That last image is burned behind my eye lids
That last message is burned into my heart
That last moment is burned into my soul

There’s a crack in my soul
There’s a knife in my heart
There’s a burn in my eye lids

I want to be blind
I want to rip my heart out
I want to sell my soul
For yours

Can we trade places
Can we talk again
Can we see each other

You were the glue
You were my roller coaster buddy
You were my best friend

Now you are a memory
Now you are a conversation
Now you are ashes in a necklace

Gods I miss you

I woke up this morning and cried
A flash of you crossed my mind
And it wasn’t what I wanted to see

I drove home last night and cried
A flash of your voice crossed my ears
And I realized it’s not yours

I sat down to eat and cried
A flash of your favorite food crossed my eyes
And I know you won’t taste it again

I now picture a sheet over you
I now hear parts of your voice
I now enjoy your favorites alone

I need sleep
I can feel my spirit breaking and my insides aching
I need a breather
But when I try I lose the air in my lungs
I need a break but all I can feel is myself breaking

I’ve come to realize I’ve given my affection to the wrong person for to long
Gave them to many chances to hurt me and then defend them
Yet I can’t stop myself from loving them like I did all those other times

I hate this overwhelming feeling
The things that hit you at once and make you start reeling
The moments you hit the floor and can’t help but start kneeling
Broken to the things that you can never quite block out.

You once asked why I didn’t have another person to share my bed with
You once asked why I didn’t have another person to share my heart with
You once asked why I was still alone
You once made it seem like you wanted to be that person