Simply loving her cost me more, more Than i could ever fall.
Simply saying i love you,
I must let you go.

You’re close yet so far, I have a lot to Say
but guess the words don’t mean too much,

Would you want me to take you?
To be free of sadness and loneliness too?
You precious one. You forgotten how..
How lovely it is to be merry now.

Light will come and find you someday,
You won’t have to struggle to breathe everyday.
Don’t give up the journey called life.
Soon you’ll find the joy of being alive.

If can just fabricate my own thoughts, my own love, my own you. Maybe it will be more easier.

She always has those killing smile.
With a terrible lying eyes.

She can be tough and rough, but too easy when it comes to love.

Her presence was like a safe haven,
A keeper,.
A savior,
So things won't further fall apart.

She cries and laugh,
to elude the sting and smile like nothings happening.

She lost so much,
But still willing to give more away

Understands that thorns supposed to protect her,
without any complaints on how she is Bruised Every time.

How I wanted you so badly
How this pity words rush out to change your mind
How I longed having, be able to hug you once again?
Watching those rogue waves attack the shore how cruel of me thinking I’d grip you so tight
so right that I’ll never see you taken away by those currents
As much as I keep rushing to reach you enjoyed the salty environment that he fed you,
I waited and waited
For minutes,
For hours,
For days,
but all I had was silence and with the absence of your words I took it as an answer,

Sweetie, a love where one gets hurt doesn’t exist

"I wanted you to love me, but I don't think you will."
Oh! How have I longed to tell you these words still.
No matter how scared I am of the answer,
My overflowing feelings is the only thing that is clear.

Putting these emotions to words is so frightening,
But somehow I can't stop from smiling.
The happiness brought by our encounter,
Kept me praying for it to last forever.

I wanted to look into your eyes,
But my eyes were filled with cowardice.
I didn't want to know that you didn't love me,
And live the rest of my life sad and lonely.

So that day, I kept loving you without getting hurt.
Because I knew, my feelings won't ever be returned.

I contained all  my reasons, hope, and expectations
in my third layered mask.
So no one will see and interfere,
  and as all my wishes turned into ash.

I was trapped in that nightmare again, my nightmare didn’t happen just once.

Nothing seems to matter anymore,

If I can only muster the words, the guts to tell you.
If I can say it easily without being cowardice with those velvet eyes.
You see I’m a man of my words but I also get tongue tied.
So please be kind and tell me how you feel about me cause it’s making me nuts.
Some, will you just say it. Just be you. Tell her what you feel.
But you see when things get hard, I always ******* ***** things leaving me blank.
I’m just afraid.
Afraid of rejection,
And telling you how I feel is just an option.
Look at me a coward, simple words but I can’t tell you,
I maybe be a coward will not tell you how I feel but deep inside I’m The Who cares loves  you more than you know.
prayed for you when someone else wouldn’t.
I’m afraid.
Afraid that I’ll be a burden, a person that will not give what you want, be what you want.
But I promise you even if this love is unrequited I’ll still care cherish you the most and be the man you’ll run even if it’s against the world.

Today my Neverland seems to be dark and cold,
the forest got scarier and all the fireflies been hiding for quite a long time.
But I can do is accept it,
it feels like hell driving your own life to its course, but you have always a choice right?
Either you turn left or right and yet still feel the same.
Telling myself to live life to the fullest, pleasure all the given moments, I think  you call  it being happy,  but all this memento of happiness will just shatter, all it takes is just a single pain maybe its small but grows in a nick of time,
I insured my myself all this tiresome **** will be gone it only needs a rest. Each night would feel a torture thinking all the Stupidest things that I did.
  Just wiping the tears away telling myself I'm strong just like God planned,
  i just woke up feeling that I couldn't handle it anymore, but again i still have a choice it's either be threatened by myself or I could disappoint all my demons.
Each day i  start to seek all my strenght and will to go on, searching  someone to talk maybe have some a little bit of company or rather have someone that can do a little saving.
silly me been  expecting too much from people again.
Cause nowadays people often see you as normal in every aspect happy and Kickin, little do they know I'm broken, too far broken.

You look fine to them,
a delight,
but
how long do you have to wear a mask in front of them.

As I open my eyes everything was new,
As I start to hear;
things so unusual from the silence I knew
Each step lead to countless try’s,
to call the person.
I really know who carried me till I grew,
Further efforts made a breakthrough;
I can laugh, walk and even scream like a fool...
Till now she’s always there,
She always understands;
She always forgives;
She always protects me;
Even though I’m strong enough to stand on my own.

She was beautiful, but not like other girls,
She was strong like the trees in the mountains range,
She was beautiful on the way she fills up some peoples emptiness that even she cannot do to herself.
She wasn’t beautiful with that mask of her,
She is beautiful because of the silver linings in her back and clutch right through the heart.

Please cant save everybody, so please Make an effort.
Save yourself from drowning

When you notice that you always smile even Though it's too much
When you always say I'm fine when it's breaking,
When you say sorry even Though it still Aches,
When you deny your real self to someones help
When you convert all the frustrations to Madness, So, they won't notice it affects you more,
When you  burst into tears just to feel normal when you drink too much with your friends make them think you're too strong to handle all the liquor but deep inside you drink to Mend all the Heartaches and pain.

Lately leaving doesn't matter anymore;

Love is not a test,
Then why cheat?

It was the silence that understood my heartbeat, and it has its own life racing like its the last minute.

For quite so long it felt like a ghost, scarry and unseen until love arrive,
Having
Moments likes this never felt the same,  leap through time, and a sip of eternity made it longed for more,
Still
Hoping there would be an exquisite kind of love, without the possibility of shatter,

How it feels to be loved,
Felt it before, and  forgotten how it  feels.

Learned something more valuable that
Love is greater than words, and that is the reason silence is involved.

That not all poems needs to rhyme sometimes all it takes is you.

I thought the pain was no more, but seeing you made me unsure.

Lost and lonely under my midnight sun.
Staring at the ocean,
drowned with  my thoughts,
thinking all the words to help myself to continue to make it work.

The feeling's I knew started to come true,
in every dark corners it brews,

Screaming but the words can't make it through.

A kind of torture where you
Chained the truth,
To create something new.

created a contract where the night will only knew,

Where tears fall to admit it's deepest hue.

May be its the smile,
The maybe's or the joke.

It's getting heavy,
It starts to Conquer me.

The moon was my guide
On a late glum night never let me be swallowed by the dark,
The trees watch as I pass an Unending narrow roads,
The footsteps keeps the silence at bay.
The heart kept me warm and strong

Would you want me to take you?
To be free of sadness and loneliness too?
You precious one. You forgotten how..
How lovely it is to be merry now.

Those dark dull eyes of yours,
How agonizing to gaze at my eyes with no remorse,

Nothing could be reflected at all.
Lifeless.. where you have locked up your soul.
Light will come and find you someday,

You won’t have to struggle to breathe everyday.
Don’t give up the journey called life.
Soon you’ll find the joy of being alive.