I found joy with you
Everyday a different adventure
Everyday a different memory committed
I’m sad those days are gone
I’m happy they happened though

When it came to her I wrote so much
But when it comes to you I don’t know what to say
My heart isn’t whole anymore
You took my words
You took my joy
You took my reason for staying here
You broke me
And you were the only one that ever could
The day you left and your presence floated away
You took everything left in me that day

You know I heard a bird today,
Told me what you had to say.
You know I heard some awful things about myself,
Things I didn’t even know until now.
You know I heard they came from you,
Someone I called friend til now.
You know I should have been angry when I heard the words you released to the world,
But instead I’m just sad and confused.
You know it broke my heart a little,
To hear the things you said.
You know I think I’ll lay down for a little,
So I can try to ignore this all instead.

What?
Is it something I said?
Did I offend your keen senses?
Did I make you sad with my observations?
Did I get a chance to defend myself?
Did I deserve the hate you spewed at me?
Is it wrong for me to be angry?
Is it wrong for me to be spiteful and finally say the truth?
Is it my fault you didn’t like what I had to say?
Am I the one who started this awful conflict?
Am I the one that pushed you to do those things to me?
Am I at fault for the anger I felt towards you after?
No, I don’t think I am.

I thought they were different,
But quickly found they were the same. Different sides to the same coin,
I have no one to blame,
But myself.
I let it all happen again.
I ask myself when will you learn?!
When will you learn to leave your thoughts anonymous,
Always quiet, always left out of this.
Obviously you can’t learn to trust the right people and always go for the wrong ones.
So why can’t I just keep my mouth shut,
Stuff the things I have to say down till the words cut.
It’d be better than blurting them to the wrong person again..
How am I supposed to trust people again?

Gods I’m so tired of this..
I never got closure so how do people expect me to get past it..
Gods I just want it to stop because I’m sooo broken over this..
Gods are you even listening?
Can’t one of you make this stop happening?

I can hear you
Chip chip chipping away at your cage.
I helped you
Then got stuck in your place.
How does the freedom I once had taste?
Do you even remember the way these walls closed in on you?
Or do you not care cause now that you’re free it’s not your problem?
Well aren’t you just sooo sweet...