You used me for years
Because you knew I would always run back to you
You said that you loved me
That I was the only one
The only one that you saw
The only one that you could think about
You tricked me into loving you
With my heart and my body
I thought those words were real
All the lies you told me
They were so convincing cause you said them daily
When I finally told you no and I stood my ground
You just shrugged and left me there like I was nothing
Only to go to the next girl and tell her she was your everything
And now I sit here with a broken heart that still yearns for you

Why do I torture myself.
I remind myself of you.
Those feelings you caused.
Those thoughts I’ve thought while fighting to stay alive.
You creep back up and ruin the walls I built.
Why can’t you just stay away.
You leave me to just return when I’m finally living?
Just to **** me all over again.
Maybe I should just stay dying.

Have you ever wondered what life would be like if one thing was changed?
That one thing can create a chain reaction?
That one decision could change humanity?

If you never got that text. The one that sent your world spiraling.
If you never bullied that kid. The one who killed himself.
Or what about that other kid. The one that they told you would be funny to spill your lunch on? The one who  later killed so many people.
Or that girl. The one you told was never going to be skinny or pretty enough? The one who doesn't eat anymore.
If you never drank that alcohol and got into that car? Would you have not killed that girls parents who you crashed into?

If you never got that text. Would you be happy right now?
If you never bullied that kid. Would he be alive right now?
If you didn't spill your lunch on that kid. Would he not **** all those people?
If you told that girl she was beautiful. Would she be eating and not
slowly killing herself?
If you never got into that car. Would that girls parents still be alive?

So have you wondered what would happen if one thing was changed?
Think about it before you do something.
What chain reaction will this make?

You forgot about me,
but you never leave my mind.
I try to unsee you,
but your face is always there.
In front of me.
Taunting me.
All those memories of us.
They meant nothing to you,
but everything to me.
I was just a conquest.
A show for everyone to laugh at.
You may have never been in love with me,
but I’ve never stopped loving you.