I can’t stop feeling all these empty spaces.
It's like waiting by a phone that won't ring,
take a look around its only me.
the world is quiet while I scream
and the cuts…
The cuts are so deep, but you’re not
around to stop the bleed.  **** I
hate me. What more could be said
In an empty room full of only regret.  

-SNP

I wish we could meet each other all over again
so much about me has changed and it feels wrong  
that you don’t know who I am.

I wish we could meet each other all over again
because I know you’ve changed too
and it’s sad that I don’t know who you are anymore

I wish we could meet each other all over again
and rediscover each other,
get lost in all the change
get lost in each other

I wish we could meet again …..

I start every new year with a list of resolutions because I get swept up in the changing of the year. I trick myself into believing that i'm getting a fresh start but I'll be the same i was yesterday. This year was one of the worst, so much happened and I'm not sure how to move on. I think I have to be better then I was last year, because who we are as people is the only thing that matters. Isn't that how we grow?


The scars I wear only tell part of the story I know that now.

I thought I could poor out all my words onto a page and Id eventually come up with something profound or earth shattering. What I discovered is that I'm a contradiction I'm full of hope while being hopeless, I love while I hate, and I hold it all together while I completely fall apart. Everything about me is murky and complicated is that profound or earth shattering ? or is it just the human condition ? Am I falling short or am I, at the precipice of all of it? Who can know for sure?