I have learned so much I wish others could see.
Things I never dreamed of that are now part of me.
A feminine side I would never let out,
now shines like a diamond, like sun through the clouds.

I understand feeling female, my God, I really do.
But I seem to be the only one here who cares for this move.
I'm blessed by it more than words can say,
yet I feel I'm the only one here who cares
and loves this new me, at the end of each day.

I just feel so alone, like there's no one to show,
these wonderful things that now make my heart glow.
Will they matter to my wife, or just push her away.
I remember a year ago and I'm so different today.
Do my neighbors care, as they pass by and say hi,
or am I just another face to them trying to survive.

Its a wonderful feeling when you know you've changed,
and become a new person that none could explain.
I just want to tell everyone here in my life,
how happy I am now and that I feel I can fly.

Inside of my soul I know that I'm Trans,
but what does that mean and what does it matter,
If I have no one here close to share that part with.
No one will ever know me, and who I've become,
and I'll one day just vanish, and fade and be gone,
like the sun at the end of the day,
just another smile in a few peoples memory.

by LJ Mark, 4/24/15

I know you like the grains in my canoe,
That Ive spent hours painting,
I know you like the Bob Cat,
Ate the cat next door,
Like the bag of coke,
Someone forgot to smoke,
We played with it till we got lit,
Each other eats it's own kind,
He screamed, "you're a dangerous woman in heaven, you're a dangerous woman in heaven"
I'm just a teenager,
Who traces tile floors cause I'm bored,
Who likes laces and fine wines,
Even though I haven't drank any,
My head is filled with books,
I'm hungry,
But you say its worth it,
To not eat of the same kind.