An endless sea
I beat upon your shores
Seeking to pound
The hard rocks of your indifference
Into the soft sands of love

Through frosty nights
And searing summer days
I crashed and thundered
Flaunting a million rainbows
At the noon day sun

At last
The task is done
Meek and pliant you lie
In my warm embrace
But this saltiness
Whence did it come
Are these my tears
Or yours?

Memories are slowly fading
Of a past that once was mine
As I reflect upon them
I'm shocked I once believed it fine

Gentle hands stroked my skin
While harsh words spoke aloud
Stuck in a state of confusion
Living under a dark cloud

I gazed into her eyes
Searching for her soul
Perhaps she was broken
Healing her became my goal

For every sweet word I spoke
Every loving act I made
It was never good enough
Feelings just continued to fade

Even if it slowly killed me
I refused to give up on her
Believing that defined love
What a confused amateur

I glimpse over letters
Of words we once wrote
Of journals my heart poured into
My healthiest way to cope

My way of moving forward
Was holding onto memories of my past
Feeling grateful for what I now have
Knowing with her this will last

On the outside is where all the lies are gathered together,that smile on my face..its all a lie..I only want to make people happy.I don't like making myself happy.
     Then the surface of the lie goes down deeper..even though it seems like I  am okay,or I  tell you i'm okay,i'm not.It's another lie,it's another secret I will never tell anyone.
     My anxieties and my depression is taking over me shutting myself out from everyone in this world.I want to ask for help but I can't because nobody will understand what I am going through.It is to hard to live in this world...This society...just...I wanna shut people out but some keep trying to reach out to me..
    My depression kicks in..everyone stops worrying,but I don't care.They were probably acting nice,because they wanted to be seen as a nice person.Then,when I finally accepted them,they pushed themselves away from me.They threw me out..like a piece of trash that they didn't need anymore.This drove me to not trust anyone..Not even myself.I started to have more thoughts,less feelings..I started to look..dead..
   I didn't want to be in this world anymore.But I knew I had to,even though no one would miss me.So I started to hurt myself..I got caught..I was put into therapy..but it didn't help..soon..when I was alone...I wrote a note only saying..."Goodbye..". That's the only thing I said."Goodbye"That is all that Needed to be said.So I left that world,and went to the after life.I felt ,happy again,a weight that has been lifted off of my shoulders.But that is all I will say for now..Good bye
                                                             ­              Sincerely,
                                                      ­                                Anonymous