Lesoko

Lesoko Apr 2019

Lord the tears remain deep within
The shame that I carry weighs me no more
It’s a part of me
A feeling I’ve scarified You for
Lord the tears remain deep within
As I find myself numb
To the pain
Hurt
Anger
Always, simply moving through the motions of life

Lesoko Apr 2019

I did it again

I did it again
I stopped and watched the sin
Found myself enthralled, captivated by it
Then I sat, my hands itching to take part
In this evil concubine of sin made by man
Then I sinned
I blemished the snow, my soul, the One the Savior died to cleanse
I burned the bright bridge that lead to the One
All that work
All that prayer
Only for a single, evil thought to burn it all away
Right before my eyes
I sinned
Now I watch as I’m pulled back
The light I so desperately desire shrinking
Shrinking
Shirking
Till I found myself completely immersed in darkness
My heart beats, it doubles as my eyes sweep this oblivion I’ve created
Looking forward there is no light
On silent darkness
I sinned
And burned the bridge that lead me to Him

#sin

Lesoko Mar 2019

Dethrone

Dethrone all that is shameful
Dethrone all that is sinful
Dethrone all things that are not of the One

Day and day we put something on our throne
We worship this being and praise it
We believe it brings us satisfaction, happiness and fufillment
But all we do is waste the short time we’ve been given

Dethrone

Stop putting up this thing and making it your king
Stop believing the lies it tells you; it's soft whisper of deceit

Dethrone

I can’t live like this anymore, I won’t live like this anymore
I won’t waste my time on things that keep me thirsty

Dethrone

See, there's one King
One being
One father who belongs on that throne
The one we should worship day and night
And continuously shout about his goodness and mercy
See this King is amazing he loves unconditionally

Yahweh the one
Let's put him on our throne

Lesoko Mar 2019

Distraction

Distraction

I want a distraction

Drown out all the unwanted thoughts, pain, hurt

Put the music a little louder

Pour a little more into my cup of shame

Keep the thoughts out

I want a distraction

Lesoko Mar 2019

Sin

Sin
Oh, the pleasures of sin
How they so easily ensnare you
How they lure you in with a soft sigh
Sin
How devious and clever you are
Even the greatest have fallen at your feet
Found themselves entangled in your web of deceit and shame
Sin
How happy you must be
To see us all try and fail….continually
How we fall for the same trick
How we quickly waddle over when you simply wave your finger
Sin
I hear your malicious laugh through the night
Taunting and teasing those who can’t resist your mischievous eyes
Oh, but Sin you have met your match
The One who defeated the grave
The One who isn’t me but lives within me
The One who loves unconditionally and the One who never changes
Sin
Oh, how I hate to say that your darkness shall no longer intrigue the lost
But The One, the light of The One, shall call the lost sheep to repentance

Lesoko Mar 2019

Lord, I'm Sorry

Lord I’m sorry
I’ve failed to deny myself the temporary pleasures of this world
I've failed to chose you above all else like you continually do
I’ve failed to express your love and shower the world with it
I’ve failed to show your people compassion and mercy
But Lord my greatest failure will always be not loving You enough
Lord, I’m sorry

Lesoko Mar 2019

The Day Is Coming

The Day is coming where there's no chances
The Day is coming when all my sins and failures crawl back to me
All the things I’ve suppressed mentally, physically will seep into the cracks of the foundation I’ve tried so hard to build
The Day is coming when my rejection of the truth will judge me… hurt me
Lord I’ve tried
I know I didn’t try hard enough
I lied to you to myself to everybody
I’ve build a temple for world
Where people can come in as they please
Breaking and wrecking everything I've tried so hard to build
Lord I’m done
For the day is coming where sorry won’t work
Where going on my knees and asking for forgiveness won’t do
Chance after chance opportunity after opportunity you’ve given me
And I've wasted
And each I've thrown back with shake of my head a drawl of 'no way' on my lips
All you’ve done is show me love and I return it back with rejection
I’ve lied cheated, hurt, embarrassed killed
Maybe not literally but killing is killing
Lord I’m scared that there is no salvation for me
That I’m just meant to twist and turn in the hot furnace, Lord
Facing and serving my time for all the decisions I’ve made against you
Isn’t that what I deserve?
Lord the Day is coming and I fear i won’t be ready
I fear the spirits and demons that lurk in every corner of my life
I fear the day when I will see Your face and you won't recognise me
Because all I’ve done has masked the beauty You created
I wish I knew
I wish I knew
but The Day is coming and I’m done for