I journey with those who have marched beside me
and
Feast with those who I have starved with.

As I sit
In a cloud
Memories screaming
So loud
I ponder on what could have been
If I wasn't so proud
then.

Resting in soil.
Fed by water.
Raised by light.
I sit and wait for my birth.
Care for me like I'm one of your own.

Love is numb...
Hate is null...
Last breath...
Last heartbeat...
Goodbye, My Dear...
I retreat.

The urge to purge from this submerged burg delivers a vast surge of courage and whispers of dirge.

Blow...
Oh beautiful breeze
Reach my love...
Touch her kindly
and
Come touch me soon...

Silence where ever we go
and
Silence when ever we dance.
Our moment is forever.

I know what you want and what you're thinking,
I can free your sexuality.
No one's ever tortured you with pleasure,
Pleasure's all you'll ever feel from me.
I just want to see you in the garden,
Dressed up as you came into this world.
Shining through the candle of deception,
Lighting up the underlying girl.

The beating continues
Until...
Morale improves.

She destroys me with her every crushing word,
Too seek her truth I dread.
She knows not of her beauty,
I said,
As we rest in separate beds.

Your chill will to drill and fill my gill
with an ill so shrill gives me a still thrill to ****
with a sharpened quill in hopes to distill and swill
a future bill of pills ending as a pulsing anthill
with a never ending refill of roadkill
like the piling dust at a memory sawmill.

Trapped in a vile marked
"The Past"
My heart wont let it pass
and
my mind slowly accepts the wrath.

Now I sit here deep in thought;
Remembering lessons learned and taught.
If I lost my memory and remembered one thing,
It would be how you made everyday shine and sing.

To give a **** or not to give a ****...
Would it matter?
That is the question.

As the black horse gallops through the night, A gut wrenching odor fills the air like a cruel warning to the demented and twisted, Blinding sparks flash from the beast's every step with deafening claps that bellows through the mind and collapses the heart. Souls drown in tears of fear that they may one day be chosen without mercy to ride the final ride in the chariot of the ****** for their wicked ways beyond eternity.

By the time I looked at the clock
Eyes widening with shock
Standing up
Too hurry up
Running into a grandfather's time source
We're both fine of course
Bursting threw my back porch
Hitting my dogs with the door
Leaping threw my bed room
Saving time I assume
Getting the **** out of my wallet
Packing it
Hitting it
What time is it?
4:21?!
**** it!!!

Keep your head up, Doll.
You're too beautiful for just the ground to see.

Old ways die with the sun rise.
New ways bloom with the moon.
A better life?
A better way?
Soon.
Soon.

When the tunes stop rappin'  
And
The silence happens
I'll still be snappin' and tappin'
After the coffin doors done wrappin'
And
I hear angle wings flappin'.

Did you know?
She is beautiful like the flowers in Spring.
Did you know?
She is warm like the Summer's breeze.
Did you know?
Everyday I fall for her like the Autumn leaves.
Did you know?
She is like the Winter's snow flakes, So unique.
Did you know?
She is my every season, With a sky so blue.
Did you know?
I love her.
Did you know?
"She" is You.

This Journey.
This Quest.
Has seen it's beautiful chaotic end and has been laid to rest.
Our Faith.
Our Loyalty.
Our Smiles and Cries.
Have not gone a moment without test.
All the pain.
All the stress.
Has met it's inevitable demise, for this is best.
With a crossed heart.
With a hope for death.
I tell you these words, for you they are my last breath.

We all have our own unique abilities and strengths. We all have unique thoughts and ways of thinking. We all have our own unique flaws. Problems. Mistakes we've made. And we might not always put our powers to good use and they might even be twisted. But, We also have our own unique motivations and inspirations to putting our unique powers into coping with the past and hitting the present head on. Rebuilding bridges we once burned. Righting wrongs. Mending broken hearts. Earning back trust. Making up for lost time. And letting bygones be bygones.  Losing ones mind helps find sanity, a broken heart grows strength and an honest "I'm sorry." never starts a fire.

*****
or
Wings?

Grow
a
pair.

The heart is brimmed
and still,
arrogantly hollow.

When we do right, nobody remembers. When we do wrong, nobody forgets.

Her long thick string tightly tied,
can't cut or break.
Grasped firmly,
freedom and sanity it takes.
As I stray from the post in the ground down,
the string stretches and I rebound.
Dragging me back, through mud, rock and stone,
Back at this post I sit sore, tired and alone.

A million minds and a million voices.
A million thoughts and only one choice.

