I was hiding in a shell
A shell made by the regrets
On which my demons dwell.
After you came,
You shattered that shell;
Making me realize that my life
had been everything but mine…
I was trapped and choked,
I never dared to look my demons in the eye.
Let alone raise my voice.
I aimed an arrow right at the demon’s heart;
I raised my voice high -So high
that all the hisses were drowned.
Though I didn’t live, just survived
I could see my carefully controlled future.
I was relieved and maybe satisfied.
My present seems like a complete mess;
My future is totally blurred,
And my past became a distant land, in a faraway galaxy.
After you came,
I was hurt again and again.
So often that my wounds never seemed to stop bleeding;
So often that I was sure I would be covered with scars…
By the time I realized, what was happening
We were already in too deep.
You left me; I was alone
nursing my wounds, each wound
a painfully beautiful memory.
That was when I began to wonder,
If the demon was just trying to protect me
maybe the demon cared for me, in its own way.
Maybe I’m too naive to realize that.
But even after all those realizations;
Even after all those scars and lies;
I couldn’t turn my back on you
Like a fool I ran back to you.
You were relieved when I returned
I’m glad I behaved like a fool.
‘Cause after being back, I understood
how broken you are.
When I looked closely, I noticed
that all that beauty of yours that I was drawn to
was covering all the scars and pain
you had to endure.
I believe that together, over time
we will heal each other.
With a bit of love and care,
I can put back all your broken pieces
And you can cover all my scars.
You have the capacity to bring out
the worst in me;
And you did do that.
I have the power to bring out
the best in you;
And I will keep doing that
‘Cause whatever souls are made of
yours and mine are the same
Our lives before each other
were…were beautiful disasters.
And now after each other…
I think it’s just…After;