emotions to words is so frightening,
But somehow I can't stop from smiling.
The happiness brought by our encounter,
Kept me praying for it to last forever.

I wanted to look into your eyes,
But my eyes were filled with cowardice.
I didn't want to know that you didn't love me,
And live the rest of my life sad and lonely.

So that day, I kept loving you without getting hurt.
Because I knew, my feelings won't ever be returned.

I contained all  my reasons, hope, and expectations
in my third layered mask.
So no one will see and interfere,
  and as all my wishes turned into ash.

I was trapped in that nightmare again, my nightmare didn’t happen just once.

When you love someone, you also give them the power to hurt you.

Remembering you is easy,
I do it all the time.
But
Missing you is the  heartache that never goes away.

Palangga-a nga uwat limitasyon.
Taw-e it kahayag sa dueom
Ibihi sa kalisod ag saeom,
Aeam-eami sa kanabaw kapin sa kadaeom
Maskin pilang halimtang do abuton ayaw it kahawag,
palangga-on ka higapon sa kahayag ag dueom.

Sweetie, a love where no one gets hurt doesn’t exists.

Some things will get broken, and as a result you’d never be able to see the world the way it used to be.

She was beautiful,
but not like other girls,
She was strong like the trees in the mountains range,
She was beautiful on the way she fills up some peoples emptiness that even she cannot do to herself.
She wasn’t beautiful with that mask of her,
She is beautiful because of the silver linings in her back and clutch right through the heart.

Nothing seems to matter anymore,

I thought the pain was no more, but seeing you made me unsure.

Is it suppose to make you happy?
This days aren't inexplicable.

When least expected, clowns should show up anytime right.

But waiting are for nothing aren't they .

Another lonely birthday tho.

Slept again last night with a heavy heart, and it felt normal-ish

Lately leaving doesn't matter anymore;

When you care bout things, it always ends up wearing you out.

Today my Neverland seems to be dark and cold,
the forest got scarier and all the fireflies been hiding for quite a long time.
But I can do is accept it,
it feels like hell driving your own life to its course, but you have always a choice right?
Either you turn left or right and yet still feel the same.
Telling myself to live life to the fullest, pleasure all the given moments, I think  you call  it being happy,  but all this memento of happiness will just shatter, all it takes is just a single pain maybe its small but grows in a nick of time,
I insured my myself all this tiresome **** will be gone it only needs a rest. Each night would feel a torture thinking all the Stupidest things that I did.
  Just wiping the tears away telling myself I'm strong just like God planned,
  i just woke up feeling that I couldn't handle it anymore, but again i still have a choice it's either be threatened by myself or I could disappoint all my demons.
Each day i  start to seek all my strenght and will to go on, searching  someone to talk maybe have some a little bit of company or rather have someone that can do a little saving.
silly me been  expecting too much from people again.
Cause nowadays people often see you as normal in every aspect happy and Kickin, little do they know I'm broken, too far broken.

Cigarette always taste better during rainy days,

Someone's screaming, can't you hear it?
Someone's  aching, can't you feel it?
Someone's  drowning, can't  you see it?
Selfish mongrel help,
Help yourself.

She was like the moon, every part of her was covered with silked ink.
Still uncovering
those magic mystery smile of hers,
Out of sanity
That glummy smile tells every fearing moment should never unveil.
Cuz every part of her is a mystery full of history;

Being happy is seeing you with that sweet warm smile,