Staring at you it was clear to see
you don’t need, want or desire me.

Your eyes cast me aside in a way your words cannot, you want to hurry up and forget me, leave this rot.

Push me away and then hold me close
You know how to hurt me and cure me the most

If only things were different and the past was left where it belongs, maybe just maybe we could have been strong

Here we are both alone, but is that not what you wanted, if it wasn’t you would phone

Is it time to let go, close our hearts once more and allow us both to grow?

****. I miss you x

This rope don’t choke it feels good
Hanging from the ceiling escaping this feeling  
My smile beams my eyes hollow
Will there even be a tomorrow

This rope don’t choke it feels good
Racing mind but slow heart
1 beat to every thousand thoughts
How long can this go on

This rope don’t cho.....

Dear Love,

Who are you?

Why do people speak so fondly of you yet hate you freely too?

You break peoples will to live and give it all in the same breath

You are a conflicting in your actions and have no mercy

You strike without warning

You let suffering happen yet take it all away just the next day

What gives you the right?

Sometimes I wonder if it’s worth it at all
Desperately fighting this feeling of being small
I try so hard but I can’t escape it
Maybe I should just fake it

I can’t do anything right it all seems such a fight
Flight seems the only way to go
My mind keeps going to and thro

Run away, go back to the knife
After all it’s not worth all this strife
You could kick up a fuss
But it’s all to much
Just slash away and turn your self to...

Nothing...

STOP

Be quiet

Are you listening?

My words are belittling

You don’t move, no repositioning

What have you been witnessing?

Why are you so scared?

Please don’t be

It’s me

STOP