Your sins have been forgiven
The shackles are off
You are no long tied to this kingdom of Darkness

FLEE

But I’m still here Lord
I’m still chained God
I hear your declaration of freedom from sin
I speak and hear and write about it all day but

But not me why?

Is there something I’m missing? A eureka? A revelation

I hear the words but I do not live them. Why Lord?

Have I fallen for these shackles
Have I made this pit my new home

What is lacking Lord? Please help me see it ?

Lord each breath I take is a gift from You
Each feeling of joy, desire and sorrow comes from You
Let everything I feel be for your Glory
Let it echo within me and send my praise high into your Holy place
Lord I thank you for all I see
I thank you for each perfectly designed creature you created
May what we see bring praise to our lips
And excite our hearts with a holy cry
I thank You, Lord and I praise you.

Is there forgiveness for the sinner?
Yes? Maybe? No?
How many times can God forgive my countless sins
How many times do I have to disappoint Him
Before he casts me out like the demons that wage war deep within the earth
How many times, God do I have to mess up for you to realize
That this stained, tainted soul isn’t worth what you sacrificed
Lord, God, Father- how many times do I have to bring shame to your name
In the light all is right yet in the dark where you see all I’m... rotten, shameful
Constantly bringing shame to your precious divine Name
Lord how many times do I have to cry and realize that they mean nothing
Because a few days from now a repetition of the sin I’ve cultivated  is expected
Lord, God, Father how many times can you forgive?