Hey, Look! A Pirate ship!
Oh,****! Oh, ****!
A Pirate ship!
Look over there! A new Pirate ship!
Oh, ****! Oh, ****!
A new Pirate ship!
Look every where! At all of the ships!
Oh, ****! Oh, ****!
All the Pirate ships!
What do we do?! With all the Pirate ships!
Oh, ****! Oh, ****!
All the Pirate ships!
Share the Herb! Through Blunts and Splifs!
The Herb! The Herb!
Rolled in Blunts and Splifs!
And after we feast! On cheese covered treats!
We feast! We feast!
On cheese covered treats!
And after we sleep! On soft cotton sheets!
We sleep! We sleep!
On soft cotton sheets!
And when we awake! Again we will bake!
We'll bake! We'll Bake!
Again we will bake!
After they've thanked us! And returned in peace!
In Peace! In Peace!
They returned in Peace!
Sharing the wealth! With bags full of seeds!
With seeds! With seeds!
With bags full of seeds!
We've started a new friendship! With everyone in need!
Indeed! Indeed!
The whole worlds need!
We've calmed the mainland! And tamed all of the seas!
The seas! The seas!
We tamed all the seas!
Uniting the world of all Races and Creeds!
Banded together!
With one heart beat!
Our World is cleaner and we're Poverty free!!!
And to think it all started, with just one hit of ****!!!
One hit of ****! One hit of ****!
One hit of ****! One hit of ****!!!

Round and around and around and around we go, Where we'll end up nobody knows.
With smiles and fireworks or in a casket with a Rose?

Pass/Fail?
I failed to pass before,
Now I'm passed the failure.

As I watch the birds bathe, I notice their security, their strength, their knowledge of their surroundings, their peace. Knowing it's not the same bath as yesterdays or the days before. Knowing that possibly any second a larger predator could attack whether it's be a hungry cat, a protective dog, or a bored kid with a new BB gun and yet they just bathe, peacefully splashing around like it's their own water park, just to move on and find another, bigger or smaller. I like the concept of a birds life, I could stay and play or spread my winds and fly far far away finding new water parks each and everyday.

With peace, One instantly recognizes war.

I will not run, I will not stray, I'll still be here when you return...
someday.

I've got a vendetta.
But, I’m still breathing, I’m still alive, you tried to ruin me, to crucify.
I've got a vendetta.
It burns in my veins, it’s sweet revenge when I see your pain.
I've got a vendetta.
It’s not a physical attack, but with every breath I get you back.
I've got a vendetta.
It gets me through, I keep on living in spite of you.

Hands feel like shotguns, locked and loaded.
Smoke feels like oxygen, clean and crisp.
Mind set on chaos and destruction.
Let it burn.
Let it burn!

Jean and cotton bread crumb trail sways down the hall,
Wall hangings and table tops twisted after the storm's calm,
Bedside table her earrings rest like her head on my chest,
Sun shines threw the window lighting her hair, caressing her cheek, polishing the diamonds in her eyes.
Viewing Heaven without death, she is the thief to my breath.

Spread the cush
Give'r a shush
Warn the push
Baby
We're goin' in the ****.

Both I have and both I give,
both makes my life leak like a sieve.
If I give up both maybe I'll live?

Smoke ring poems fill endless space. Specs flare with red, sights clear as crystal. Thoughts running in a current, crashing like waves, churning up a tsunami just to calm, leaving the ship to sail threw no debris. Poetry turns to scribbles coating space with jibber. Specs blur with fog, sights fade in a haze. Thoughts cease, hiding like treasure, sinking into the abyss just to rust, leaving no riches for you and me.

Your eyes are so breath taking, like a starry midnight. The blue dark and deep, with crystal shards like stars.

Her impossible colors, his eyes had to evolve before he could see.

I was walking down the street, when out the corner of my eye I seen this little bitty bag under a tree. Attached to this lil bag was a paper and a note that read "Roll it, **** it and let your mind run free." Well, I looked back at my life and noticed all the strife, then I said "Maybe this could better my ways." I thought "It's such a small amount, What could it possibly to do to myself?" I took 3 hits and this is what I said "Whoa, This **** could calm all the wicked." "Even better it grows on trees" "Well, I got to say, this is good **** and to think I got this whole joint for free." But, this can't go down, without a pay back, though I don't know who did this or why. So, I took the roach and added it to the note and wrote "This is for the next guy."

Learn her song, The song in her heart, and sing it to her when she has forgotten.

Hair up, down or a twisted ball. Make up removed. I want to see you.
White tank top or T, size too big or size to small.
Shorts or sweat pants rolled at the waist.
All accessories off, I now gaze at your natural state.
Sit, stand or lay, Your presence is my grace. Making my mind sway.
This image of you; forever in my memory shall it stay.

Take it, Break it, Do not forsake it. Pay the toll, Make the roll, Free you mind and soul. Smoke the joint, Get the point, It will not disappoint. Big **** full of smoke do not take it for a joke. I took the time to jot this down cause there ain't **** to do in this town.

A vast grasp traps you in a dark cast when you bask behind a mask.