The only guy who I ever loved like never before. That no matter what hurt you gave me I would never leave.
But it’s not fair, that I get to hurt when you get to be okay
That I have to suffer only to make you happy
I lost part of myself when I left you, because you were my whole world. And I didn’t know where to find a reason to keep living for.
Because your all that ever mattered to me. I never wanted anyone more than I wanted you.
And I hate you! More than anything in this world. Because I fell in love with you and you didn’t catch me. You only did whatever made you happy or whatever was convenient for you. And I noticed it but I didn’t want to lose you. I did everything for you only for you to know that I care for you and that you wouldn’t replace me. But you didn’t want me... you always left me and ignored me. That now when I get left or ignored I feel like nothing. I feel that the person I’m trying to be with doesn’t want to be with me and that I’ll never ever find happiness because you said so.
You broke me, you made me feel ugly because you were never happy for the way I looked. You made me feel worthless for the times you cheated. You made me feel weak for the times you lied. You made me feel like I didn’t matter. And that no matter what I do or say no one will care and no one will listen. I never lied to you because I always told you truth because I didn’t want you to look stupid.
I always cried at night because I didn’t want you to know your hurting me or that you can have power over me.
This one is for you, the guy who broke me